another dismal dream

While the quality of life deteriorated through lockdown, unexpectedly, I spent many hours in meditation and prayer.

Part of what drove me to prayer was the escalation of anti-Asian hate and hate acts directed at me each day I was in public 

And the international healing  prayer group I have belonged to for many years has also held it's share of Karen's more than Kens from the USA based communities.

Yet, I reluctantly avoided much of the volunteer leadership who felt more inclined to outrightly say they hate me or they hate Japanese people within a brief introduction.

And despite writing to other volunteer leaders about the incidents that made me feel unwelcome and threatened, I had no response. It was my last refuge online and isolated from any normal social interactions for the past 2 years. 

This morning I woke from my slumber in yet another dismal dream scene. One walking through some beautiful residence with a famous Hawaiian. And stopping to see how polluted and trashed the once pristine Hawaii waters had become. The water was somewhere between NYC trash and rubbish plus Thailand's streams of brown. 

And then a scene where I was job seeking for an appropriate job for my Buddhist and Vegan soul. Yet only dark trades in alsohol and clubs were offered. Even an old college classmate appeared to tell me they have plenty of Jobs at the world xlass alcohol distribution retail store where he works just before then his own face turned blue as if he were dying from a toxic Jab. It was an unusual dream of someone I last saw a few years ago. And with a clear ATF connection due to the workplace. 

I woke to the phone ringing loudly 1st from my hometown and then immediately after from another town and the reality of police from other counties calling for fundraising.

I wondered if there was microwave or RF they directed at the house again. Last night, I had my phone battery run down after a session of activist emails, and put the phone and Bluetooth headset in an old Microwave and unplugged the WiFi router. The TV's were turned off until I finished housecleaning, near 11AM and people returned from post-op surgery checkup. Sometimes the police park nearby to use any portable RF weapons. 

After all, yesterday, I had my phone on again on my drive to town and a PD SUV passed me on my short rural drive. These Police sightings are no longer coincidence since they have targeted and covered up killing my siblings and the abductions I went through over 3 decades I lived in Bucks County, PA. 

The 20+ reports I made to the liberal Department of Justice had inconsiquential impact on my life. Rather I got the sense that they condoned pedophiles in the school employ and local governments sex assaults- on me as "an English learner". 

And today, like my childhood, I am stuck on the USA yet loathe everything about what these people are to me. I hate what these people are at a deep spiritual level.

And because my father is a white man who was USAF w6 and allegedly OSI-- my mother, was unable to fight these people and spare our lives the continued torture.

Today, I'm reaching 50years of age soon. And I have 50years of continued torture, outright discrimination, financial sabotage, and non-consensual human testing by Pennsylvania DeepState to report. Despite the painful wakeup all, I still pray for a positive time in my life where things are "FOR ME" in a positive supportive way. And I believe the USA is totally incapable of providing this for me.

Bardo Dream Yoga preparation 1

Below are 2 preparatory measures that are expressed in the Bardo dream yoga teachings. Due to stories about some people having intensely disruptive spiritual experiences linked to Tibetan Buddhist meditation I decided to post this portion about Bardo dream yoga.

I am not teaching the dream yoga, and for those who question my incarnation this lifetime and judge the cultural appropriateness (since the USA has deliberately tried to disconnect me from my family overseas)  my posting this:
My ancient DNA is applicable from Sakha/Yakutia, part Buddha from Northern China,  Japanese, and part J. Ainu. The ancient  cultures from which modern "marketed Johrei" evolved. I decided to leave formality of  Johrei Okiyome organization due to practices of modern "marketed johrei" connected to JKK due to the my sensitivity to the presence of Chinese Dao wizardry that seems to be intertwined with JKK origins. There are in other words, too many politics for me to be involved with having few modern places to afford practice of giving divine light and be recognized or certificated. The USA Intel has especially, marginalized me and my family due to knowledge of our ancestry in Asia and Japan.

 I am naturally sensitive to light matters, some entities, and perceptions already. And, find that the modern USA attracts occultic rituals with spiritual impedance to my personal practice of Dharma.

     And am posting these pages to give those who strive to learn some basic direction. This is meant to aid preparation for Bardo dream yoga and appropriate arrangements to include these preparations should be made. I am not writing this for the experienced practitioner, who obviously are already adept with Buddhist meditation practices. Since the West and America has much intrigue in mind states, I have not seen these important preparations offered in the conversation about those who are interested in learning dream yoga.

Buddhists can prepare for passing from this life to the next from Bardo dream yoga teachings. It is in this mental state of being that one is able to peacefully exit the physical plane of existence and transition to the Bardo. The Bardo is a part of the death and reincarnation process. Initial Preparation includes Dorche Chang/Vajradhara:
                1. Receiving Light/ Johrei /  - from someone who does Okiyome (higher level than Reiki)
                2. Connecting to Source

My own experiences linked to Tibetan meditation and prayer humbled me to be grounded to this Earth realm. I prefer to do BOTH receiving divine light daily and connecting to source in order to practice Bardo dream yoga.

Receiving Light as preparation: 

Buddhist monasteries and temples usually have a light giver many days of the week. The Venerable monk, priest, priestess is able to bless objects and help clear negative energies and entities. This is at a level of light giving that is higher than reiki masters. Usually one can visit a temple during light giving hours. Receiving light blessing daily is easier for those who live in areas where there are many Buddhist temples and monasteries. And, is usually free, though to bring a donation is customary. Sometimes, someone is available at Krishna Temples to do this for someone exploring the Bardo dream yoga.  This may be difficult for practitioners in the United States and other areas where there are very few temples and monasteries. It is an important part before initiating the visualization practice techniques of the Bardo dream yoga.

On my own journey to do dream yoga, I received and gave this type of light for many hours each day for several months. Meaning, I was a practitioner initiated in giving Okiyome (in Japanese language). This is not the same as reiki. Giving Okiyome is a  sacred divine light giving practice is such that we can bless or give light to objects, rooms, places, water, plants, food at temples, and other practitioners and people with their permission or consent.

This type of spiritual energy work takes devoted practice. And is one step along the way to the Bardo Dream Yoga.

Connecting to Source as preparation: 

Being initiated in Okiyome, is an indirect way to connect to source. And, it is technically a non-denominational practice where I have met Buddhists, Christian pastors, Krishna meditators, and others who give divine light.. Thus, I chose to be initiated into giving and receiving Okiyome.  However, there are others who choose to connect to source directly, or indirectly with confidence before entering the spiritual planes of the Bardo dream yoga practice.
There are other ways to connect to source through meditation after receiving light.

Japan Olympics and Buddhist Symbols

Simple things;- Necklaces with pendants.

Double Dorche around my neck
with a Christian Prayer Card for my American Uncle who was on USS Langley
At Pearl Harbor Memorial

Some things I've found by wearing different "sacred" amulets and pendants is that the knowledge that most Americans or other people actually have is low.
I'm just adding this confirmation bias experience since I've noticed people's reactions. I change my pendants depending on meditations I've experienced.  And, that Caucasian people on the Earth have attempted to attach negative attributed to Buddhist symbology. This is a security topic for the Japan Olympics especially. 

Double Dorje/Dorche (Buddhist) vs. Iron Nazi Cross

For about 6 months in Honolulu, I wore a double dorje/dorche  that I purchased at a Tibetan store in Honolulu. There were some and very few Buddhists who commented on the pendant, 2-3 people who knew what it is and only 1 person who said, "Buddhist monks wear those." Most particulary Caucasian Americans who decided to comment on the pendant either said, "I like that." or more frequently about 95% asked, "Is that an Iron Cross? in reference to Nazi Germany." The other thing was that foreigners tended to ignore commenting on it, even Buddhist monks who saw me wearing it.

The interesting thing about wearing the Double Dorche, which is a Buddhist representation of a weapon to destroy evil in all directions;- this amulet was that it was the only one people did not grab while around my neck. The other amulets I wore were frequently grabbed by people before any conversation was made.

The Cartouche - 

Cartouche around my neck

I started wearing the Cartouche with some chosen Heiroglyphics I liked on the back. 

Since I received it, only 2 people have volunteered knowledge that they know it's a cartouche. And, those two people also seemed to have great admiration for the Ancient Egyptian culture. Both knew the Dog god Annubis. Everyone else asks what it is, and it seems less "likeable" on the Island.

The Star of David vs. Enochian Holy Table

Even the Israelis didn't quite know what this was. And, they were the most guilty of being a total stranger to me and grabbing the pendant.

It seems most people on the Island of Oahu like this amulet, I wore it for longer than 6 months. The Israelis recognize the Star from their Israeli flag. 

Others just assumed that I am Jewish for wearing the star.
I also attended 3 days of Comicon, due to Deadpool Creator & Stan Lee, in Honolulu with the Holy Table on. The one day I dressed conservative. Another day I wore something more generic with a Femme Fatale shirt on, a olive drab short beach skort from a transient friend,  with red tights & tall wedges. I listened to a second day of Deadpool's creator speaking. That day, people stopping me and asking me "who/character" I am and lots of grabbing at the pendant. One last day, I wore it with a Spiderman T-shirt on. Though more concerned with getting to hear Stan Lee speak. 

Enochian Holy Table around my neck
with a Kyanite & Red Tourmaline choker I made
9/2015 at Comicon in Honolulu