Last night COF meeting

"People have withdrawn from nature, going over to culture. That means people have raised themselves only to be lowered. But we cannot manage without nature. Man doesn't have the right to withdrawal from it. Nature  is God." ~ Bruno Groening, "I give you a little wisdom of life on your way", pg. 40

Last night I received one "Schoolingletter" publication from our spiritual healing group leader. I have a lot to learn about going through this most difficult time politically, as I have been on the edge of having a suicidal bout the past week that stems from my knowing I will no longer influence my family's decisions, as I cease to exist in physicality. 

The onslaught of Hawaii being the American crossroads for international & domestic civilian, criminal, & military cultures is tremendous. And of course sorting political attacks against an American versus plain jealousy Amidst the novelty thefts by those from less criminally advantaged cultures is additional & unneeded adversity. 

Facsimile Arming

Subversive university actions @ commencement closings. Military turf is campus.  China takes actions against Jews, Egypt, fascism. 

My Giving "divine" light experience

No matter what "God's plan" is for us, I do believe we all leave our physical plane body or experience human "death". 

The Japanese based giving light cult was my most in depth spiritual "cleansing" experience this past year. I joined on 2-22-2015. Just relieved of my complicated Omitama pendant which enabled me to give light and sitting for a "receiving light" (okiyome) session  I'm sitting at D&B watching College football with some guacamole & bbq chips.

I know every time I entered, there was something more than spiritually distasteful about the place. Some of the Senior members, aside from being anti most everything I stand for by saying "God allows them to" so it's ok, didn't ever resonate well with me. Especially when it comes to the environment & my veganism. That and having over 50 something crowd breathing down my Gen X neck about contributing more money because "all money is God's".

Though I've had the omitama in the box for a while, I read a psychology article about people with severe psychosis "seeing things" and experiencing & explaining the world though a more primitive and unscientific mindset. Attempting to put a quantum value on it is, Obserd to me;- despite several members who seem to be excorcised by shaking and erratic movements during an okiyome session. It is grossly more subtle than an evangelist TV healer, however it has longer participatory times and exists as a fixture in some communities. 

Politically, financially, physically, and mentally draining and put in the hands of old wealthy Hawaiian-Japanese who are incredibly sexist and rude to all of my senses. They are rude because they dislike The East Coast experiences they have had and are used to 3rd world Hawaiian ways of living and socializing with undereducated women.

I've opted for 2 other more independent practices of similar spiritual Healing practices that are headed by actually known and acknowledged master Healers who walked the earth. This profound actual healer vs striving practitioner difference is what lead me away from OShinenushi Sama founder of Sukyomahikari. 

Plus I've had better results with extremely less time commitment than Sukyomahikari. And, with less interference to my actual human needs of employment and working on a lifelong project and such. 

The Omitama pendant used to give okiyome I was given upon completion of the primary course for $250 in Honolulu was returned today.

Paradise to a modern City scape

Most people fly, cruise, row, or sail to Hawaii in search of a peaceful and warm abode for a weekend or two in paradise.

My Morning Photo: Honolulu, Hawaii 

_______________________Like most women who get stuck here. I make enough to survive, but not enough to make up for the financial damage the men have caused due to lack of employment. I want to go back to life as usual on the mainland. That's aside from my business plans and how broke Hawaii state is -- so they try to extort my family stateside & Japan side for money so I don't get killed here. That's why they have shooters at meetings like APEC. Average people are horrible. The people they admire are worse.__________

- one woman I lived with was attacked at her job site taking inventory at the warehouse. The men cornered her and cracked her skull open. She made 70k+benefits a year. She has 3 Hawaiian children. She offered me the job. Of course I said no & remained the course of physical integrity. She left the island with her children for safety sake.

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my experience with Photography law inside a state building:- 

- I went to the Honolulu DMV on Dillingham to voluntarily surrender the taxi license I had obtained for work I tried barely a month prior. The clerk informed me she could only issue licenses. So, I went to take a photo showing an attempt at surrendering my license. She got her manager and he came to the window told me that it's illegal for me to take photo of his employee. I told him I'm representing myself in court and that I can take photos to defend myself in court. He kept telling me the legalities of my photo taking on me, implying immediate arrest if I didn't delete my photo. I asked him, "are you an attorney?" And he stayed in silence, no response. I asked him, can you tell me what laws there are that will tell me that info? He said "you can go look it up."

The manager had to tell his employee that they do accept surrendered certificates. I tried to point out to them their requirements say that I have to surrender it if I stop driving for 30days. So I need to know where to surrender the certificate of they don't accept it.

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