So, here's my Hawaii update (over 6 years after I was told to leave the USA permanently due to the Patriot Act & revisions)and on the anniversary of my sister's death.
For the past 3 years since I've been in Hawaii, I have been unable to receive international phone calls for 2 years. Additionally, I have received almost 0 phone calls from anyone other than my "Krav Maga" Instructor, it seems as if my phone was practically blocked from being able to receive other domestic calls for most of nearly 2 years. Since I have moved residence in my 3rd year, It has only lasted 2 months and my work has vanished in almost all entirety. Mostly due to the combined though maybe not coordinated efforts of retired & currently employed Navy men who have basically put me in a homeless status and financially crippled me while attempting to create numerous "lawsuit" type legal issues that have have me engaged till November 2012 now.
Aside from knowing numerous CEO's of companies and other substantial US families also known as some of the "Clinton Boys" who will go unnamed at this point;- none of them have assisted me in any way since prior to 9-11. They have also not made any effort to assist me and rather chose to complicate and put my life in knowing Jeopardy over the past 14years.
Their perspective to me is something I will try to explain below.
In a confused way they see m have treated me like an outsider because of my race alone. On the other hand, they make a mockery of me because I do speak English well and have not learned Japanese because they would not let me speak with my mother for many years, and I have almost no family support. Note: many of the people I speak of have support from their relatives and extended families. Basically, it constitutes an entirely abusive environment in which I have had to endure complete humility. Additionally, they afford me no protections in my identity and use my identity against me to further their political goals. My life is so terse it is difficult for me to convince anyone that my story is also true in any way. Most Americans, Military and non military resort to "belief" like in Santa Claus, rather than actual provable facts as to my relatives and other trans-national issues that they have created. It is humiliating. And, racism/nationalism as these other US citizens like to use against me, and to degrade my person for not being "white" enough in every way is something that is used from coast to coast by most people.
Additionally;- where they make exception to help other people in business stops with me. They have no intention to respect me as a person, woman, international business contact, or fellow American. In fact they condemn me to the lower levels of life by their actions, sins, and other beliefs about what they think I should be due to circulation of images similar to mine in other entertainment devices. And, the "Security" people who exist have extorted or robbed me of any monies that I had to keep my life secure. This is due to their "responsibility" to themselves and their security position to keep their "Financial Credit" healthy. And so, this continually puts me in an adverse position where my life's safety is compromised and they look like "hero" Internationally to the name of Homeland Security and other Security that they train, etc.
This is aside from numerous physical injuries that I have incurred as a result of such "security" personnel who were not wanted in my life to begin with, from the time I arrived in Honolulu, Hawaii. These person(s) also see themselves as furthering their cause and employment by creating a demand for needed "security training" by creating security issues (this seems needless to say, as this is how most USA jobs function).
As far as understanding "friends", I have found none so far. The matters that concern me in my life at this time are extremely life threatening in both long and short term scenarios. My safety & business is currently completely compromised. That is aside from my father's old CIA contacts doing direct harm to my immediate family, and particularly myself-- through my identity, professionalism, and physical person.
I am in such a compromised position at this point, I cannot go further and achieve the goals set forth for me and skill sets I have had to develop over my lifetime in order to build a larger and international business. I also do not know that I can personally endure any more humiliation from the USA;- whether intentional or accidental because the rate of control over my life seems too great for me to overcome. I am one person who has had to try and overcome many different international and domestic enemies in my homeland the USA. My life seems near expiration without serious help from my relatives abroad. Especially since the Patriot Act has redefined my position as a 1st generation USA citizen. That's all I can summarize tonight.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Tuesday, June 05, 2012
My Debtor-Landlord & How I was thrown on street by court
Summary- how the Hawaii Court does not and cannot protect my basic Civil Rights:
1. I paid my May 2012 rent in full on May 1st that included Utilities.
2. The Electric to the Penthouse Apt was shut off on May 1st 2012 by the AOAO
3. I waited 1 week for the matter to be resolved by my landlord.
4. I filed a complaint in District Court May 8th about an Illegal Utility Cut-off due to tenant to which there should have been a decision.
5. Hawaii Court Commenced a hearing on May 16th and continued the hearing for June 6th to which there should have been a decision made sooner by the Hawaii State law.
7. My lease was terminated due to legalities.
8. I moved the last of my things though my person could not live at the Condo/Apt building any longer.
9. Since The court made no decision and I was unprepared for such disruption to my life that involved intense conversations & litigation research, I was unable to prepare for another move on short notice
10. And, The AOAO turned the Electric back on after my lease was confirmed to be terminated.
11. So, I'm basically on the street since there are few if any persons who can help in an agreeable way.
12. Basically, it's like the court threw me out on the streets without consideration and I am being preyed upon for prostitution purposes;- or my safety is severely compromised. I refuse to live in a Homeless shelter since my freedom is regulated and will be further compromised.
13. Further hearing for the matter takes place in US Bankruptcy Court Hawaii in mid July when that court has time for hearing for my Motion to lift Automatic Stay so that the District Court can proceed on the Matter which should have been expedited in May. After Tomorrow's June 6th Hearing Date I have to make a request for the hearing to be continued till the Lift of Stay hearing has occurred.
14. There are laws that should be protecting my rights, even under Federal Bankruptcy Procedure;- I feel it is the Judges Failure to recognize and pay heed to these laws that I am suffering out on the Streets (in a manner of speaking).
1. I paid my May 2012 rent in full on May 1st that included Utilities.
2. The Electric to the Penthouse Apt was shut off on May 1st 2012 by the AOAO
3. I waited 1 week for the matter to be resolved by my landlord.
4. I filed a complaint in District Court May 8th about an Illegal Utility Cut-off due to tenant to which there should have been a decision.
5. Hawaii Court Commenced a hearing on May 16th and continued the hearing for June 6th to which there should have been a decision made sooner by the Hawaii State law.
Recovery of possession limited (TURNING OFF UTILITIES) - Section 74.5. The6. Since the hearing the litigation in the building between my landlord and AOAO made it unbearable for me to stay at the Apt without electricity. Also, there was a neighboring Electrical fire on morning of Friday the 18th of May that woke me up.
landlord shall not recover or take possession of a dwelling unit by the willful interruption
or diminution of running water, hot water, or electric, gas, or other essential service to
the tenant, except in case of abandonment or surrender.
A landlord who engages in this act shall be deemed to have engaged in an unfair
method of competition or unfair and deceptive acts or practices and subject to penalties
under 480-3.1 in addition to a minimum penalty of three times the monthly rent or
$1,000, whichever is greater. (from website: http://hawaii.gov/dcca/ocp/landlord_tenant/landlord-tenant-handbook.pdf on June 3, 2012)
7. My lease was terminated due to legalities.
8. I moved the last of my things though my person could not live at the Condo/Apt building any longer.
9. Since The court made no decision and I was unprepared for such disruption to my life that involved intense conversations & litigation research, I was unable to prepare for another move on short notice
10. And, The AOAO turned the Electric back on after my lease was confirmed to be terminated.
11. So, I'm basically on the street since there are few if any persons who can help in an agreeable way.
12. Basically, it's like the court threw me out on the streets without consideration and I am being preyed upon for prostitution purposes;- or my safety is severely compromised. I refuse to live in a Homeless shelter since my freedom is regulated and will be further compromised.
13. Further hearing for the matter takes place in US Bankruptcy Court Hawaii in mid July when that court has time for hearing for my Motion to lift Automatic Stay so that the District Court can proceed on the Matter which should have been expedited in May. After Tomorrow's June 6th Hearing Date I have to make a request for the hearing to be continued till the Lift of Stay hearing has occurred.
14. There are laws that should be protecting my rights, even under Federal Bankruptcy Procedure;- I feel it is the Judges Failure to recognize and pay heed to these laws that I am suffering out on the Streets (in a manner of speaking).
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
I'm Getting tossed on the Streets by Hawaii & Federal Court
I'm living in Waikiki, my shortest tenancy in Hawaii to date. There's NOONE to actually enforce the "illegal utility shut-off" at my current residence, yet there is a Humane Society to provide Air Conditioning to the dogs and cats of Oahu. And, in theory;- there should have been some sort of protection for me as a tenant as this is a violation of my rights. And so, because I speak English, yet have no help to defend myself from the exploitation of my situation in the United States;- I'm getting tossed on the street It seems;- by May 31st, with only 22 days notice that have been absorbed by 22 days of court filing/research/consumer complaints, etc. And, includes 1 electrical fire on the Morning of Friday May 18th, 2012 in the PH-2 unit with an adjoining wall to PH-1 where I reside.
So, I have no relatives, no actual friends who can assist me, and am out of money. I will not live in a shelter situation. And, at this point;- this seems to be my exodus of Hawaii, the USA, OR my Career choice that was my life;- I'm not sure which exactly.
Needless to say;- that I read in a US Bankruptcy Court Document that is related to this situation that the Representing law firm of the Housing Association of the Building where I currently reside today;- Has stated in their motion/docket that the landlord is helping me to "Defraud" their Association out of utilities while there is what is called an "Automatic Stay" that has been put in place to protect my landlord from Utility Cut-Off situation. I believe it's called Defamation of my Character/Libel per se and Malicious Prosecution against my District Court filed Ex Parte TRO against Unlawful Utility Cut Off that was filed the day before their Docket was filed in District Court.
So... Yes. I'm done with Hawaii. There is no remedy for my situation and I'm beyond fed up trying to live in the USA;- after everyone punished me for being related to some of Imperial Japan's past and Architectural Giants on the Globe.
You have killed me with nearly 40 years of discrimination and blatant human rights violations against my person, that no court or attorney would even attempt to protect. I will be dead before succumbing to a shelter or prostituting the streets of Hawaii. FED UP.
"Such conduct is deemed to be an unfair and deceptive act and practice and could subject the landlord to damages of a minimum of the greater of three times the monthly rent, or $1000 and an additional civil penalty from $500 to $10,000 for every day of violation." from website http://hawaii.gov/dcca/ocp/landlord_tenant/res_lt_msg/7665.html
So, I have no relatives, no actual friends who can assist me, and am out of money. I will not live in a shelter situation. And, at this point;- this seems to be my exodus of Hawaii, the USA, OR my Career choice that was my life;- I'm not sure which exactly.
Needless to say;- that I read in a US Bankruptcy Court Document that is related to this situation that the Representing law firm of the Housing Association of the Building where I currently reside today;- Has stated in their motion/docket that the landlord is helping me to "Defraud" their Association out of utilities while there is what is called an "Automatic Stay" that has been put in place to protect my landlord from Utility Cut-Off situation. I believe it's called Defamation of my Character/Libel per se and Malicious Prosecution against my District Court filed Ex Parte TRO against Unlawful Utility Cut Off that was filed the day before their Docket was filed in District Court.
So... Yes. I'm done with Hawaii. There is no remedy for my situation and I'm beyond fed up trying to live in the USA;- after everyone punished me for being related to some of Imperial Japan's past and Architectural Giants on the Globe.
You have killed me with nearly 40 years of discrimination and blatant human rights violations against my person, that no court or attorney would even attempt to protect. I will be dead before succumbing to a shelter or prostituting the streets of Hawaii. FED UP.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Unconstitutional to Who? My landlord's in Bankruptcy!!!
Moving day, I was so ecstatic to be moving from my old place and cutting my rent nearly in half in the Economy of April 2012. Little did I know, my NEW landlord was in bankruptcy.
I was aware that my landlord "may" be under foreclosure;- however I had an inexpensive room in a house on the market in a similar situation. I thought I'd be there for 1 month maybe two at first. I wound up living there for approximately 1 year until the sale of the house (approx. $682,000) was closed on.
I found out May 1st that my new landlord is indeed, in bankruptcy. And, in my searches through Hawaii's Supreme Court Library;- I have only found a few laws and cases that apply to private/personal leases and tenants taking landlords to court.
Plus, the electricity has been shut off since May 1st by the Association that runs the building. It's an older building so all of the utilities are not on separate lots. And, the Association/Board decided to try and force
anyone in the Penthouse apartment unit out of the unit by shutting off the utilities to the unit at the breaker box within the building. Keep in mind, the breaker box is indeed LOCKED.
Step 1. After a nearly a week of discussion with my landlord in person I mailed a letter stating that I'd like the utilities restored.
Step 2. After his hearing with the Association in Federal Bankruptcy Court to have utilities restored;- the Association did not turn on the utilities. So I filed a petition(s) for TRO against Unlawful Utility Cut-Off as well as related "Claims for damages". Keep in mind, the landlord would possibly incur daily fines of $500 to $10,000 in Hawaii for not providing the basic hot water, electric, etc. (despite it not being his "direct" fault)
Step 3. The hearing for my case commenced yesterday May 16, 2012 as I feel I exercise my tenant rights despite under Hawaii District Court Landlord-Tenant Manual --The Landlord as the Debtor 365 (h)(1) "...the non-debtor tenant may elect to retain its rights under the lease." And 365(h)(1)(A)(ii) specifically relating for my "quiet enjoyment, etc."
Step 4: The initial "Ex Parte TRO (Temporary Restraining Order) against unlawful utility shut off" has an addendum TRO on it as "TRO for Harassment." And, I was instructed by the Judge to file for a "Motion for a lift of stay" in US Federal Bankruptcy Court, in order for me to proceed in the District Court.
This has 2 SERIOUS problems:
1. I reside at the same residence with my landlord in a separate bed/bath situation;- as it is a penthouse.
2. To file for a "Motion for a lift of Stay" is expensive ($150 file fee) as well as filing any and additional Complaint at ($293) without an attorney. And, I believe must be filed with 20 days notice to debtor-landlord.
Step 5: Filing Motion for lift of stay as by Federal Procedure/Bankruptcy/9:1111 Motion for Relief:
- as I researched in the Supreme Court Law Library and also viewing the forms for Motion for lift of stay/Automatic Stay. I am not in a typical Creditor position for which these Motion forms seem to be intended. Though i may use terms "non-debtor tenant and debtor-landlord" I do not feel that it doesn't compromise my BASIC U.S. Constitutional Rights. And so I found that there is 9:335 Constitutional limitation on exercise of jurisdiction by bankruptcy court, and am wondering why in the world I, personally have to file for the Motion for lift of stay despite my landlord and his property falling under Title 11.
It seems unconstitutional to me to have to even subject myself to being potentially held in contempt of court at the Federal level when this is a case that should only be held at the State or District level. I feel that the very act of Filing for Motion for lift of Stay violates my individual Constitutional rights that are deemed "Limited" by the Federal Bankruptcy court.
I'm screaming inside since this happened yesterday. I feel so Violated by the Hawaii Court System and that they are ordering me to deny myself my basic Constitutional Rights and also to Due Process.
I was aware that my landlord "may" be under foreclosure;- however I had an inexpensive room in a house on the market in a similar situation. I thought I'd be there for 1 month maybe two at first. I wound up living there for approximately 1 year until the sale of the house (approx. $682,000) was closed on.
I found out May 1st that my new landlord is indeed, in bankruptcy. And, in my searches through Hawaii's Supreme Court Library;- I have only found a few laws and cases that apply to private/personal leases and tenants taking landlords to court.
Plus, the electricity has been shut off since May 1st by the Association that runs the building. It's an older building so all of the utilities are not on separate lots. And, the Association/Board decided to try and force
anyone in the Penthouse apartment unit out of the unit by shutting off the utilities to the unit at the breaker box within the building. Keep in mind, the breaker box is indeed LOCKED.
Step 1. After a nearly a week of discussion with my landlord in person I mailed a letter stating that I'd like the utilities restored.
Step 2. After his hearing with the Association in Federal Bankruptcy Court to have utilities restored;- the Association did not turn on the utilities. So I filed a petition(s) for TRO against Unlawful Utility Cut-Off as well as related "Claims for damages". Keep in mind, the landlord would possibly incur daily fines of $500 to $10,000 in Hawaii for not providing the basic hot water, electric, etc. (despite it not being his "direct" fault)
Step 3. The hearing for my case commenced yesterday May 16, 2012 as I feel I exercise my tenant rights despite under Hawaii District Court Landlord-Tenant Manual --The Landlord as the Debtor 365 (h)(1) "...the non-debtor tenant may elect to retain its rights under the lease." And 365(h)(1)(A)(ii) specifically relating for my "quiet enjoyment, etc."
Step 4: The initial "Ex Parte TRO (Temporary Restraining Order) against unlawful utility shut off" has an addendum TRO on it as "TRO for Harassment." And, I was instructed by the Judge to file for a "Motion for a lift of stay" in US Federal Bankruptcy Court, in order for me to proceed in the District Court.
This has 2 SERIOUS problems:
1. I reside at the same residence with my landlord in a separate bed/bath situation;- as it is a penthouse.
2. To file for a "Motion for a lift of Stay" is expensive ($150 file fee) as well as filing any and additional Complaint at ($293) without an attorney. And, I believe must be filed with 20 days notice to debtor-landlord.
Step 5: Filing Motion for lift of stay as by Federal Procedure/Bankruptcy/9:1111 Motion for Relief:
- as I researched in the Supreme Court Law Library and also viewing the forms for Motion for lift of stay/Automatic Stay. I am not in a typical Creditor position for which these Motion forms seem to be intended. Though i may use terms "non-debtor tenant and debtor-landlord" I do not feel that it doesn't compromise my BASIC U.S. Constitutional Rights. And so I found that there is 9:335 Constitutional limitation on exercise of jurisdiction by bankruptcy court, and am wondering why in the world I, personally have to file for the Motion for lift of stay despite my landlord and his property falling under Title 11.
It seems unconstitutional to me to have to even subject myself to being potentially held in contempt of court at the Federal level when this is a case that should only be held at the State or District level. I feel that the very act of Filing for Motion for lift of Stay violates my individual Constitutional rights that are deemed "Limited" by the Federal Bankruptcy court.
I'm screaming inside since this happened yesterday. I feel so Violated by the Hawaii Court System and that they are ordering me to deny myself my basic Constitutional Rights and also to Due Process.
Tuesday, May 08, 2012
Japanese, War, Fighting.. a thought
When Japanese say that a country's people can fight, it is because Japan has battled them. And, it is talked about openly in different nations with different perspectives.
When people of other nations say that another particular country's people can fight, it may only be because they have heard a story of a battle. Though those battles may also be private and secret because they violate treaties in peaceful times. It is not on a world platform for others to discuss.
Yet many people scrutinize only Japan.
When people of other nations say that another particular country's people can fight, it may only be because they have heard a story of a battle. Though those battles may also be private and secret because they violate treaties in peaceful times. It is not on a world platform for others to discuss.
Yet many people scrutinize only Japan.
Why I am "insane"
For many years in the USA I've endured extreme discrimination and human rights violations against my person, my livelihood, and my life. Nearly all of my dreams for my life have vanished in entirety and with the death of my siblings.
My so called friends, such as many people on my Facebook and in my life, are psychologically abusive and also harbor and support white supremacist beliefs;- since many "friends" are from my hometown, and my past.
I'm also not proud of being forced to live the life of an "activist" on the East Coast because it is a sure sign of the extreme suppression and abuse that I have had to endure. Activism was a way for me to survive at a bare bones minimum for my life when being attacked, abducted, assaulted, and violated in rich/wealthy caucasian neighborhoods where I was employed as a classical piano teacher/faculty.
My so called friends and others around me such as "employers" as they call themselves enjoy making light/fun of my alleged family in Japan. These friends and "employers" have no way of proving and are not wealthy enough to be entitled to information about my relations in Japan. Additionally, because they suppress and have suppressed not only my success in my life to make peaceful options available;- they would like to "prescribe" medication to me for my claiming such "outrageous" things such as being related to certain individuals in Japan, or having a decent life. I have found that this includes many other Japanese-Americans in the USA/Hawaii who enjoy their lives that they have built in the USA in the sex trade and related "Hawaiian & Asian professions".
I find their presence and interaction in my life intolerable, demeaning, and insulting.
However, just like normal Americans of any race or ethnicity;- the people I have met in Hawaii have only used me to take any earnings that I had to create and develop what I came to Hawaii to do. I am only if anything left with basic shelter, clothes, and food. It has literally been a miserable 8 years since my life has been dismantled by others in the American public from Pennsylvania/New York and to Hawaii.
My so called friends, such as many people on my Facebook and in my life, are psychologically abusive and also harbor and support white supremacist beliefs;- since many "friends" are from my hometown, and my past.
I'm also not proud of being forced to live the life of an "activist" on the East Coast because it is a sure sign of the extreme suppression and abuse that I have had to endure. Activism was a way for me to survive at a bare bones minimum for my life when being attacked, abducted, assaulted, and violated in rich/wealthy caucasian neighborhoods where I was employed as a classical piano teacher/faculty.
My so called friends and others around me such as "employers" as they call themselves enjoy making light/fun of my alleged family in Japan. These friends and "employers" have no way of proving and are not wealthy enough to be entitled to information about my relations in Japan. Additionally, because they suppress and have suppressed not only my success in my life to make peaceful options available;- they would like to "prescribe" medication to me for my claiming such "outrageous" things such as being related to certain individuals in Japan, or having a decent life. I have found that this includes many other Japanese-Americans in the USA/Hawaii who enjoy their lives that they have built in the USA in the sex trade and related "Hawaiian & Asian professions".
I find their presence and interaction in my life intolerable, demeaning, and insulting.
However, just like normal Americans of any race or ethnicity;- the people I have met in Hawaii have only used me to take any earnings that I had to create and develop what I came to Hawaii to do. I am only if anything left with basic shelter, clothes, and food. It has literally been a miserable 8 years since my life has been dismantled by others in the American public from Pennsylvania/New York and to Hawaii.
Thursday, May 03, 2012
US Postal Service vs. Mail Fraud
Secure PO Boxes will vanish with the closure of USPS branches. Mail Fraud and use of other persons' addresses will escalate, despite it being a felony offense. We know mailboxes with cameras can be dismantled with the Baseball bat. Renting private addresses from other Domestic USA shipping contenders is undesirable in some cases and also expensive.
Scary...
Scary...
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Reason no.#### i'm still not married
So, the other day, my new "love of my life-boyfriendish" tells me he has some things on his camera. I looked quick and found a smattering of videos of girls in his bed in some place overseas. And, some photos of him with some "not so attractive" Asian women in Hong Kong, and confirmed prostitutes, yes more than one, he was kissing on a chair in November (when I was at APEC). So, after I dropped pressing charges (so he can keep his job) for some Assault 3 charges on him from Easter weekend. (despite being Designated Driver the weekend before putting up with his rantings and his drunken shipmate on their own independent excursion) Tried to ignore his excessive drunken rough housing with me this past weekend-- leaving a bump on my head from his head butting me. We are officially done. That's aside from him having his ex-wife & baby momma sleeping at his place next week without bringing his son to visit. And, after a smattering of unfulfilled things he said he'd do to help me.
I don't think he, like other sailors and soldiers, thinks that I could be at all offended by his behavior. Or that I'm entitled to protect myself. Or that the apology I want is something I should be given. And, as an Asian-American woman who had talent, college degree, and career work I am completely disrespected here in Hawaii.
I don't think he, like other sailors and soldiers, thinks that I could be at all offended by his behavior. Or that I'm entitled to protect myself. Or that the apology I want is something I should be given. And, as an Asian-American woman who had talent, college degree, and career work I am completely disrespected here in Hawaii.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Vent on: Military men in Hawaii
Dating the US military guy...
This is difficult. Then add in extra difficulty if you're like me and Asian/Japanese type of woman in the sense that you aren't American homespun with all of your relevant family in the USA. Military men seem to think that because I currently live in Hawaii;- means that I'm o.k. with what I consider a nightmarish prostitution/hostess bar scene that Hawaii State regulates. Fact is: I never saw a hostess bar or typical Asian prostitution scene until I moved to Hawaii. And, I don't like it.
Dating & relationship pet peeves that irritate me and lead to relationship failure:
1. Military guys who give porn to my male friends saying they think it's me on the video (note: this applies to a plethora f-ton of American guys (B/W/other) who have little to no decent relationships with Asian women they have met overseas at strip bars or hired as prostitutes. Hawaii seems to tolerate this behavior a ton.
2. Military guys who get back from deployment having an Asian or specifically Japanese porn addiction;- thinking that I'll be o.k. with their Asian porn association to my personality. This applies to most guys in the USA since most of their experience with Asian/Japanese women is watching and looking at porn. They don't care that I was raised with Christian values, and so I have to try and pick the "less scummy" guys out of the pile, or stay single.
3. Military guys who think that because they watch Asian porn;- it's o.k. to be mentally and emotionally numb to my feelings. Military guys feel they are more deserving to treat me badly in this sense because they have "earned" it through their service. Trying for an apology from them is usually unsuccessful.
The majority of American guys I meet, and even spend time with eventually bring any hope of a relationship to a sudden halt. Mostly, because they just see me as something to be used. Their behavior has gotten to be so tired, repulsive, and contrary to anything I want my life to come in contact with it's making my staying in the States highly improbable. Respect for me teeters on the brink of disaster daily;- and if I'm lucky maybe weekly.
This is difficult. Then add in extra difficulty if you're like me and Asian/Japanese type of woman in the sense that you aren't American homespun with all of your relevant family in the USA. Military men seem to think that because I currently live in Hawaii;- means that I'm o.k. with what I consider a nightmarish prostitution/hostess bar scene that Hawaii State regulates. Fact is: I never saw a hostess bar or typical Asian prostitution scene until I moved to Hawaii. And, I don't like it.
Dating & relationship pet peeves that irritate me and lead to relationship failure:
1. Military guys who give porn to my male friends saying they think it's me on the video (note: this applies to a plethora f-ton of American guys (B/W/other) who have little to no decent relationships with Asian women they have met overseas at strip bars or hired as prostitutes. Hawaii seems to tolerate this behavior a ton.
2. Military guys who get back from deployment having an Asian or specifically Japanese porn addiction;- thinking that I'll be o.k. with their Asian porn association to my personality. This applies to most guys in the USA since most of their experience with Asian/Japanese women is watching and looking at porn. They don't care that I was raised with Christian values, and so I have to try and pick the "less scummy" guys out of the pile, or stay single.
3. Military guys who think that because they watch Asian porn;- it's o.k. to be mentally and emotionally numb to my feelings. Military guys feel they are more deserving to treat me badly in this sense because they have "earned" it through their service. Trying for an apology from them is usually unsuccessful.
The majority of American guys I meet, and even spend time with eventually bring any hope of a relationship to a sudden halt. Mostly, because they just see me as something to be used. Their behavior has gotten to be so tired, repulsive, and contrary to anything I want my life to come in contact with it's making my staying in the States highly improbable. Respect for me teeters on the brink of disaster daily;- and if I'm lucky maybe weekly.
Saturday, January 07, 2012
USA vs. Japan my world...new year 2012
The martial arts instructor, primarily E. Li or S Kai Li or Yoshiaki Li (kendo), told me at the onset of my arrival in Hawaii that he won't work for anyone. Since he has many connections to US law enforcement up to the international level also felt he is doing his duty by "training" me and that because of my relations in Japan, he has every right to take away everything from me including my life.
He &/or his Family & students in Hawaii from various dojo's where he teaches has already taken away most things that I purchased or has plans to take them away. At the onset, he destroyed my business potential in Hawaii at his mother's instruction. I have endured 3 years in Hawaii where he and his collegues, students, and friends have only damaged my life.
He has done so will full knowledge and intent to hurt me, any of my overseas Japanese relatives, and to make his own political statement about how women should be treated in Hawaii. He has done this primarily because of my relation to my Uncle Yoshitomo.
He &/or his Family & students in Hawaii from various dojo's where he teaches has already taken away most things that I purchased or has plans to take them away. At the onset, he destroyed my business potential in Hawaii at his mother's instruction. I have endured 3 years in Hawaii where he and his collegues, students, and friends have only damaged my life.
He has done so will full knowledge and intent to hurt me, any of my overseas Japanese relatives, and to make his own political statement about how women should be treated in Hawaii. He has done this primarily because of my relation to my Uncle Yoshitomo.
Tuesday, January 03, 2012
Diary1
I feel like I've been demolished over the New Year's Holiday. And, some of what I posted about my fearing my "Krav Maga" instructor is because his stress level is high. And, I have been the unlucky soul to see him loose control. And, with his protective parents (mind that he's encroaching on 50 yrs. old) and community behind his martial arts training and teaching. I have found over the past almost 3 years that they support his hurting people like me who are outsiders. The Mililani Town Association apparently doesn't have a "Blighted" homes list or website alerting people to things like his parents residence in the community. And, they seem to be making great exceptions to their condition. However, every letter that he claims to have gotten bring new unrest in my life. I am drained emotionally from this topsy turvy town and its parents and inhabitants. I also realize that I have to watch my back because I am not willing to be his victim through this last portion of his home remodeling. And, because he has presence in what seems to me to be nearly every martial art on Oahu and in Hawaii with over 30 black belts in various arts and some 5-6 or more Grandmaster titles in various arts.
If he really was that strong he wouldn't have felt the need to take away from my life. And, if he really was that strong he wouldn't need that many people to help abuse me. Today, my chest feels like it's in great pain and I am under great stress. These are some of the most embarassing posts of my life. However, somehow, I have survived to write them under his threats.
If he really was that strong he wouldn't have felt the need to take away from my life. And, if he really was that strong he wouldn't need that many people to help abuse me. Today, my chest feels like it's in great pain and I am under great stress. These are some of the most embarassing posts of my life. However, somehow, I have survived to write them under his threats.
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