People ask me why it is I have worked so hard, only to have nothing. The most prominent reason is that I have not had the right men in my life (particularly boyfriends). There is great difficulty that I am faced with in trying to establish myself internationally. From my life on the East Coast and around Ivy Leaguers, I'm just some "poor ethnic" female to be exploited. No, i can't say any of the men I've met on the East Coast have done my life any international good (Business-related) because of their racist and sexist attitudes. I have no tolerance for these "progressives" and have even less for those who aren't even close to being "Ivy League progressive".
The men I've met in Hawaii are sexually interested to the point where simple harassment is actual sexual assault in a minor way. So, I have no use for these men either. Then, I have to put up with them insulting my life further for their belief and "traditionally Asian" value system of making sure there are few if NO Japanese female executives.
I'm being drowned in a sea of sexist men for whom I have no liking for, though I am expected to tolerate them for purposes of political civility. Probably a reason why my mother lied to Japan so much about our actual conditions of living on the East Coast.
Then throw in all the "white women" who tell me to "lighten up."... They are threatened by my good genes in aging and quickly oust me out of their community for their own insecurities. This is something even my real Aunts don't have to tolerate in Japan with predominantly Asian women and men around.
So, it seems that my existence alone is threatening enough to my so-called friends and foes in the USA alike. Let alone them actually stepping out of their comfort zone and having to put some faith in believing that I have a large and powerful international family that was/is willing to give me, a female, a rare opportunity in the Export-Import world. My "fellow" Americans are ruining what the American Dream and rights and liberties are about because of their Bigoted (if not war-like) actions and words;- by holding the metaphoric gun to my head. I have had no portion of my life that I can keep sacred away from the vulgar American public interactions I have daily. I am very weary of all of this, for the name of what? Peace? It certainly doesn't seem that anyone in the USA who I have met wants much Peace. They seem damn proud that they Nuked my mom's country and mine of Japan when she was still in it. Their distaste shows in my deteriorated life. For that they are proud.
From my perspective, they are all sorry creatures-- my past boyfriends, friends, and enemies... for not wanting to EVER believe that they destroyed what they think is improbable--if not damn near impossible to occur for a more peaceable (not war-like) world.
Hillary Clinton never spoke about helping American-Japanese Asian women like me. She only spoke about helping 3rd world farm working women. For that, I think, the USA is bogus since they will rarely--if ever help an "ethnic Asian woman" in the USA. Especially helping me with a large trans-national family doing business.
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Rosicrucian and Depopulation of the Planet -- Introduction.
I grew up less than a mile from the actual 1940's Rosicrucian ceremony grounds in Bucks County, PA. My mother taught me that these people would shoot me because I'm half Japanese and half US Caucasian mix. And, throughout my life well into adulthood, They have attempted to kill me, as the Rosicrucians' founder's grandson (Lee Clymer) was a neighbor (with his wife Cathy Clymer) to me on the street I grew up on. You can find a blurb on these Rosicrucian in the "Atlas of Secret Societies by David Barrett ." This Rosicrucian Sect have been referred to as an abusive sex cult and have been ostracized from other Rosicrucian sects in the USA for their white supremacist views and practices. They also murdered my brother in 2005 in our backyard (we are both of half-Japanese nationality).
- My brother told me (2004) that Lee Clymer made him work extra to CNC machine custom guns that the Rosacrucians white supremacist network sold and ran privately throughout the USA. This may or may not be part of some ultimate plan to decrease the world's population. But none the less it is heinous. There are also Federal/CIA agents and their counterparts who seek to promote drugs through these networks of Rosacrucians and their wanna be's.
- The Rosacrucians Clymers are related to Representative Clymer (PA) --and have close ties to Cheney. They use "divide and conquer" and many other tactics to smokescreen their white supremacist traditional values (that may go back to Hitler).
- They also forced my brother to work for the Quakertown, PA irradiation plant @2002-2004 through a temporary employment agency (to cover up). They already knew that we were not supposed to be near radioactive materials. They then labeled my brother a terrorist trying to obtain uranium (in a cobalt reactor) and sent their slews of Illuminati/white trash junkies to barrage me and my brother with more murderous attacks.
- Over the years growing up, I'm also quite sure they use mind-control protocols and that I've been exposed to their abuse throughout my childhood. I went through an intense period after the hypervigilant activist side of me emerged after leaving Quakertown and being politically torn at the age of 17 in my 1st semester Ithaca College dorm room and ignored.
- And, I had inherited land/house there from my Great Grandmom Kelley as I'm part Kelley, but they have turned me into one of their "Indigent Ethnics" as they so proudly rub in my face as they have completely decimated happiness in my life over the past 30+ years. I became an activist in High School. I later dedicated my time to fighting "the good fight" and learning from whoever I could who has skills to battle with these people. However, I have to say "C.B. you were right!!!!" They attacked me when I returned to my hometown, and I barely escaped with my life... and a duffel bag of clothes to Hawaii. I still have near nothing as I'm attacked by others who feel that they will have a place within the USA military orders if they harm me here in Hawaii.
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Tropical Storm Flossie Strengthens, Heads for Hawaii
Flossie, "One of 19 named storms that have approached the Hawaiian Islands since 1957."
Toxicity N Me -- I'm just a US government human guinea pig
A blurry photo of the mold on the walkway to the house where I rented a room. 2014Over the past 3-4 weeks, I have been extremely sick compared to anything I have experienced in the past 10 years. Since I am already eating a plant based diet for over 25 years I kept my body as chemical free as possible. It seems that I'm not the only one on the Island who has, since late June 2013, had respiratory problems. I have heard about the Government dumping Chemtrails for use of HAARP and weather modifications since I have been trying to find a cure for my severe allergy problem I have been trying to hide for the past 7 years that started to get progressively worse since I worked for Evaluation Engineering magazine in for Nelson Publishing in Venice, Florida in 2000. It started with a severe building allergy that made me turn down a new position at the physical office.
- July 2, 2013- Rash/hives
- July 6-7, 2013- possible food poisoning- nauseated, headache, fatigue
- July 9-12, 2013- Sick and slept 18+hrs straight have joint pains
- July 13-14, 2013- Laryngitus (from coughing a dry cough for past few weeks)
- July 15-21, 2013- Irregular menstration only 16 day cycle
- July 23-27, 2013- someone kicked my knee-- pain
- July 22-26-- extreme fatigue
I was already near full toxicity when I was a child. My mother was 3 years old in Japan when Hiroshima and Nagasaki were bombed. The use of DDT in their farming methods and water systems
was common then. My family overseas in Japan and the doctors in Philadelphia all suggested that my diet be plant based by the time I was about 8-9 years old.
And some things that should cause an immediate reaction are encapsulated by my body for periods up to 7 days before I have reaction.
Here are a few things that I am intensely allergic to:
RECENT ALLERGIES with noticeable but not debilitating anaphylaxis reactions (past 2 wks)
Airwicks- air freshner
air inside GNC at Alamoana-- may have air freshner in ventilation -- severe allergic reaction within 1.5 min of being inside. Within 5 minutes I experienced extreme tearing of my eyes and closure of my breathing/throat so that talking was very difficult. Cleared up after 15 min outside of the store.
SOAPS/DETERGENTS
- The use of different normal laundry soaps such as Tide, Gain, and Era all cause Anaphylaxis type reactions for me.
I called him on the laundry soap switch. He apologized and re-did my laundry since I said I basically have to throw out my entire wardrobe.
- Cleaning products in stores on shelf as well as when store is being cleaned.
MOLDS
- Dust mites, moldy produce sections at the grocery stores, Hawaii's molds- result in Rash or Hives
To be continued
No Pakalolo-- please.
Trying to find an "affordable" living situation in Hawaii that allows a person to live and make deposits to their savings and trading accounts possible is difficult. Now throw in tolerating housemates who smoke DA Kine, Pakalolo, Marijuana. It's even more difficult to live around my potential allergic outbreaks of Anaphylaxis shock. My eyes immediately become uncontrollably pained and tear as if I had some extreme chemical exposure from warfare. My interior throat becomes tight, closed, and itchy as I begin to gasp for air. My nostrils become itchy and I may begin a sneezing fit if I can breath enough.
Yet my housemates find this difficult to believe. So, aside from letting them send me to the Emergency Room by exposing myself to the Girl's weed habit... I can only hope she moves out next month and takes her smoker's tooth colored glass bong along. But, since she's a "respectable Filipino" who is on a respectable rowing team here in Hawaii (12 years my junior) The Girl's disrespect lingers to me as she justifies it with her short Washington D.C. stint at the Hawaiian State legislature. And feels justified in being extra rude to those around her (in daily parking habits and other ways). Mind the fact that the first time I met her, she was smoking cigarettes and sitting in filth on a pigeon poop covered bench. My first impression of her was completely disgusting. 0
But she's Filipino-American and I'm just Japanese trash to her and her "respectable" Hawaiian family who do well for themselves in the Hostess bar industry, and Insurance industries of Hawaii. I'm sure if her family knows, and as I've experienced with many of the older parents of people near my generation of Hawaii;;- they only laugh at newcomers and their families. This creates a wonderful atmosphere for decreased and stopped funding of all of my activities within Hawaii since my family and especially extended family chooses not to add to such an existing economy. Hawaii's feminism is severely contorted from the academic feminism I learned back in Ithaca, NY.
The Girl's behavior seems to be standard of Hawaii born. I, being more cultured since my parents met in Tokyo, Japan and returned to settle in Philadelphia, PA. I am supposed to take pity on the locals who are 4th and 5th generation Americans and are "isolated" on these Hawaiian Islands. Though, I cannot pity their foolishness. They don't seem to have much established culture of their own and feel that ganging up on those of us who have other experiences from the East Coast. I still pray for solidarity from my home of New York, as well as some for my birth state of Pennsylvania even though I'm a first generation American. I'm hoping the pakalolo out here in the Islands doesn't kill me from contact in the air. Trying to ask the locals not to smoke Pakalolo around me seems to be
too difficult for them to manage.
Yet my housemates find this difficult to believe. So, aside from letting them send me to the Emergency Room by exposing myself to the Girl's weed habit... I can only hope she moves out next month and takes her smoker's tooth colored glass bong along. But, since she's a "respectable Filipino" who is on a respectable rowing team here in Hawaii (12 years my junior) The Girl's disrespect lingers to me as she justifies it with her short Washington D.C. stint at the Hawaiian State legislature. And feels justified in being extra rude to those around her (in daily parking habits and other ways). Mind the fact that the first time I met her, she was smoking cigarettes and sitting in filth on a pigeon poop covered bench. My first impression of her was completely disgusting. 0
But she's Filipino-American and I'm just Japanese trash to her and her "respectable" Hawaiian family who do well for themselves in the Hostess bar industry, and Insurance industries of Hawaii. I'm sure if her family knows, and as I've experienced with many of the older parents of people near my generation of Hawaii;;- they only laugh at newcomers and their families. This creates a wonderful atmosphere for decreased and stopped funding of all of my activities within Hawaii since my family and especially extended family chooses not to add to such an existing economy. Hawaii's feminism is severely contorted from the academic feminism I learned back in Ithaca, NY.
The Girl's behavior seems to be standard of Hawaii born. I, being more cultured since my parents met in Tokyo, Japan and returned to settle in Philadelphia, PA. I am supposed to take pity on the locals who are 4th and 5th generation Americans and are "isolated" on these Hawaiian Islands. Though, I cannot pity their foolishness. They don't seem to have much established culture of their own and feel that ganging up on those of us who have other experiences from the East Coast. I still pray for solidarity from my home of New York, as well as some for my birth state of Pennsylvania even though I'm a first generation American. I'm hoping the pakalolo out here in the Islands doesn't kill me from contact in the air. Trying to ask the locals not to smoke Pakalolo around me seems to be
too difficult for them to manage.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
180 days to go
July 22nd, 2013 at 8AM in the First District Court of Honolulu;- the ex-nuclear submarine engineer plead guilty to a charge of Harassment rather than waiting till July 24, 2013 for my appearance as a State witness in what HPD defied as "abuse."
This was the 4th very violent attack made on me by this young 26 year old man. Because of his security clearance, it seems that Hawaii and law enforcement have given him one year of leeway in all incidents that I have reported. This last incident involved me fighting for my life and for consciousness. And, he is a known drunk at bars and for being in fights.
The newly assigned Hawaii State prosecutor never contacted me regarding the case. She also refused to make time to discuss anything with me. Though this new prosecutor seems to be of Japanese descent, she also seems very biased against me as a 1st generation American who is of direct Japanese national descent. (I was advised of the hatred Japanese-Americans in Hawaii are veraciously against those of us who have a direct connection to Japan).
The public that has encountered and witnessed the attacks made on me by this Navy engineer put pressure on me in April 2012 to get a Temporary Restraining Order on the Navy Officer. The restraining order was granted in May 2012. The Navy engineer did many things in order to prevent the TRO from being known by his Commanding Officer. This included more than 6-8 months of his
behavior getting me thrown out of my apartments, having his fellow Navy Officers stalk me and take my phone, His damaging my working laptops and phones as well as many other personal belongings I had, and being verbally and mentally abusive to me for hours on end.
Hawaii State supports this behavior because of their need for men like him to feed their Hostess bar and Sex trade industries. It is a well known fact that the State encourages these men to absolute drunkeness so that they can collect more money in DUI's and other legal matters, as well as fining bars and their workers. And, that the State supports "soft" sex slavery and human trafficking where women wind up stuck in Hawaii and the Law Enforcement does nothing to help protect women. In fact, over the course of the past 1 year and 4 months I have learned many TRO's are issued against officers of the Honolulu Police Department. Additionally, they target people flying into this island state through the forms that are required to be filled out on the plane (as if entering another country).
Furthermore, the network of Attorneys is not like the networks on the Mainland. It is in fact more exclusive as law firms and attorneys collaborate, organize, and manipulate their clients' legal conflicts of interest. This is something that the local Courts overlook, as it is yet another way for this Island State to maintain some financial influx in this remote economy.
So, today, I broke down in tears because my previous lifestyle has been mostly decimated by the Military and Law enforcement community here in Hawaii. I have lost a tremendous amount of time, personal dignity, years of paid work, as well as my musical talent going to waste in this rotten and virtually un-cultured Island economy. I'm not certain as to how to re-establish my life, and on my own terms;- since this State of Hawaii has taken away the very things that made my life independent and respectable.
The only light is that;- Hopefully, the Ex-nuclear engineer will be discharged from the Navy and the 12 or so nuclear submarine reactors will sit in Pearl Harbor and Hawaii's surrounding waters a bit safer.
This was the 4th very violent attack made on me by this young 26 year old man. Because of his security clearance, it seems that Hawaii and law enforcement have given him one year of leeway in all incidents that I have reported. This last incident involved me fighting for my life and for consciousness. And, he is a known drunk at bars and for being in fights.
The newly assigned Hawaii State prosecutor never contacted me regarding the case. She also refused to make time to discuss anything with me. Though this new prosecutor seems to be of Japanese descent, she also seems very biased against me as a 1st generation American who is of direct Japanese national descent. (I was advised of the hatred Japanese-Americans in Hawaii are veraciously against those of us who have a direct connection to Japan).
The public that has encountered and witnessed the attacks made on me by this Navy engineer put pressure on me in April 2012 to get a Temporary Restraining Order on the Navy Officer. The restraining order was granted in May 2012. The Navy engineer did many things in order to prevent the TRO from being known by his Commanding Officer. This included more than 6-8 months of his
behavior getting me thrown out of my apartments, having his fellow Navy Officers stalk me and take my phone, His damaging my working laptops and phones as well as many other personal belongings I had, and being verbally and mentally abusive to me for hours on end.
Hawaii State supports this behavior because of their need for men like him to feed their Hostess bar and Sex trade industries. It is a well known fact that the State encourages these men to absolute drunkeness so that they can collect more money in DUI's and other legal matters, as well as fining bars and their workers. And, that the State supports "soft" sex slavery and human trafficking where women wind up stuck in Hawaii and the Law Enforcement does nothing to help protect women. In fact, over the course of the past 1 year and 4 months I have learned many TRO's are issued against officers of the Honolulu Police Department. Additionally, they target people flying into this island state through the forms that are required to be filled out on the plane (as if entering another country).
Furthermore, the network of Attorneys is not like the networks on the Mainland. It is in fact more exclusive as law firms and attorneys collaborate, organize, and manipulate their clients' legal conflicts of interest. This is something that the local Courts overlook, as it is yet another way for this Island State to maintain some financial influx in this remote economy.
So, today, I broke down in tears because my previous lifestyle has been mostly decimated by the Military and Law enforcement community here in Hawaii. I have lost a tremendous amount of time, personal dignity, years of paid work, as well as my musical talent going to waste in this rotten and virtually un-cultured Island economy. I'm not certain as to how to re-establish my life, and on my own terms;- since this State of Hawaii has taken away the very things that made my life independent and respectable.
The only light is that;- Hopefully, the Ex-nuclear engineer will be discharged from the Navy and the 12 or so nuclear submarine reactors will sit in Pearl Harbor and Hawaii's surrounding waters a bit safer.
Monday, July 22, 2013
Kikuchi is Chrysanthemum Land, not kuchi that USA rapes
My mother's family name straight from Japan is Kikuchi, 菊地。It simply means, Chrysanthemum Land. When I was a young child, before I was 6 years old and the Philadelphia doctors told me my biological mother from Japan was dead, I was schooled in the horrors of rape as a young international.
This is what the USA thinks of me. This is what the USA thinks of me as a female. I was politically torn (aka Raped) by many people of the USA before they made me involuntarily become a USA national by their default laws. So, as a young dual citizen, this is what I was taught the USA is to Japan. A body of white United States Americans who disrespect me in the highest form. And, to date, this seems to remain true. I was raised in Bucks County, PA not even a mile away from the Clymer family's establishment called the Rosacrucians. They had a hand in my sister's and brother's ultimate demise. The Clymers are USA political allies with the Cheney family.
It is not a conspiracy. It is simple United States politics. I am an unwilling participant and my parents put me through this so that they could maintain their position in the United States of America's political climate.
I have no protection. I did manage to live with an old New York State senator who was Vice President of Cornell University;- she was my mentor. Her help is why I'm barely clinging to survival here in Hawaii. Hawaii is the worst climate for a professional international female that I have ever lived in in my ENTIRE life. This state needs to change for the positive.
However, they say I should be more Christian and "Forgive" all the men who rape and will rape me in the USA because they bombed the very country;- with atomic weapons, that my heritage is from.
I have no reason to continue since I have no personal benefit at this point in time. And, if the USA riff raft of USA military and Legal bodies continue to treat me as such;- I can only hope for their demise since I don't wish this type of life on anyone. Though, I wish they could experience the Extreme magnitude that they have exposed me to;- only in their personal lives and loosing their loved ones who cannot be replaced by any TV set or appliance that they could purchase.
This is what the USA thinks of me. This is what the USA thinks of me as a female. I was politically torn (aka Raped) by many people of the USA before they made me involuntarily become a USA national by their default laws. So, as a young dual citizen, this is what I was taught the USA is to Japan. A body of white United States Americans who disrespect me in the highest form. And, to date, this seems to remain true. I was raised in Bucks County, PA not even a mile away from the Clymer family's establishment called the Rosacrucians. They had a hand in my sister's and brother's ultimate demise. The Clymers are USA political allies with the Cheney family.
It is not a conspiracy. It is simple United States politics. I am an unwilling participant and my parents put me through this so that they could maintain their position in the United States of America's political climate.
I have no protection. I did manage to live with an old New York State senator who was Vice President of Cornell University;- she was my mentor. Her help is why I'm barely clinging to survival here in Hawaii. Hawaii is the worst climate for a professional international female that I have ever lived in in my ENTIRE life. This state needs to change for the positive.
However, they say I should be more Christian and "Forgive" all the men who rape and will rape me in the USA because they bombed the very country;- with atomic weapons, that my heritage is from.
I have no reason to continue since I have no personal benefit at this point in time. And, if the USA riff raft of USA military and Legal bodies continue to treat me as such;- I can only hope for their demise since I don't wish this type of life on anyone. Though, I wish they could experience the Extreme magnitude that they have exposed me to;- only in their personal lives and loosing their loved ones who cannot be replaced by any TV set or appliance that they could purchase.
APEC, Security, & Hawaii State 1st District Court Honolulu
So, for whatever reason, the Hawaii State prosecutor was against me and continues to be against my existence, as most matters in the Hawaii State 1st District Court of Honolulu have been Handled. This morning I appeared as a witness, who didn't receive a subpoena and only a letter, because the Prosecutor is trying to throw me in Jail (for not appearing) since I am from a large Japanese family and she seems to have a complex because I don't have as much acne as she does. The Hawaii State 1st District Court has made judgements against my Civil rights since last year. This morning was no better. They have upheld everything from my being wrongly thrown out of my living space, to letting members of the U.S. Military and intelligence community make murder attempts on me. I am the last blood family member who can actually bridge one small Export-Import gap between APEC's newly considered Trans-Pacific Partnership member nation of Japan and the United States for the next generation. I attended some of the Asia Pacific Economic Cooperation meetings in November 2011 and had to walk into the Highly secured Waikiki meeting protected by gunmen with M16's.
Given the actions of Hawaii State Police aka, Honolulu Police Department, the U.S. Navy, and the U.S. Army as well as actions taken against my life by other member(s) of Homeland Security (which are ongoing). I have recently been warned that I will not be able to leave Hawaii alive and that I will be killed on my plane flight out of here since there are human traffickers who are against everything that I stand for and have much to loose. Additionally, I have been warned that Homeland Security and I.N.S. may deport me as a "Sex slave" in order to complicate international politics further. They have already destroyed my life in the past 1.75 years especially here on Oahu.
I think that most Military and Law enforcement bodies in Hawaii are trying to uphold their stake in illegal activities within the Hawaiian Islands. And, it is my sincere belief that they are trying to further the exploitation and sale of Asian women, including myself, since that is where monies for the Hawaiian tax base and payoffs to the legal/law enforcement community are found so they can maintain their security clearances.
Just a thought. Japan 2013 and APEC as well as a Japan National "NSA" style security setup being implemented are still not going to save other USA - JAPAN security agreements that have been ignored since Hiroshima was bombed.\\
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sidenote:
In all honesty, I know that the locals of Hawaii don't behave any better than the Mainland biggots who have power. However, they are a detriment to the future of minorities who may need to relocate from Hawaii to other racially biased places of the USA.
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