Deconstruct the Modern American Kitchen Refrigerator

When, I mean when is Tiger  or Samsung  or GE going to design a refrigerator for people like me who need a hydroponic watering system to keep our fresh herbs and greens more live?

Vegilogi Specialty Products Needed;
3 types of singles refrigerators

• Vegan Live foods fridge with Hydroponic water system (with or without lights) for herbs and fresher greens, sprouting drawer/shelf, filtered water, seperate potato & root crop storage, no dairy storage, prepared salad pull out tray like a mini salad bar, and wine rack.  

i believe the following 2 would sell if designed properly;- 

• Beer & Power/Protein/Granola bar fridge - maybe hold 1-2 bottles of wine
• 2x Pizza boxes refrigerator or marinade ribs compartment with Beer & Powerbar storage with slush, ice & water dispenser, freezer bottle bar for vodka.

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Long gone are the days of the American frontier Iceblock cellar dug into the earth and stocked with
large natural icecubes that slowly melt underground through the summer months. The modern refrigerator and it's glorified  ice box companion has staked it's way throughout North America, in nearly every home x2 or x3.

 I visited my friends over the years, and made note of the refrigerators, size, number, and stock. Most of them are single. Only one or two people living at the residence. Most of them have at least 2 refrigerators (fridge/freezer combo) or one Fridge and 1 Freezer.  From the East Coast to Hawaii - The average healthier, astute, busy profesional single man over 30yrs. old generally keeps beer in the fridge, with granola bars or power/protein bars- low maintenance, that's it & eats out. By 40's - Some singles, who do eat in and make mixed drinks & coffee at home keep gallon juices, milk or creamer, leftover pizza, and sometimes bacon.
Those in 20's or 1-2 a ploace with men who train/ hit the gym regularly seem to keep a more rounded and healthier diet than their restraunt going elders-  includes large containers of perishing premix salad & untouched fruits and grillable paleo food and BEER. Maybe this is what the men in their 30's figure out that those in their 20's haven't. Find a way to eat the grillables at a friend or neighbor's cause they are single anyway.

They seemed unlike me, at times sharing 1 kitchen with 4-5 people where we divided the refrigerator into personal sections like specialty sections of a supermarket cooler.  Or, in my Upstate NY vegan days- cooking for 3-20 people for potlucks, or so everyone could share the kitchen to potluck. Due to the lack of space, fresh veggies and refrigeration items were usually purchased the day of, or the night before cooking or salad building needed to happen. That way we would seek out our best veggie source and hit up the local farmers market asap as a first choice for ingredients. Any veggies and fresh herbs that could be kept out, went in a partially filled & sturdy glass of water close to a window.


The problem of personal Home kitchens is a huge environmental, health, and  one in most American homes. I no longer believe every home needs a fridge or 2 just to keep beer and sugary drinks, or a full kitchen for that matter.

• Overuse of clean water to wash dishes & get really clean (no crud)
• Waste of Food/ food animals due to undesirable cooked meals 
• Continuous energy utilities use (appx $80/mo) in Hawaii to run refrigerator/freezer alone
• Complex cooking appliances to aid cooking - cooking isn't basic anymore
• use of mined metals increased
• Unsanitary homes - accumulation of mold on used dishes & in refrigerators 
• Contaminated foods stored in refrigerator affects all foods
• results in wasted pots, pans, appliances (fridge)
• metals are not meant to be like toilet paper
• Fat Squirrel syndrome; - Unnecessary stockpiling & consumption of food 
• it's not winter all year (in most places) 
• no need to hibernate
• Storage of high sugar & fatty sauces
• Medical costs due to poor diets
• Use of pharmeceuticals 

2009 abduction charges

NI am still unable to safely report my abduction in 2009 by a federal agent who was aided by other Mililani security officers and Honolulu police department officers, who refused to take a report from me in May 2009. They knowingly took political and financial actions against me and forced me to comply or be murdred.

My situation in the USA has gotten more complex and damaging to my EXIM role due to the actions of these USA officers and agents. Sexual harassment charges are the lesser charge.

I have been unable to knowingly make a safe report to HPD or any law enforcement on island of Oahu. Their continued harassment as well as possibly related thefts of my documentation have made this more difficult on the small island of Oahu.

Semi-auto addicted Cops on Sunday Morning

3+ years of Police Harassment in Bucks County, Pennsylvania
For the handful of years I tried to stay with my parents after college graduation, I was harassed frequently by officers of the Richlandtown and Quakertown Police Department. This particulary worsened @ 2002-2005 when they would arrive and start shooting semi-automatic weapons on Sunday mornings in our family field. Later they would harass me pulling me over on the country roads. They also forced my parents to throw me out without most of my piano studio belongings, or clothes. I was also abducted 2x between 2002 and 2006. They threated to arrest me when I attempted to obtain records for court, they said I wasn't white, wasn't a land owner, and was a mongrel dog to them.
They did on occasion escort me to my parent's home, allow me to put some things into a storage unit which was broken into.

Visit to temple

I visit the temple at Byodo-In in Hawaii. 

There are many American tourists many who seem to be Latino who are sporting biceps with Christian tattoos while holding their cameras.  I heard some are say that the temple exists so they can find hookers and run hookers. One of them is a large African-American man. I hear one saying, that one's a hooker and that one there. He seems to be pointing out the Asian women. I'm horrified that this is what temple means to the non-Asian American men. 

After making a small donation, I light incense. And find a place to sit and meditate. A fat Caucasian woman moves the long bench I am sitting on in the Buddha room to adjust her sock. Then she turns around to sit.

There is no introduction room or anything for this temple structure. It seems to have little spiritual value to those around me. One Asian parent prostrated in front of Buddha. She tries to have them bow. The parent's children ask why he needs to pray to Buddha in English. 

I feel more violates than relieved to come to this "sanctuary" as it provides no sanctuary to me. 

I think of Buddhas animals as I continue meditate, and how they each have a place in Buddhas' kingdom. Then I think of the tourists. I try to internalize the outrage and anger I have found in this visit to temple.

Vietnamese Sex Traders & Hawaii Syndicate with USA Military

Go to any FOB (fresh off the Boat) sounding Vietnamese club/bar, coffeeshop club, or stripclub in Hawaii and you'll find open conversation about the sex industry. This ranges from the club workers to the patrons sitting down to cruise with a beer $6 or two for $12. The men who come from Vietnam or California see tons of money in the Hawaii sex trade, and aren't shy to the matter. They love to boast that the industry is only going to get bigger and that they will have more money.
Some of the bars work in a normal way.

For me, however, yours truly;- they are ruthless financially and psychologically everyday pouring on the abuse. The club owners in Hawaii have many friends in high places in the Military branches, the Federal Agents, and Hawaii state Judges and police. First, they send an older Vietnamese gentleman to talk to me. Someone who wants to buy drinks for me and take me out to lunch or dinner. This man, as many in Hawaii has served in the U.S. military and has friends in military positions in Vietnam or abroad.  He still has enough connections and friends he trusts to run a background check on anyone, including me. When and if he finds out you have worthwhile contacts for him to exploit;- he will be on the angry side if you don't hold "value" for him.
So, they let you work until they decide to get rid of you in one way or another.
One worker who was a hostess who sold drinks/ for her time I got to know;- made plenty of money and could afford an apartment. This hostess asked me to live with her as she was trying to maintain a respectable life. However;- problems ensued as she felt the need to install security cameras. The psychological abuse from the bar industry lead to comments meant to deface her relationship with her children. Even the men she dated, she suspected of abusing her children when she turned her back.
The installed security system wasn't even enough. She had a barrage of people who were raiding her Honolulu apartment. I heard she was hit 20 feet from the doorway of a Honolulu Police substation, just around the corner from the club she was trying to quit working at.

One night, I waited in the car for her because she was moving. I saw definitely 3 people who I couldn't identify at different windows and at 1 doorway of her 1st floor house apartment. Seeing the one at the door, I decided to go in. I took a look around the almost empty apartment. I noticed several places where it looked like there had been manipulation of the slatted windows. She confirmed that people had broken into her bedroom and stolen belongings, and money since the bars pay cash only or give a bogus paycheck. The paychecks are inaccurate and pay that is nominal to still receive welfare benefits. The paycheck I received was barely $150 every two weeks, and I was unable to be seen at the Human Social Services office as they gave my appointment to someone else. Mind that they don't take fingerprints here in Hawaii to receive benefits. I had also known a man who worked as a server in one of the clubs I was put in when I arrived in Hawaii. He happened to be Israeli and shared his story of people breaking into his apartment on a 2nd story with slatted windows. He shared with me that he got to the point where he taped razor blades to the inside of the window slats and came home to blood on the windows. Aside from offering to get special locks for my doors at home;-
I too had given up as even my safe deposit box at the American Savings Bank was compromised by someone who had gotten my extra key.

So, my hostess friend, the next time I saw her was weeks later and I stopped by the hospital to drop off a pack of cigarettes to her after she went in for surgery from an assault.

The psychological/ emotional abuse in the clubs usually starts simple;-
the normal attacks are:
1. She's CRAZY!!! ;-- the Vietnamese MamaSan will call a worker Crazy in broken english. The broken english seems to give it more fun and drama to the outside english speaking world. Note that most Hawaii resident born families are 3rd or 4th generation Americans and can speak local, broken asian accents, as well as normal english just to handle the tourism. Others are fluent in more than one language due to mixed families. Remember I said the first Vietnamese gentleman served in the U.S. Military.
2. She's on Drugs!!! ;- the Vietnamese MamaSan will start accusing the worker of being on drugs in front of everyone to create high drama/ entertainment for the clients. Most of the workers go through times where the MamaSan will attack many people the same way. It's like a ritualistic type of emotional/ psychological abuse the Management/ Owner dishes out regularly almost on some type of schedule. Usually, the workers who are single and supporting children on their own have a hard time with this as they are trying to keep their children by being financially supportive and create a positive environment.
3.  She's NOT ________, or You're not ___________;- Fill in the blank. This is the hardest emotional/ psychological abuse that ignites an industry conversation among other workers.
This statement generally encourages the "pro hoes" in the nearby vicinity to chide in and destroy a person's character. Its virtually the same as military tactics. If you try to defend yourself, they tell you you are crazy. They will have everyone who finds you a financial threat to themselves (almost anyone) join in and attack your real life outside the industry. When these things start happening frequently;- the next round is coming of more break-ins, theft, identity theft of those they hate, destruction of credit, tracking of cellular/ mobile phone, harassment by police who are friends of the sex trade industry.

Another issue with the Hawaii night club and sex industry, is that they target single workers and break-in and use the unattended apartment for prostitution. This happened to someone who found out they put a prostitute who looked like her at the bottom of her apartment stairwell. The pimp was a Church pastor and social worker who lived in the apartment below hers. He had easy access and could monitor the apartment for vacancy. He also had protection of the community.

The women in the Hawaii sex industry/ club industry or simply "Industry" are all the same. Many are single and got dragged into the industry by someone in law enforcement. It's almost as if the Hawaii Federal Agents and Honolulu Police Department selects who will be the night industry workers. Some of those who I spoke with have lost their nationality because they weren't allowed to travel back to their home country after Honolulu Police Department arrested them in a "domestic violence" dispute where the men attacked the women. Others who were younger, in their early 20's were arrested for no apparently criminal reason and thrown in jail for not being able to handle the bogus arrest on their own. I've already mentioned the other young women under 18 whose U.S. Military parents left them in the islands without any identification and refuse to cooperate, so the young women can't get a normal job and fill out a W-2. This is alot different than those young women who were being abused at home and ran away only to find some hope in the Hawaii sex & nightclub industry.

I was already targeted because of the Export-Import industry my relatives already ship steel in, before my bi-annual and 1 month vacation prior to arriving in the Hawaiian Islands. I was picked up at the Honolulu Airport and the Agent took my luggage and put it in his vehicle. He then didn't allow me to wait at the Rental Car company for my car rental reservation. It went downhill from there despite my trying to make the best of it due to the political nature of my relatives in Japan.

I'll add more if I can. The first point of issue I have with Export-Import is that people have been lead to believe that I am a "model wanna be" in Hawaii's slews of Import models. Around normal people they pass me off as "Crazy". This doesn't even begin to highlight the seriousness of the criminal activity that goes on in Hawaii. Obviously because of the political nature of Export-Import industry, it is prone to those who attack the industry itself. I am in the quagmire of sexist men in USA security and protection positions and being beaten up literally by the same men and their women who they benefit from in Hawaii's illegal sex trade.

I am at the point that I feel they should shut down 95% of extraneous bars, those bars that are separate from hotels as the license violations are a joke for the Honolulu Liquor Commission who turns a blind eye except when trying to extort a particular worker. This happens as many of the bar owners know that the "working girls" are from GOOD ASIAN families abroad. And, it is common knowledge that even a "dancer" who has a Honolulu Liquor Comission Licensed Dancer Card, aka Green Card due to the green band at the top of the card;- can't make money in any club by following liquor comission laws 100%. The Honolulu Liquor Comission knows this and benefits from payoffs by the club owners. "Fines" are given when they want to extort a particular dancer. There are drink sales in 100% of the clubs where the Hostess is paid 50%-75% of the drink price for "their time". The drinks range from $20-$80 for highballs and shots, and $100-$5,000 for champagne (Dom is @$900). Tips are generally given to the Servers and not to hostesses or dancers.

The definitions of prostitution are broad for those who work in the Hawaii nightclub scene and if enforced continuously are unforgiving to the worker. That is in addition to the industry, that seems legitimate by Hawaii licensing and practices makes the servers, hostesses, and entertainment vulnerable to a huge audience that needs illegal money in order to survive the High cost of living in Hawaii.

Additionally, that there should be some type of "dry town" designations for areas much like the New Jersey Shore area so that families are not subject to round the clock drunkenness. Although, many drunk drivers are also leaving the golf courses by 2pm.

Though, some of the places of Employment that serve Honolulu's tourism are legitimate;- many of them are crowded with workers who were unwilling to stay in Hawaii and legally decimated by HPD or the Federal Agents.  Or, they are willing prostitutes from Asian countr ies who gain self confidence and money by hearing and laughing at those of us who were born American.

Ban USA religious volunteerism

Recent USA news shows the racial disparity between American Christians within the USA. For a worldwide peaceable business economy, I personally think that USA religious groups should be banned from travel abroad. 

USA Humanitarian efforts should be constrained to humanitarian actual efforts only and not impede growth and politics

Humanitarian efforts should be constrained to humanitarian actual efforts only and not impede growth and peaceable politics. Online interactions already are a safe way for USA to infiltrate countries with global capitalist values and white based Christian value systems. 

 Respect for Collective Mindsets is lacking in interactions with the USA American Culture. 

More non-denominational schools for youth should be encouraged to finding peaceable international business solutions. Possibly with a broad scope of cultural religion and customs for positive interactions with collective mindsets that enable other humans to exist in other areas of the planet with reasonable peace (regardless of government & political form). 

There are slews of USA children who travel outside of their home countries to do "volunteer work" or "missionary" work.  They are taught that the people they help are poor because they aren't Christian.

Instead of rallies of religious arguments against the world's people and those who are have other beliefs besides Christianity;- there should be a ban on USA religious missions to other countries. 

One thing is that it doesn't represent everyone in the USA. And the Christianity I have experienced is highly racist and in line with an American parallel to the old Nazi regime. 

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American men can't impress Japanese family

It's become really clear to me;- 

The men I've met really can't afford to date me or be part of my family. My father married"? my mother at a time when Japan was poor economically. Since the Japan became the 3rd largest economy and American men find it cheaper to impress Vietnamese, Chinese, and Filipino families abroad. Their money buys a lot in those countries now. 

It makes things really intolerable since they "scoff" at my family overseas due to their own financial deficiencies. 

So, I understand why China doesn't change their currency value. 

Japan is in a difficult position. It's an extremely difficult time for me here in the States. Plus add in that all Japan's competition has been on the east coast undermining my life. Compounds the problem for me. 

I'm ready to throw the towel in soon because the men in Hawaii also expect me to "be nice" and have sex with them for free;- and they harass me a lot (nearly everyday here by someone new out in public). I really can't tolerate much more as a first generation person. The Americans are awful to me most of the time. Very few actually help. And then I still have to be cordial and polite for political purposes. 

It's unbearable at this point.

Thought on TSA

Collateral damage of TSA on "race and minority women". Especially since they target "me" 100%.

I'd like to know the financial setback when the airport's TSA confiscates various items from passenger luggage. 

This happens every flight I make, they take my carry on too and damage electronics if they ever return them. Also collateral damage of the delay of held luggage and missing appointment or not being able to charge a phone because TSA takes the charger.

Financial damage & personal security tampering to my life without reason or repayment.

Nightmare since 2003

Vegan Superfoods Alkaline

Top 3 List - no fruit or grain base

💚Cacao - powder easiest to use on the go

Pros: easy to add on the go to drink, protein & energy, alkaline side, loved 

Cons: can't think of one. 

💚Chlorophyllins - broken down chlorophyll 

      •Chlorophyll- grows in a tank (homegrown)

Pros: great protein source, super energy

Cons: hard to process from scratch, better mixed with other elements, finding product that works well (blend) is hard, not available at most stores.

💚Poi - pounded taro root (made fresh is best) 

Pros: low glycemic, good calories, not grain or fruit

Cons: Hard to get fresh even in Hawaii, possible contamination due to root crop

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Others for alkaline 

Kale

beets

US Presidential Candidates- my quick thoughts

Presidential Candidates:

Donald Trump- is a demon, though with a truthful note. Aside from slews of American people who have worked for Trump, he is a "bastard" employer that many found hateful.  He polarizes the contents of the USA and has used his campaign to be outspoken to World leaders about what and who actually reside in the USA, backyard BBQ culture, surface to the world front.

Bernie Sanders- is a "Fucktard". He's that pathetic, stereotypical, vomitous, putrid, Caucasian, "progressive" brand of politics that screams to fulfill OCCUPY interests as a president. That is Blatantly full of deceit and lies under the surface of "Global Harmony". Maybe he does appeal to the African-American crowd that needs Civil liberties, yet too many African-Americans attempt and do sexually exploit the Asian-American women in the USA to bridge their racial disparity within acceptable American concerns. That is aside from the typical White, Male progressive rhetoric being that they are making Asian-American women equal by stealing everything from us possible as "Equals". These guys are extremely offensive. And, the international community knows that it doesn't save Asian lives studying abroad either.
Most of Hawaii's Democratic caucus participants voted for Bernie;- however most of them have not had to live for more than a college term on the USA East Coast amidst the Hub of American Progressive culture.
The fallout from the Republicans vs. Hillary battle is that Bernie Sanders is seen as more of a pushover President/ Commander in Chief and a definite go to for the Seals & Black Ops soldiers who are finding Trump a hard act to support.  They are undermining the peaceable business efforts in the Civilian realm as a result. 
Sanders' claims to be pro campaign finance reform. He wants free public education. In practise it will open a doorway to industries that supports government to keep their grip on the American workforce. It can easily lead to failures in the democratic system of citizens initiatives against the involved corporations.  There is nothing I like about this man & his campaign. In actual practise, his platform will serve the evils it claims to purport.


Hillary Clinton- Tougher than Margret Thatcher. She ACTUALLY has created jobs and brought more money to the USA minority dominated states than anyone. I completely admire her and her previous efforts to integrate Women first in international business. This, terrifies men.
She has the most terse environment to handle, and her current job position has attracted the hate of US military troops over the widely publicized Republican prompted film. That is her current, biggest downfall. The Special Forces & Navy Seals and Black Ops soldiers do not like her. They know their own have "Fallen" under her command and that alone is hateful and makes them afraid to elect her at all. These soldiers garner more business and military support and will likely re-direct Hillary's campaign efforts to Bernie Sanders and definitely Donald Trump.

The word "ON";- American Comprehension Vs. Demonstration of "ON"

Yesterday, I was at the gym near a US Military Base. I had about 45 min to use the Hot Tub, Sauna, and do a 30 min. cardio workout. I was in the hot tub that I turned on for water-jet massage. Within 8 minutes, FOUR other people entered the room. Despite a sign saying Press button once to turn hot tub ON, Press button to Turn hot tub OFF, all four of them failed to check that the hot tub was ON. They all pressed the button, turned to enter the hot tub, then seemed to realize the water-jet sound had Stopped. They then returned to the button on the wall and pressed the button to turn it back on.
Being that they all stopped and restarted the hot tub in a 3 minute span, I concluded that NONE of them actually could demonstrate reasonable cognition that the HOT TUB WAS ON IN THE FIRST PLACE. And, this was across an demographic of diverse backgrounds who could afford to pay dues at a gym.

Then, I think about more complex issues and realize why I am drowning in the USA social environment of Ignorance.

Conversely, there are people in the USA who I have hired (thank you Philadelphia!!!) in the past who were not Immigrants, clearly had little literacy, yet were able to perform a simple task such as setting tables with an array of cutlery, negotiate transportation, as well as more comprehension and demonstration of much more complex functions. These people were not able to afford gym membership to my knowledge, as in the above "ON" incident.

United States Export Import - my common observations

Basically, in my lifelong experience with international business;- the average U.S. Citizen thinks that the Export Import world is Brand new. They forget the inception of the USA as an independent nation. They forget the Boston tea party and Marco Polo & the historical Silk Road. And some have never heard of the Diamond path, or know of old trading between Japan and Korea long ago which resulted In a special coin minted in 1710. For some reason this history and more is dismissed from thought in the average USA citizen's mind. Trade to them is sliding a plastic card that calculates debt and tracks it in exchange for goods from abroad. 

•Most of them want to kill people who mention Ex-Im and rob us. 

•They literally think that Asia is their personal slave labor, regardless of governments or family legacies. This is much like their environmentalists advocating to save USA environment but it's ok if they trash China to buy their baby toys and goods.

•They want all the money themselves and don't understand the privledge of doing trade with other Countries. 

•USA views international trade as Their own "gift" to the world.

•They view this behavior as being blessed and Godly, like a child who consumes all the cakes and candies around and crying for more after stricken with an upset stomach.

• in today's world those motivated to make money are Special Ops US military and only want to promote the sale of guns in foreign countries as their own brand of exported terrorism. 

Black men - Japanese woman Hawaii

OTrying to go for a walk this morning. I heard what sounded like 3 black men laughing boisterously about the Japanese sticker on my car and going and finding someone Japanese .the something that sounded spiteful about hurting me (though they don't know who) and showing everyone how they help me. It broke my meditation period. I saw the 3 loud/rude men. This is a place where people go for quiet peaceful morning walks. 

Aside from a literal few black/African American men I've met...most of them I avoid because they are totally disrespectful of Japanese women and seem to think that it's their way of making us participate in our "culture" by being pimps. Most of them are way bigger and more aggressive in pursuit of securing a "Hoe" as they refer to most Asian women on island. I don't like a majority of them, personally. 

To obey is to be gullible USA

Yesterday, I watched a German news broadcast about their European refugee crisis. It made me realize how out of touch Americans are with the global competiveness for solar energy, Africa, population crises. 

I am impressed with the European nations who brought in refugees. Then to establish an order and find some education/training for future industry & life supporting energy resources will take time;- but seems more possible with African refugees in the EU. 

That is an incredible leap for humanity at its crux.

Jabbah da hot- Hawaiian Islands

The Navy's top-secret program to create a job of the hut is nearing completion. Thousands of Local navy wives are to have liposuction performed in the next coming months. This humanitarian and top secret effort is part of a top secret AI project to collectively take all cellulite and creates a Starish Wars Jabbah da hut and to bring it life with a re-animation syrum and new artificial intelligence AI OS. The application of this A.I. Will be tested in desert warfare situations early 2016.

Vent on: Military men in Hawaii

Dating the US military guy...
This is difficult. Then add in extra difficulty if you're like me and Asian/Japanese type of woman in the sense that you aren't American homespun with all of your relevant family in the USA. Military men seem to think that because I currently live in Hawaii;- means that I'm o.k. with what I consider a nightmarish prostitution/hostess bar scene that Hawaii State regulates. Fact is: I never saw a hostess bar or typical Asian prostitution scene until I moved to Hawaii. And, I don't like it.

Dating & relationship pet peeves that irritate me and lead to relationship failure:

1. Military guys who give porn to my male friends saying they think it's me on the video (note: this applies to a plethora f-ton of American guys (B/W/other) who have little to no decent relationships with Asian women they have met overseas at strip bars or hired as prostitutes. Hawaii seems to tolerate this behavior a ton.

2. Military guys who get back from deployment having an Asian or specifically Japanese porn addiction;- thinking that I'll be o.k. with their Asian porn association to my personality. This applies to most guys in the USA since most of their experience with Asian/Japanese women is watching and looking at porn. They don't care that I was raised with Christian values, and so I have to try and pick the "less scummy" guys out of the pile, or stay single.

3. Military guys who think that because they watch Asian porn;- it's o.k. to be mentally and emotionally numb to my feelings. Military guys feel they are more deserving to treat me badly in this sense because they have "earned" it through their service. Trying for an apology from them is usually unsuccessful.

The majority of American guys I meet, and even spend time with eventually bring any hope of a relationship to a sudden halt. Mostly, because they just see me as something to be used. Their behavior has gotten to be so tired, repulsive, and contrary to anything I want my life to come in contact with it's making my staying in the States highly improbable. Respect for me teeters on the brink of disaster daily;- and if I'm lucky maybe weekly.

Finished dating in Hawaii

It seems everything has come to a complete and unstoppable Halt in my dating life.
It's almost too gruesome to unpack. And, thankfully the rain that's been pouring for the past 3 days is making everything wet.
Dating the past week really put a stop to things. I was seeing an executive of a local Hawaii company. I had put an end to the dating since he only expressed interest in US based business, and doesn't want to get married, had a brutal drinking habit along with a couple of seedy and greedy girlfriends (and lived with one). So, go YIK. Now add in the fact that he was Japanese-American descent and not a "newbie" minority in the USA by SBA standards of 1 generation.
Then top it off with his habit to go to both Karaoke bars and Korean hostess bars in Hawaii where he bragged in his car rides of him & his friends splurging 10's of thosands of $$$$$$'s on the women. And, all followed up with a statement "if you need to prostitute and get busted, I'll bail you out." That was aside from going to a dinner at an acceptable chinese restaraunt with one of his business collegues and his "wife" who was from Osaka. The first words out of his collegues mouth were about someone potentially dying at some jobsite. And, it was followed up by his wife sending old-fashioned death threats to me with her chopsticks. My date then scolded me after the whole thing was over and became abusive.
I told one of my girlfriends about this and she simply said;- people like that are not your friends.
I couldn't have agreed more. That was over 6 mos. ago. Then he reappeared one night 5 months later at my apartment door, not just any night, but the night of my deceased brother's birthday! I should have called for a restraining order the following week.

The past week, he contacted me again. We went out for dinner and a few drinks. No major drama and he claimed that he had "cut down" on drinking. I think he just needed to hire a driver and skip the phone call to me. Though, given all that was said and happened in the past and that he's also older than I am, I really really don't think he gets it yet. He not only choses to absolutely humiliate me, treat me lower than a 3rd class citizen, but thinks that i'm willing to put up with it?! WTF... so I turned down the offer to see him again and attend his birthday at his family's home, as politely as was possible for me. Dating this Japanese-American was the most humililating experience, beyond what white racists do (where i've been abducted and assaulted), to me who is a newbie Japanese-American in the USA. My more respectable Japanese relatives want me to leave Hawaii because of dating like this--- no wonder. And, chances of my finding any hapiness in the USA seems absolutely futile.

A short Letter I sent to Amnesty International USA

This I wrote, as things are so bad here for me at this point, primarily on behalf of my mother and myself. My mother was a Japanese Citizen at the time, and I know that my Japanese relatives have disputed my U.S. nationality as a result of how we are treated here in the USA. I am still being discriminated against heavily while I stay in Ithaca, NY. My rights are no respected and I still have no defense. My mother's family in Japan is also involved with decision makers in Japanese Government and some people like my Aunt have access to high level govt. information. Due to the Patriot Act revisions we can no longer communicate with our Japanese relatives.
The brief letter I sent to Amnesty International USA is as follows:


Over the course of a lifetime: 1970My still then, Japanese mother gave birth to my older sister and was told by the nurses at Quakertown Hospital that, "You don't deserve to have a child." My sister died at the Quakertown Hospital and her body is buried near Philadelphia. There was nothing that my parent's could do about it. 1980's I was a child and was informed by my mother about racism. Nearly every day at elementary school, I was grabbed by my hair by a group of girls and thrown to the ground and kicked and beaten at recess (with teachers watching nearby). Aside from experiencing regular name calling,"Brownie, Chink, etc." I was also put down by my teachers at school for my race. When my mom showed up to teach kids about Japanese culture;- the beatings I experienced at school for being "the wrong kind" worsened for me.This lasted through till Junior High school. Church during these years was worse as I was perceived as being "an abomination" by God's word and Pastor Landis because I am of mixed-race and national origin.
1990's Quakertown Community High School People I knew at school became involved in Born Again Christian movement and KKK meetings and concerts. I had very few friends and was still one of 2 non-caucasian people in the entire school. My history /U.S. Cultures teacher (Mr. Pfeiffer) compared me to a 3 tier Latrine photo posted on the bulliten board in front of the class. He screamed "Those/You Japs" at me frequently when covering Pearl Harbor and Hiroshima from the U.S. perspective; - making my classmates laugh at me. Though he is also avidly anti-semetic.There were regular fights at the small Quakertown Movie Theater then between Skinheads and Non Skinheads most Friday nights.2000 I returned after completing college. And, fell under attack by local KKK people. They broke into my car, harassed not only me but my then living younger brother (now deceased). I was targeted by an engineering dept. in Buckingham and locked in a apartment and raped repeatedly until I managed a 9-1-1 call on a nearly dead cell phone.Between 2000 and 2007 I was stalked, harassed, locked in 2 apartments and raped, received death threats, found German knives outside my window at my parents' house. Police would follow me from business meetings and stop me on back country roads (difficult) and harass me. Police would follow me once I got off the turnpike exit and follow me to my parents' house where I reside. Investigators refused to investigate the rape incidents claiming it "out of their jurisdiction" and the advocacy outreach refused to see me because I'm a minority woman who is non-white.Upon my brother's death, when the police arrived, they Chased me and even the 1 minority female officer said that "I'd better run outta there (my home) because I'm a half-breed and there isn't anyone who's going to help me there." After my brother's death I was stalked and raped. I knew a Chinese woman who owned substantial business and has a family, she told me re: her own sexual harassment problems that "the Judge said that Asian women are here for men to have sex with in Bucks County." She also advised me to leave. Shortly after she sold her business and left the area. There is alot more racial profiling that happened due to people using my brother and the monies that the lawyers received for the problems. My brother is dead and nothing and noone will ever replace him. He was my best friend.
In 2007 I was forced to leave my Parent's home in Quakertown, PA without money or shelter. An Amnesty family (also Tibetan) helped me for a few months to relocate. Since I left their care I have had more problems with men ( I am a repeat rape victim ) and my Japanese family memebers cannot send financial help because of their involvement in Japanese government and the new restrictions in the Patriot act. My Japanese Family communicated to me that they think that my life is "as good as dead" in the next years. There has been concern about my nationality, which I cannot resolve because my mother was a Japanese citizen at the time that I was born. If I had to choose a nation today because by Japanese law I cannot be a dual-citizen, Today I would choose to be Japanese.
I need help. I have so much more to tell that I can't even begin to express. I have been attacked by many people on the East Coast because they rarely see Popular Japanese faces.
I am 33 yrs. old today. My mother faces discrimination against her and her disability due to cancer by the State of PA. I personally have been made an example to my piano students and their families who are also "East-West" families or other minorities to Bucks County.
My life is nothing but sadness.The help I need is tremendous to repair respect to me and my Japanese family.

Thirteen Minutes

Positvely wonderful: Thirteen Minutes magazine popped out at me on the newstand for a change with the music coverage in it's recent issue. That is more specifically, Vol. 2 Issue 3 for $5.99 + tax at the local Borders.
includes in the Music feature issue: Mary Digby, Gackt Oshiro, and Ayumi Hamasaki Also, there are many articles written by Asian Americans, And it offers a refreshing change of featuring Asian influenced models.

Though, I admit I was cringing each time I flipped through Thirteen Minutes magazine the page to see a starkly Aryan European model. I think it's bad enough that completely white people try to pass themselves off as exotic, let alone their latest development in saying that they are Asian and bully their way through a completely mispronounced reading of romaji for Tibetan, Japanese, Chinese and declaring that they are capable of understanding everything Asian. No I don't necessarily mean the models, I mean their subclades of modern fashion and "progressive" acceptance.

Let's delve into culture further and please attend an NYU opening of Kip Fulbeck's the Hapa Project coming next month. I am a halvsie and I am disgusted with the gross racism that is directed at me. Go get a clue at NYU.

J-Pop for February

It's rare to see a popular Japanese face (bijin) here on the East Coast USA.
There is such a density of people of Korean and Chinese descent on the East Coast of the USA that most people who haven't had exposure or travel to Japanese culture, beauty, aesthetic assume that all people of Asiatic peoples are the same (see list of Asian Nations).

So, without further adieu;- here's a list of "must-know bands" from this month's Shojo Beat Please comment with other suggestions!

Asian Kung Fu Generation
L'Arc~en~Ciel
Every Little Thing
SMAP
Utada Hikaru
M-flowDragon Ash
Crystal Kay