Showing posts with label Language. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Language. Show all posts

Monday, October 23, 2017

I was tortured in Quakertown, Pennsylvania

I & My Brother were bilingual growing up. I was forced to stop speaking Japanese and beaten in Elementary school, as well as sent to "speech" therapy because they didn't know if Japanese was a language or if I was making it up. They abused my mother in this way. My father ripped the phone out of my hands and spanked me with a leather belt until I learned not to talk to my Obasan . grandmother anymore. My mother got some Japanese schoolbooks for us and hid them, in fear of my father reprimanding s all for speaking Japanese in the house. It was one of my first languages. A trauma they induced one day was by confiscating everything Japanese that I loved from my room and beating me for having Japanese story books. They didn't even let me keep my favorite bedtime stories. They initially said it was because they were going to make money off of this story of mine by beating me and hurting me and told me I should be dead by the time I was 21. This was the same period my parents friends & my god parents told me they took pot bets to see if I would live. I became suicidal from the intense daily physical abuse from elementary school, church, other activities, as well as home life. I was not just punished at home. I was humiliated and tortured in front of my classmates in elementary school regularly. Initially it seemed like it was because I was brown from playing outside in the summers. However, the kids in elementary school were given instructions from their parents to hurt me verbally and physically because I am a person of Japanese descent. I had "fake" friends, but gave up on friendships because I found out that most kids would be my friend so other groups of kids would hurt me. Frequently I was gang beaten by other girls at elementary school with the Teachers standing within 15-25 feet away watching. The teachers near punished or stopped the other white children from harming me. 

This torture over my ability to speak Japanese went on through High School. The contorted white principals of the schools I attended frequently were the perpetrators of hurting me. They humiliated me regularly in school because I am  Japanese. They even put me in a class where the racist professors were so abusive because I am not caucasian. These were Elementary, Middle School, and High school instructors of Caucasian descent. They said I was too stupid to learn Japanese frequently and punished me in front of very white supremacist kids to put me down. I was frequently depressed and did not like to speak with anyone at my high school. If i didn't get some sort of favor with the white supremacist kids I was hurt physically  even more than just being verbally humiliated on a daily basis. I was forced to tolerate being harmed daily. The only thing I had a little control over was
I tried to get help from other "Human rights groups & Justice groups" but they refused to help me because I am not white or black/ African american. They made it clear rights were not for me and I am just a mutt/ a mudd to them. Even the African-Americans were abusive this way to me. They all liked to hurt us because that gave them common ground to relate on some level that wasn't their personal issues.  My friends were usually kids from big cities with parents who decided they did not like the school district. So, they were there only a short while.

1970's - 2000

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Blog topics thoughts after Netpac@25 symposiums

Analysis of the American Impact on peer censorship of cultural identity language of Asian Nations and localities 
(as an issue from domestic USA discrimination of nationality and or Race)

• How does this impact differ in specific regions of the USA. Variables to analyze include education level, industry presence, population density, political parties. Gross geographic regions traditonally separated by history such as East Coast USA's;-- New England, mid-political Washington DC area, to Southern Eastern Seaboard states including Florida.
focus especially in areas for example:-
 ~ where Asian descent is only in 1% to .1% or less of dominant culture
~ and/or where there is a high per capita of higher education institutions such as Private or state funded Universities.
~ proximity of Human Rights Commission offices (if any) and what the radius is.

• How is this American impact on the USA's West Coast different? 
•How is the American Impact in Hawaii and other USA territories different? 

•In total, Does one geographical region impact globalism with Asian countries more than another through use of language or through peer censorship?

• Is peer/social censorship of the cultural specific Asian language in USA regions representative of government enough to substantiate changing Asian film language from culturally specific to globalism language in order to open and engage a conversation with audience that has only Eurocentric view from America-vocabulary of ideologies.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

About making Films in Asian Language versus globalized English

My notebook: intro of this symposium panel

This morning I went to the Carnation room at the Ala Moana hotel and sat down to listen to the morning symposium "Chasing the Dream: Culture, Capitalism, and Cinema" presented by Netpac@25. It was followed by the panel discussion on "Co-productions and Globalization".

"When Language is Outlawed, speaking it is a political act." ~ Ella Henry, filmmaker New Zealand 

The only Panel Members I really think have the right mindset were-- New Zealand's Ella Henry, Philippine's Nick Deocampo, India's Nilesh Maniyar, China's Shayoi Sun.

"Word's are not innocent & have identity of the Colonizer. Identity is a negotiated process."~ Nick Deocampo, filmmaker Phillipeans.

They didn't give Kazakhstan Gulnara Abikeyeva's time with her more formal paper to share.

What I got out of the 2 panel sessions:- 
•Trying to overcome borders and communicate to other "cultures".
      - whether to use Cultural specific language or globalization's English language.
•The people's film claiming to do combat artistically against some globalization and corporate film mindset emanating from  Hollywood's "Wagnerianish" auture.  
•Attempting to "negotiate" the use of language in a world where only America allows some liberal idea of "freedom of speech".
•Nick Decampo was the only one who ventured to mention ASEAN and making film footage of rice.

------ I did ask 1 question about use of English and tried to briefly explain That even if conversation is put into English that it does not mean there is much context for the rest of the English speaking/ Euro-centric world. -- 
That I went to a business Dinner where there was a table full of people all who spoke English -- who needed a translator to give in depth context of seemingly simple sentences--also broken down in English, to an American Businessman. 

Still how the film world plans to cross globalization borders without similar dinner scenes to resemble & more like a cinematic Opera glance at the story from which the libretto has been derived,  is beyond me. ---------------------

^The panel chalked it up to a "negotiation" of use of language over culture. Or how to "weave" culture specific material with Global English...without getting into cinematic style.

It also made me reconsider being more specific when I use the following terms;-
•indigenous (political term, geographical presence, personal experience of foreign body)
•culture & culturally specific vs. society
• cosmopolitanism (went unmentioned) vs. globalization
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