Why I am "insane"

For many years in the USA I've endured extreme discrimination and human rights violations against my person, my livelihood, and my life. Nearly all of my dreams for my life have vanished in entirety and with the death of my siblings.
My so called friends, such as many people on my Facebook and in my life, are psychologically abusive and also harbor and support white supremacist beliefs;- since many "friends" are from my hometown, and my past.
I'm also not proud of being forced to live the life of an "activist" on the East Coast because it is a sure sign of the extreme suppression and abuse that I have had to endure. Activism was a way for me to survive at a bare bones minimum for my life when being attacked, abducted, assaulted, and violated in rich/wealthy caucasian neighborhoods where I was employed as a classical piano teacher/faculty.
My so called friends and others around me such as "employers" as they call themselves enjoy making light/fun of my alleged family in Japan. These friends and "employers" have no way of proving and are not wealthy enough to be entitled to information about my relations in Japan. Additionally, because they suppress and have suppressed not only my success in my life to make peaceful options available;- they would like to "prescribe" medication to me for my claiming such "outrageous" things such as being related to certain individuals in Japan, or having a decent life. I have found that this includes many other Japanese-Americans in the USA/Hawaii who enjoy their lives that they have built in the USA in the sex trade and related "Hawaiian & Asian professions".
I find their presence and interaction in my life intolerable, demeaning, and insulting.
However, just like normal Americans of any race or ethnicity;- the people I have met in Hawaii have only used me to take any earnings that I had to create and develop what I came to Hawaii to do. I am only if anything left with basic shelter, clothes, and food. It has literally been a miserable 8 years since my life has been dismantled by others in the American public from Pennsylvania/New York and to Hawaii. 
   

Warriors of the Rainbow- May 3

http://www.torontosun.com/2012/04/26/warriors-a-sweeping-war-epic

US Postal Service vs. Mail Fraud

Secure PO Boxes will vanish with the closure of USPS branches. Mail Fraud and use of other persons' addresses will escalate, despite it being a felony offense. We know mailboxes with cameras can be dismantled with the Baseball bat. Renting private addresses from other Domestic USA shipping contenders is undesirable in some cases and also expensive.
Scary...

Reason no.#### i'm still not married

So, the other day, my new "love of my life-boyfriendish" tells me he has some things on his camera. I looked quick and found a smattering of videos of girls in his bed in some place overseas. And, some photos of him with some "not so attractive" Asian women in Hong Kong, and confirmed prostitutes, yes more than one, he was kissing on a chair in November (when I was at APEC). So, after I dropped pressing charges (so he can keep his job) for some Assault 3 charges on him from Easter weekend. (despite being Designated Driver the weekend before putting up with his rantings and his drunken shipmate on their own independent excursion) Tried to ignore his excessive drunken rough housing with me this past weekend-- leaving a bump on my head from his head butting me. We are officially done. That's aside from him having his ex-wife & baby momma sleeping at his place next week without bringing his son to visit. And, after a smattering of unfulfilled things he said he'd do to help me.

I don't think he, like other sailors and soldiers, thinks that I could be at all offended by his behavior. Or that I'm entitled to protect myself. Or that the apology I want is something I should be given. And, as an Asian-American woman who had talent, college degree, and career work I am completely disrespected here in Hawaii.

Public Places burden of proof of relationssint

Vent on: Military men in Hawaii

Dating the US military guy...
This is difficult. Then add in extra difficulty if you're like me and Asian/Japanese type of woman in the sense that you aren't American homespun with all of your relevant family in the USA. Military men seem to think that because I currently live in Hawaii;- means that I'm o.k. with what I consider a nightmarish prostitution/hostess bar scene that Hawaii State regulates. Fact is: I never saw a hostess bar or typical Asian prostitution scene until I moved to Hawaii. And, I don't like it.

Dating & relationship pet peeves that irritate me and lead to relationship failure:

1. Military guys who give porn to my male friends saying they think it's me on the video (note: this applies to a plethora f-ton of American guys (B/W/other) who have little to no decent relationships with Asian women they have met overseas at strip bars or hired as prostitutes. Hawaii seems to tolerate this behavior a ton.

2. Military guys who get back from deployment having an Asian or specifically Japanese porn addiction;- thinking that I'll be o.k. with their Asian porn association to my personality. This applies to most guys in the USA since most of their experience with Asian/Japanese women is watching and looking at porn. They don't care that I was raised with Christian values, and so I have to try and pick the "less scummy" guys out of the pile, or stay single.

3. Military guys who think that because they watch Asian porn;- it's o.k. to be mentally and emotionally numb to my feelings. Military guys feel they are more deserving to treat me badly in this sense because they have "earned" it through their service. Trying for an apology from them is usually unsuccessful.

The majority of American guys I meet, and even spend time with eventually bring any hope of a relationship to a sudden halt. Mostly, because they just see me as something to be used. Their behavior has gotten to be so tired, repulsive, and contrary to anything I want my life to come in contact with it's making my staying in the States highly improbable. Respect for me teeters on the brink of disaster daily;- and if I'm lucky maybe weekly.

USA vs. Japan my world...new year 2012

The martial arts instructor, primarily E. Li or S Kai Li or Yoshiaki Li (kendo), told me at the onset of my arrival in Hawaii that he won't work for anyone. Since he has many connections to US law enforcement up to the international level also felt he is doing his duty by "training" me and that because of my relations in Japan, he has every right to take away everything from me including my life.
He &/or his Family & students in Hawaii from various dojo's where he teaches has already taken away most things that I purchased or has plans to take them away. At the onset, he destroyed my business potential in Hawaii at his mother's instruction. I have endured 3 years in Hawaii where he and his collegues, students, and friends have only damaged my life.
He has done so will full knowledge and intent to hurt me, any of my overseas Japanese relatives, and to make his own political statement about how women should be treated in Hawaii. He has done this primarily because of my relation to my Uncle Yoshitomo.

Diary1

I feel like I've been demolished over the New Year's Holiday. And, some of what I posted about my fearing my "Krav Maga" instructor is because his stress level is high. And, I have been the unlucky soul to see him loose control. And, with his protective parents (mind that he's encroaching on 50 yrs. old) and community behind his martial arts training and teaching. I have found over the past almost 3 years that they support his hurting people like me who are outsiders. The Mililani Town Association apparently doesn't have a "Blighted" homes list or website alerting people to things like his parents residence in the community. And, they seem to be making great exceptions to their condition. However, every letter that he claims to have gotten bring new unrest in my life. I am drained emotionally from this topsy turvy town and its parents and inhabitants. I also realize that I have to watch my back because I am not willing to be his victim through this last portion of his home remodeling. And, because he has presence in what seems to me to be nearly every martial art on Oahu and in Hawaii with over 30 black belts in various arts and some 5-6 or more Grandmaster titles in various arts.
If he really was that strong he wouldn't have felt the need to take away from my life. And, if he really was that strong he wouldn't need that many people to help abuse me. Today, my chest feels like it's in great pain and I am under great stress. These are some of the most embarassing posts of my life. However, somehow, I have survived to write them under his threats.

re: USA Police/Military State- react locally

Part of a solution should be Towns setting up more political sanctuaries free from police force/ military being used to seek and detain citizens. Ithaca, NY was set up as a political sanctuary since the Cuban missile crisis. To give residents time to flee, if necessary, not using local police/ military force can be a stipulation of the city government. Of course heightened border security affects this game to flee to Canada or Mexico. Of course, this has only been used to protect citizens and ambassadors with close ties to foreign governments. What a military state will really mean, is hypothetical.

Make a local commitment to protect life within.

Journal Entry. personal.

I've learned quickly, that my internet information that I receive on my phone manipulated and often inaccurate so that I am left "unsafe" (such as bus schedule access & being stranded, calling people, etc). I'd love to live a more predictable life and safe life, and am open to ex-patriating at this point in time. It's been a very very difficult time for me to stay in the USA for the past 8 going on 9 years, due to USA politics and many domestic people being dead set against any USA business interaction with Asia. I moved to Hawaii since there is a Japanese-American community here;- however I hate to burden anyone with the prospect of starting international business during this USA economic crisis. I will not be handed Japanese money to start a company and have my life compromised further in USA territory, as the USA business climate particularly around Philadelphia, PA;- Doylestown, PA;- Allentown, PA, Ithaca, NY, and Manhattan, NY has depreciated my status and tries to depreciate my international business connections by creating excessive legalities, not paying me the normal percentage for projects & contracts I have worked on, not putting me on an employee payroll, etc.

I have examined the potential of starting international business;- and only found one or two small groups of people over the past decade and a half on the east coast who are willing and able to do the work to create such a company, and have commenced on their own.

Most all of my 1st generation American Friends have also left the United States since (9-11 and in the past 3 years) there are few options and our future prospects in the USA looked slim, as policymakers write new American Policies that are designed to discriminate against our first amedment rights to exist in the USA. Those laws are then further justified by any US citizen to the point where certain locales in the USA are now "dangerous and life threatning" to cosmopolitan families. Except in the case where the USA chooses to manipulate foreign economies by allowing certain families to succeed.

Just a thought today...

Warm sun

Hawaii dawn....with vog?

Warm sun

Hawaii dawn....with vog?

Smartphone Etiquette for the Classic Dinner Date [Infographic]

Smartphone Etiquette for the Classic Dinner Date [Infographic] This didn't include the, let your date know you're bringing a newspaper to hide behind in case someone you know walks in.

Smartphone Etiquette for the Classic Dinner Date [Infographic]

Smartphone Etiquette for the Classic Dinner Date [Infographic] This didn't include the, let your date know you're bringing a newspaper to hide behind in case someone you know walks in.

Why FTA?

Thoughts on FTA's after APEC 2011 (in editing)
WTO & IMF are largely based on currencies in their participating economies.
My terminology:
1. Permanent goods (Land, air, water, etc.)
2. Impermanent goods (Clothing, Technology, Machinery)
3. Transient goods (Oil, Food, etc- goods that change molecular form due to consumer useage)
4. Farms
5. Skilled labor

Impermanent Goods:- Some Goods live in a deteriorating and depreciating Circular system.
To found a People's bank where goods produced in currency poor nations can be the “traded goods they create". These 'created goods for trade' can be traded for other goods that they need from another nation, and free of any currency related tariff.
Establish a banking system that is not based on currencies is important where such goods are not permanent. These goods, such as clothing, technology, and machinery deteriorate, change, and disintegrate over time. So, they hold little world value based on long term life sustainability. And, the methods by which these goods are created is negligable since some families still wear clothing that is hand made, some people use modes of transportation that they develop on their own, and those who invent will use their own machines to accomplish their ends. However, the goods and products that are created and needed for use to create more world sustainable still have potential to be created from these lesser "models" of Impermanent goods.

ie.,

The automobile has not changed that much, except in some efficiency and design elements in 100+ years. And, regardless of the age of the vehicle;- it is impermanent based on accidents and other instances that cause its destruction. And, the "admired" currency value of this good is no longer "supporting" sustainability since it implies that the user purchase more transient goods regularly. To ultimately depreciate this good from the currency market and put it into a trade market that has no currency value might change value systems towards sustainability. Additionally, the consumption of transient goods needs to change or be highly taxed.

A Worldwide banking system that is based on the wholesale value of goods based on time and resources. Man hours are logged per person. Machinery hours are logged for usage. This seems like a socialist system. However, only the end product will hold a trade value, regardless of the method of creation. In theory, the more pieces of clothing or machinery produced will hold greater value due to quantity. However, it is not be a necessary means for everyone to obtain such goods as clothing and machinery since it will be outside of a currency system.

Countries, people and corporations can approach the "impermanent goods" People's bank with the list of items that are needed, and what they can possibly do, produce, etc. in exchange for those goods. In part, because there are many industry workers (sales and banking representatives for example) who need clothing, computers, and vehicles in order to “do business”. Many of these people take out personal loans on lines of credit for these goods. Though, they are only “freeing up” more currencies (find percentage) to be spent in the retail market on similar depreciating and deteriorating goods. These items and “free spending” of currency is not controlled, regardless of country, nationality, and race or gender.

Other items, concerning operations of business and permanent goods such as land, wind, sun, need a separate "banking" system, if any. However, levels of an aparment building or sky-scraper could be considered impermanent goods and be traded with peoples of any nation or labor group. Rather than creating new credit and mortgage systems in nations whose people are working (though low-paid on the currency system), a stock of impermanent goods can be traded with peoples based on delivery and safe arrival of goods in exchange for impermanent good homes that they would have full ownership of in said apartments, offices, other impermanent good locations that they could live inside the borders of a participating nation/people's.

Impermanent goods affect Insurances

In the USA car owners carry insurance on their vehicle(s). By devaluing items such as automobiles etc. currency/monies can be used for individuals to carry insurance on their lives, health & medical, as well as a legal insurance. This way, even minority individuals who could not previously afford their own health care, legal representation, work insurance, etc. would be able to afford insurances for such protections in the USA (provided such medical, legal, companies do exist).

^ This point of view was largely influenced by American Wealth from some of the top 100 wealthiest places to live in the USA. Many of those wealthy residents would claim that they are "poor" because they have no currency wealth and are not "liquid." This affected me greatly as a contracting instructor at US 501C3's in such communities because I was not paid my full wage or even placed on a payroll for working full employee hours for organizations. Additionally, these people controlled media and took credit for my work and accused me of slander in addition to running up my debt and them living off of my personal funds in addition to seeking scholarship funding for not being in a currency "liquid" state.

Transient goods: the world's natural resources, food itself, bio-fuels.

These are the goods that literally support life or take away life of any species.

My Thoughts after APEC

Someone, outside of APEC should create an Intellectual Safety Zone to protect Intellectual property of those who create. That is outside of the governance and support of APEC companies and those who choose to work for APEC related companies. The threat of Espionage is already high.

The Intellectual Safety Zone is not going to happen in USA Universities and institutions where many professors already contract with APEC organizations. However, this does not mean that such an intellectual safety zone would not be of Benefit to APEC. It seems that for small businesses, this type of zone and trust needs to exist somewhere. Otherwise, without trust, such a place should exist to benefit humanity and the people of the world can make donation to support such a community working on their behalf, and regardless of APEC involvement.

This would include everything from testing of new building materials, substrates, technologies, and like items that can be part of building a healthier and ecologically more sound world community. And, so that, the creators of such products could live comfortably without fear of destruction due to increasing industrial espionage and competition in a volatile world where natural disaster is becoming commonplace.

APEC 2011 Taxpayer Dollars at Work

My 11.11.11 APEC Security photos.

re: my communication

Just a note: I was just blogging from Halekulani where APEC is Hosted because
1. I cannot receive internet service at home since wi-fi doesn't reach, and because companies like Hawaiian Telecom tell me that my address does not exist.
2. I also have not been able to acquire a landline for the same ^ reason.

This has been this way since I have not had to share services with housemates.

My APEC confusion.

When I attended Yesterday's Nov. 10, 2011 APEC / ABAC public meeting, the only people representing Japan were Caucasian/blue eyed older Americans from Philadelphia area. I was told that they represent Japan because they have offices in Japan. He was the same type of person, who in Pennsylvania area would probably be trying to kill me (type of thing that I've been running away from for the past 7-8 years especially and 6 years since my brother's death) I know my mom taught some of the "Caucasian Americans" @ New Hope how to speak Japanese since they didn't believe her children--Namely me, my now deceased brother and sister were human. They took our bi-lingual life away from us and then I was later told to pay the USA over $100,000 to learn basic Japanese that an elementary level Japanese student spoke at the Cornell Falcon program in Ithaca, New York.

Since Yesterday, Nov. 10, 2011 Japan has joined APEC and FTA Free Trade Agreement talks.

APEC Leader's week- Receive Lei

Just happened behind me. APEC Leaders Week, Delegates receiving Lei @ 5PM Hawaii Time.

APEC & IP = Espionage

Espionage just turned into totally legal and profitable piracy since the having to register and file ideas and patents is the primary identifier of whose technology and information it is. Those engaged in stealing trade secrets can now whole heartedly profit from it. The small business owner, who may be working on behalf of improving society, may loose entirely to large business because of this "File First" ownership identification of intellectual property. And, the File First, is going to happen dependent of jurisdiction?

APEC/ SME- Concern

My personal biggest concern for SME's using the "free tools" that the US Govt. will make available to small business is in the accuracy of the information of regulations put forth by the US government and with regards to regulations in other governments. With the Cloud being used, with data being stored in multiple locations,
and with updates and in addition to a discussion about corruption over borders rather than domestic corruption;- the small business may be the rickety rope bridge and it may be the only bridge, that a larger company will later be able to expand.

Cloud and Small Biz.

The Cloud offers a way for nearly anyone to have the technology tools that large enterprise businesses use at a fraction of the cost. Big businesses have taken advantage of these "free" to low cost technologies found online for years. When one looks at the numbers on it, their savings are huge over a workforce of 1000's. So, it is to the Cost advantage of a compact to mid-sized business owner to use when expanding and growing their business.

However, the downside of using the Cloud for the streamlined small businesses is potentially threating to their very existence. This threat is in how the data is distributed in the Cloud. The Cloud doesn't tell us where our highly refined data is stored for security purposes. And, the Cloud isn't mentioning if our data is stored in multiple countries such as Germany, Japan, China, Austrailia, etc. at the same time. So, our intellectual property is now falling under and in jurisdictions that smaller businesses do not have legal representation. In this Cloud, where the small business cannot see physically where things are, we are held at a disadvantage.

Aside: Another question I have is why isn't there a licensing body, that can find all the attributes of any document and allow "anyone" to register for a license to use the copyrighted materials? This is more like using something like "Limelight" for registering a mechanical license to record a song that someone else wrote. Maybe, in time something like this will be available and usable.

ABAC Small Medium Enterprise Symposium

IP, Intelectual property rights panel put forth "the First to file" discussion at Topics for Small Medium Enterprises at the Public Meeting and ABAC SME Symposium November 10, 2011 at the Halekulani in Waikiki, Hawaii. Other topics, that were generally covered, included discussion about 1. Using the Cloud for SME's (Small Medium Enterprises) to grow the business & how SME's can be "nimble" and staat responsive in crisis situations for business support 2. Import-Export insurances, 3. Ethical businesses raise the GDP of nations, Corrupt nations have lower GDP. 4. Policy control to enable rather than inhibit small businesses 5. SME's doing the groundwork for Large businesses and trying to maintain a level playing field for SME's to compete.

Reflection;- China/USA business relation

What does the China/ USA business relationship mean to the masses of out of work Americans?

First, we have to look at a simple fact;- Many Americans value money over human life.

The Average US worker in almost any industry spends probably 25% or more of their time at work complaining. Usually the complaint is that they are not making enough money for their work. The next part is that the US business owner, especially over the past 15 years, has gotten weary of hearing the complaints. And, for a fraction of the cost of keeping the US worker employed;- The business owner can outsource the work to China and hire a manager and his factory workers to do the work. Now, the production of goods costs the US business owner less and takes up less of the owner's time. This means that the US business owner can now start other entrepreneurial ventures and take away work from more US workers. And, the US business owner still has even more time!

Now, what about the Chinese business owner and manager and his factory workers? Well, they are doing all of the work that the US workers used to do at a fraction of the cost. When it was just a little bit of work, things were o.k. Then, the work being sent to China got to be overwhelming and instead of complaining to the Boss, the factory workers decide how to resolve their issues. Sometimes, they simply don't listen to the Chinese boss, and make a product to be sent to the USA green instead of red. Other times, they might be short ingredients for food and add toxic lead powder to dust the otherwise edible noodles. And, even things that are meant to be made of stone or a gem can be made of a very good yet toxic fake plastic to be sent to the USA. This way China's precious resources are not leaving the country;- yet they still have toxic by products of the plastics and other materials from which they made parts, toys, shoes, etc.

But, for the most part up into the early 2000's this behavior went relatively unnoticed and could be controlled. And, both USA & Chinese business owners & managers were happy they had more money and time. The workers on both sides got fed up but were controlled.

Now, it's been 15 years, and the USA & Chinese workers see the numbers and the demand from the USA public consumer. The consumer wants more product at a lower cost. So, the only way to do so is to send more work to China and other poorer nations where the work can be done in "sweat shops".

The USA financial industry and banking system Culture is foreign to China. And, so China shows some interest in adopting this system of mortgages, banking, and credit since (until the last 2 mos) the USA seemed to thrive with this system. The USA finance industry would be happy to negotiate and do business with some Chinese business persons to do the same thing in China.

The one thing that is any country person's option to survive is to join their country's military.

Eventually, this may take more than 10 years, but war is on the horizon. And, it is because many

people do not value human life and want to chase dollar bills and American money. There is a trade off to live a dream, even for a short time. That trade off, as we can see today, is going to come in the form of war, poverty, and strife. Not even mentioning the environmental problems we have today as a result of pollution, overpopulation, and global warming.