What's Holding me Back with the Business- Any Success

People ask me why it is I have worked so hard, only to have nothing. The most prominent reason is that I have not had the right men in my life (particularly boyfriends). There is great difficulty that I am faced with in trying to establish myself internationally. From my life on the East Coast and around Ivy Leaguers, I'm just some "poor ethnic" female to be exploited. No, i can't say any of the men I've met on the East Coast have done my life any international good (Business-related) because of their racist and sexist attitudes. I have no tolerance for these "progressives" and have even less for those who aren't even close to being "Ivy League progressive".

The men I've met in Hawaii are sexually interested to the point where simple harassment is actual sexual assault in a minor way. So, I have no use for these men either. Then, I have to put up with them insulting my life further for their belief and "traditionally Asian" value system of making sure there are few if NO Japanese female executives.

I'm being drowned in a sea of sexist men for whom I have no liking for, though I am expected to tolerate them for purposes of political civility. Probably a reason why my mother lied to Japan so much about our actual conditions of living on the East Coast.

Then throw in all the "white women" who tell me to "lighten up."... They are threatened by my good genes in aging and quickly oust me out of their community for their own insecurities. This is something even my real Aunts don't have to tolerate in Japan with predominantly Asian women and men around.

So, it seems that my existence alone is threatening enough to my so-called friends and foes in the USA alike. Let alone them actually stepping out of their comfort zone and having to put some faith in believing that I have a large and powerful international family that was/is willing to give me, a female, a rare opportunity in the Export-Import world. My "fellow" Americans are ruining what the American Dream and rights and liberties are about because of their Bigoted (if not war-like) actions and words;- by holding the metaphoric gun to my head. I have had no portion of my life that I can keep sacred away from the vulgar American public interactions I have daily. I am very weary of all of this, for the name of what? Peace? It certainly doesn't seem that anyone in the USA who I have met wants much Peace. They seem damn proud that they Nuked my mom's country  and mine of Japan when she was still in it. Their distaste shows in my deteriorated life. For that they are proud.

From my perspective, they are all sorry creatures-- my past boyfriends, friends, and enemies... for not wanting to EVER believe that they destroyed what they think is improbable--if not damn near impossible to occur for a more peaceable (not war-like) world.

Hillary Clinton never spoke about helping American-Japanese Asian women like me. She only spoke about helping 3rd world farm working women. For that, I think, the USA is bogus since they will rarely--if ever help an "ethnic Asian woman" in the USA. Especially helping me with a large trans-national family doing business.

Rosicrucian and Depopulation of the Planet -- Introduction.

I grew up less than a mile from the actual 1940's Rosicrucian ceremony grounds in Bucks County, PA. My mother taught me that these people would shoot me because I'm half Japanese and half US Caucasian mix. And, throughout my life well into adulthood, They have attempted to kill me, as the Rosicrucians' founder's grandson (Lee Clymer) was a neighbor (with his wife Cathy Clymer) to me on the street I grew up on. You can find a blurb on these Rosicrucian in the "Atlas of Secret Societies by David Barrett ." This Rosicrucian Sect have been referred to as an abusive sex cult and have been ostracized from other Rosicrucian sects in the USA for their white supremacist views and practices. They also murdered my brother in 2005 in our backyard (we are both of half-Japanese nationality).

1. My brother told me (2004) that Lee Clymer made him work extra to CNC machine custom guns that the Rosacrucians white supremacist network sold and ran privately throughout the USA. This may or may not be part of some ultimate plan to decrease the world's population. But none the less it is heinous. There are also Federal/CIA agents and their counterparts who seek to promote drugs through these networks of Rosacrucians and their wanna be's.
2.  The Rosacrucians Clymers are related to Representative Clymer (PA) --and have close ties to Cheney. They use "divide and conquer" and many other tactics to smokescreen their white supremacist traditional values (that may go back to Hitler).
3. They also forced my brother to work for the Quakertown, PA irradiation plant @2002-2004 through a temporary employment agency (to cover up). They already knew that we were not supposed to be near radioactive materials. They then labeled my brother a terrorist trying to obtain uranium (in a cobalt reactor) and sent their slews of Illuminati/white trash junkies to barrage me and my brother with more murderous attacks. 

 Personal notes and their abuse never ends

1. Over the years growing up, I'm also quite sure they use mind-control protocols and that I've been exposed to their abuse throughout my childhood. I went through an intense period after the hypervigilant activist side of me emerged after leaving Quakertown and being politically torn at the age of 17 in my 1st semester Ithaca College dorm room and ignored.
2.  And, I had inherited land/house there from my Great Grandmom Kelley as I'm part Kelley, but they have turned me into one of their "Indigent Ethnics" as they so proudly rub in my face as they have completely decimated happiness in my life over the past 30+ years. I became an activist in High School. I later dedicated my time to fighting "the good fight" and learning from whoever I could who has skills to battle with these people. However, I have to say "C.B. you were right!!!!" They attacked me when I returned to my hometown, and I barely escaped with my life... and a duffel bag of clothes to Hawaii. I still have near nothing as I'm attacked by others who feel that they will have a place within the USA military orders if they harm me here in Hawaii.

Anyway, financially decimated and physically harmed... I'm still here.