Monday, April 11, 2022

Retrospect on Toxic mold AND Nano-tech

In retrospect, with so many nano-tech reporterrs showing cutting edge creations;- I've put together a different perspective of what I once called "toxic mold".yes, click on the link to find a real glimpse of the microbe toxic mold. Then start the comparison to how it doesn't look like what was in my blood.

Here's the first and one of very few pictures I have from my personal medical files that iCloud took away from me aka locked me out of my iCloud account. It looks like the Toxic Mold plushie more than the microbe. 
But it definitely has black spots like anake venom under a microscope-- indicating a biotoxin.   One of My Twitter and IG handle is @ImperialNewsJ.

I now understand that the researchers and "powers that be" use a bio-toxins such as black mold microbe (not nano), or hydras as an obvious culprit to blame for the array of symptoms and microscopic nano-crystals. However, after another hard long look at several other pictures I took of my own microscopy session-- I understand there was alot more to blame than "mother nature's bio-toxins."

Red Pill, was nothing I subscribed to in the past. But undeniably the professional reporters present so much information about these old pics Ifrom a microscopy session I had stored away as "natural biotoxin" byproducts (Especially see the gloved hand pointing below)

These pictures were "interesting areas" that lacked the black mold.  And I agreed and nodded my head along with the microscopist the whole way without researching any further that this was toxic mold cause and effect.

 But, here's my self reflection in 2021-2022:  In some pics little black dots are suspect of "malaria" attacking cells. Other nano sized black dots may be biotoxins/mycotoxins killing cells and/or graphene. I've found plenty of pics that make graphene a primary suspect, and it is highly toxic in an of itself. What a great compliment to the microbe black mold that is micro-sized and much larger than 20nm or the size of 2 red blood cells.

Clear Angular crystals also show up as micro sized (bigger than red blood cells). One of the largest crystals seems to have a z or angular S shaped nano circuit in it. 

The smallest crystal, shaped like a nano lemon and vaguely there is probably uric acid. While it's adjacent reflective lit up crystal --both surrounded by red blood cells-- is more akin to "5g" nanotech. And there is a lit up cyan-blue nano sphere or nano bead in the pic with the gloved hand. 

Now here's the thing that really bothers me about the nano Spheres/beads. Nano beads/spheres are typically used as delivery methods. And, without a prescription can contain and be coated with anything from mRNA to pharmaceuticals. Some nano beads/spheres are used to erect a type of nano-scaffolding also known as "implants" in truther lore of former CommanderJ ames Casbolt aka Michael Prince circa 2004.

Though I concur the biotoxins create a noticable level of disfunction in my body;- I also realize today that there was much much more than ONE single biotoxin in the droplets of blood I gave for analysis. Toxic mold, was hardly the only culprit. And the manmade nano-spheres are still my greatest concern due to the unknown Bio-tech weapons and uses they connotate as everything from Genetical manipulation, to chemical delivery, to nano-bots, and data transmitter stations.

dream last night

Though I slept last night, I had yet another dream with some EM look alike. 
Like a video clip again.
Clip 1:- a transportation system where I was in a starfighter looking vehicle on a set track. I asked if it is a coffin. Someone else said she bought a Tesla. Reluctantly, I sat in the vehicle while EM looked down on me. The track drove into town, and at an intersection;- another track with a vehicle appeared above me. These vehicles took up the width of the old street. But the test mode of this transport is stacked vertically. And then I was back home. And touching the places on my forehead that felt bruised from the #5g or microwave pulses.

Clip 2. Inside a huge barn like facility where EM is leading us while we follow. There are shops with tables and seating. This part is difficult to remember. Though I was mostly a bystander observing.

Clip 3.  Standing at a loading dock, there are "food trucks" that haul food to people secretly hidden. One trailer with fans, one box truck, and a personal car. Everything is dirty and dingy here. Yet for the people who live here this is an exciting thing to see. And only one question was asked of me - "how many people can fit in that" with EM motioning his attention to the box truck.

Those were the sequences I remember.
These synthetic dreams interfere with my problem solving and personal use of my dream time to solve my daily problems. 
I wake feeling violated by these "imposed" dreams. And no longer feel "included" or privy to some obscure knowledge since I learned this may be the defense department doing non-consensual brainwashing using real #5g microwave or satellite targeting.

warnings about my safety

Over the past 2 weeks I've had several warnings about my personal safety. That is in addition to the failing of my mother's health especially. And she already told me that if she does before my father, that they "DeepState" do plan to kill me.

It's very clear from my perspective that I was a mere hostage used to leverage my relatives in Japan. But that Americans intended to use my life as collateral in their unobstructed  racketeering schemes and RICO Act Violations.

There is little that I can do and am "blacklisted" from making money and keeping it without federal or other state actor interference for their personal gain.

Saturday, April 09, 2022

healing today

The irrevocable harm to my life, has been a focus of my healing for the past several years. It's born out of sheer hatred the USA has had for Japan and the Japanese. And these Americans who attack me and continue to loose any shred of trust that I one had on them-- have failed to be worthwhile.

All I can do, is focus on what is good for me. The personal lessons that I learn. Today, I attended another online meeting time for healing. And realized what a waste of my time some of the people are since they o erstated their hatred of me as a mixed-nationality, Japanese -American. And with the rise in hate crimes, aside from my vehicle being tampered with in the driveway. I am unable to justify attending any distant gathering with these people with whom I now only share online meeting space.

I am unable to see them assisting me in. The event someone sabotages my vehicle while in a beautiful park setting. The cost of my energy quickly tallies into an escape to a place with people who do are friendlier.
Yet because I am still healing from decades of USA torture and persecution, I never have set down my own roots. My heart has become weary of being fetishized and despised by American men and women since I was a toddler. 

And I wish for a "redo" in a better community for my life to be perfect to me.
Where I am successful and have genuine love in my life. Where my core values are respected and upheld and my trust in others deepens with more success.

That is still merely a fantasy life for me. 
And today, I really am forced to reconsider my time and where I use my time. To have friends, real friends is something my life lacks.

Thursday, April 07, 2022

angry today

Minorities are different than the rest of us FOB. Even if born in the USA, they say. They say Equality and push FISA 1978 a law that was derived straight from hate. Human Rights treaties ignored, forcing good families from abroad to be poor. Forced religion of a Christian cross, enforced by a racist, murderer, pedophile boss.  Then go to school at age 2 the lineup of pedophiles says we don't understand you. You an English learner, you bilingual mud. Your mom can't stop us and your dad is a scum. You should be thankful for our white cum.
From the DOJ to the preschool, elementary too. Quakertown DeepState has been making deals in a backroom. Bucks County they say is the Bildeberger's way. Their pedophiles and traffickers are here to stay. Using the system and obstructing all rights, unless they hand off money through lawsuits  protecting their knights. It's not a nation they say, the American way. There are no families or someone to protect you. They all sold out for an Xbox or two.
Scum, they keep the scum paid with RICO type crimes. Easy clean money they say, to hurt those related to foreign officials every year in every way. BUCKS county, PA is full of DeepState that paved the way over a swamp. Noone decent can reach them in an economic slump. Biotech testing on foreignwrs children too, hiding behind security of a Security agreement or two. Japanese are those they sold and killed to keep the Chinese, Koreans, and Phillipines. It's funny to them patriots. Isn't it.

Tuesday, April 05, 2022

ambient backscatter

This morning, I woke without having the mental disruption of what I generally call "v2k". The house has been innundated with frequencies 24/7 for the past 3 years I've been here. 
One microwave suspect: coming from a noisy pickup truck that parks someone on the rural county road outside. There are only 8-9 properties on this 1/2 mile of road where I live. The pickup truck's engine is noisy, and I get shielding out, which doesn't help. During their frequent nightly stops, the "moonlight farms" IP and it's related IP shows up. Almost as soon as I can screenshot the IP lists, my computer and phone are hacked-- And my screens multiply, open every app, or freeze. I'm stuck without a way to trace this nightly incident. And then the microwaves start to ping off the thin layer of shielding that covers my head. It only reduces some of the intensity of being microwaved from the street. Some days, I wonder if it's a portable LRad mounted. 

And the police- ignore my attempts to make reports. Clearly a sign that they are in compliance with the criminals. My only choice after over 2 years of continued cyber torture-- to make a weak report to the FBI. 

This is part of the daily onslaught of being a Targeted Individual in DeepState Pennsylvania. I'm cyberopped out of work. And my only options online are the ones that work. Things like Twitter. Occasional Facebook posts, are my cry for help.
And yes, life is this fragile today. Where all Cyberops have destroyed my ability to be competent in the world of WWW and internet. 

That is aside from what is called Cybertorture as a form of psychological torture. Which, today, maybe today-- I can expound upon. While I am hesitant due to my need to have "proof" of implants in my body at specific locations. And being run into the ground, and having little funds to survive on;-- it's unlikely that I will be able to produce full sets of accurate MRI, X-ray, and anything else that will show micro and nano-tech. 
Cybertorture is a new class of crime against a victim. And the forensic methods are still being established. All while I be ame a hate-crime victim of Bucks County police and local officials and their supporters.

Monday, April 04, 2022

Meeting yesterday

Yesterday, I attended an online meeting that I haven't been to since late fall of 2021.
The main reason was to help another ti who was struggling with a new zapper device that had blurry instruction photos and very badly written instructions.

After a slurry of texts and dms and email, I got the link to the meeting and forwarded it on. The online meeting known as TI Talk is run by a long-term UK activist.

Surprisingly, as I listened only planning to talk a little about the coil style zapper:- 
One newer TI speaking was from my home state of Pennsylvania. And lo and behold also only about 11miles away. Though their targeting is slightly different than what I experienced over my life in Bucks County, PA.

The stories went on and all I could do was share and confirm the police involvement in supporting and covering up criminals. And to the extent of rattling off dozens of crimes including: vehicular car tampering and running off the road, abductions, to other forms of torture that they coverup by refusing to take reports or go to the crime scene or vehicle. And that I responded to the UN about psychological torture and was retaliated on by the Bucks County, PA officials and other people and participating businesses.

And so I ran down some of year #46 for me and sharing that I had been sick and gotten confirmation early 2022 that I have Hepatitis B antibodies. So, I followed through on doing research as to how, since I knew the specifics of my work conditions in 2021, customers and a coworker.
And I found Arbutus BioPharma in my local Bucks County, PA area search results was looking to cure Hepatitis B. And after more digging found the Bucks County Bio-Tech charitable non profit for research having supported Arbutus BioPharma, a Canadian based company. The B.C. based company Arbutus BioPharma is also in litigation with Pfizer over royalties for the RNA delivery method in some of the Pandemic shots. 

I also mentioned the lockdown time when I was driving through town and saw a moving truck with stacks of silver cases being moved into a house that still had a for sale sign on it, near an elementary school. It looked like a milabs operation about to go down about a half hour before lockdown curfew. 

In any case, of course after I listened to other stories and findings; - the discussion about the zapper came up. And MWO was discussed. I was able to ask a former US Navy tech about 3D synthetic dreams. And had an reasonable answer for my question on how to block the disturbing video clips that have been ongoing throughout my life:- but that picked up pace in the past 2 weeks.



Sunday, April 03, 2022

dirty bulk turned into got bad habits

While I fell out of my high performance grain free, mostly fruit free alkaline keto vegan and detox diet:- i packed on 15lbs sheerly by using a grain based protein powder. Not a good thing.
Dirty bulking for me consisted of:
Year 1:
2-3 grain inclusive (not keto) based plant protein shakes a day over 8-9months.
Added Hummus, pinto & black beans.

Year 2:
Owch-- all the bad stuff and here is the list
1.  Ramen Noodles  with MCT (personal spice mix of soy wasabi & chili soy)
2. Ketchup - a rare item due to toxins even if organic.
3. Rice- cooked white rice makes me feel worse than ramen noodles-- go figure
4. Assortment of normal (not keto)vegan cookies- these got so addictive after going decades. These cookies melt in coffee into a sugary slather. 


Officially, I got grain-brain. It is highly addictive plant based food with alot of empty calories

And MCT oil had added about 15lbs to my normally low weight. I can still cram myself into size 4's but I have a muffin top for the first time in my life. I am, a size 6 and my once pretty face is turned into a saggy elderly person's butt. 
I have a ton of training to do, and every joint pain and old injury is sore if not painful.
I'm hoping to turn it around. Especially after daily toxicity from Both of my unhealthy and unfit parents-- who did nothing positive for my life in the past 3years after asking me to stay close to home for them.
It's brutal. And my once happy healthy routine that includes occasional french fries and an avo toasted bagel is gone

Today, 2years into pandemic fueling and sedentary lifestyle-- I am seriously in deep shit. Financially, it's a tough turn around back to my optimal health that crushed my lifelong anemia.

How to turn this around? After being veg and mainly vegan for the past 35years of my life??? And unjoining the gym due to old ken type hostilities??? I'm at wits end.
Digging out the Unbeatable Mind course I took...doesn't seem like enough.



Thursday, March 31, 2022

spruce tree fallen- uses

This morning, I woke to a bundle of lengthy spruce branches I trimmed. Yesterday I  safely incinerated the needles and had an aromatic Spruce incense bath lasting 2hours. And I left plenty of thicker sticks  and selected long boughs for walking sticks. Seems a waste to incinerate the 25+year old wood. And I have to use the app to see if it counts rings.
unscraped (left), scraped on (right).
Over the fire, I took 7 sticks about 50"long  and blackened them over the fire. Messy to my hands yet I burned off the charred bark and lichen and tiny twiggy areas. Then plunged the ends into the hot ash for an added effect.  Call me Lazy or my personalization...take your pick 
And leaving them outdoors to season a bit longer before I scrape and sand them.

After lengthy web searches, the spruce takes a beating from reviews. So I'm making a box (or two) of aromatic Spruce meditation wood to add to the usual pre-purchased wood for a meditation time fire.
This wood burns quickly, yet the spiritual incense is a refreshing aroma. 

Yesterday I remembered a holiday from childhood at my neighbor's. When my dad protested the addition of evergreen logs to the fire. While my godfather replied, I like the smell of it and we clean the chimney anyway. This type of "Christmas tree" wood ignites and heats quickly. And it can add to and ignite  creasote in the chimney.

But, I thought to myself, as a hiking stick it is fine. And thinking back to musical uses really feel in tune with the vibrations that will resonate with this spruce hiking stick, for prayers and positivity. 

And as I see the 1"-3" diameter of a 30yr old spruce (I have to count the rings yet)-- I think it will compare to be stronger than a similar diameter tree limb of a younger 5-15year old tree. So, away to scraping I go.
This was after all, our old Christmas tree that fell on my late brother's birthday after a 50mph wind gust. 

Believe it or not I prayed that this tree would come down without disrupting my heart. My parents "help" has been posing as my late brother and so much toxicity from my parents who call him their son.
The pandemic has been horrendous, along with the racist parents I have. So for me, this tree falling is a heartwish that was honored. I prayed that it come down safely and without this "helper". So when I saw it had fallen during the windstorm, I was quite ecstatic. At over 30feet, the supple top was just dangling 4" over the road landing next to the mailbox. And my trusty tree trimmers were able to trim it to clear the roadway.

After an IG post, someone stopped by and without asking took over 1/2 of the tree top (leaving the branches behind). If I hadn't prayed on it, I would have run outside yelling. Especially since board feet are pricey today. $300+ a cord of (hard) wood on average. And he beat my elderly father to it, though exchanged words with him about having an outdoor greenhouse furnace for 15feet of solid spruce.

My dad, in poor health, had his tractor to push the tree. But all of it went perfectly from my point of view (POV). All completed on my brother's birthday, a day that we usually took down Christmas decorations in February. I really felt this was a huge blessing. And I am hoping to have what I would like from the remaining tree trunk.
Will see. 

Right now, I am happy to have my heartwish filled. My father and mother both hate the healing group "figurehead" despite it being an international group in many nations with a diversity of people on most every continent. So, without mentioning the name, it was through doing "Einstillen" that I feel I received this heartwish. 

So having a hiking stick as a piece of my past is also heartwarming to me.

7:25pm update... Help today:  Yesterday I had the ash can near 3/4 full of spruce ash and was wondering how to empty it. So, the March winds alerted me to the ash can. And thinking something was burning and leaving a smoke trail in it, I ran to check on it-- wondering why it was left unattended. It was literally so windy that about half of the spruce ash had blown out of it, leaving a strange thin cloud of white ash streaming out of it. It wasn't the billowing smoke of foliage and green branches. I am so grateful for this help. And it should help the lawn grow in greener too.



Tuesday, March 29, 2022

alkaline foods

Missing the fresh 365-366 days a year fresh veggies. My usual breakfast, raw alkaline salads for lunch and dinner with raw almonds and protein shakes in between. Rethinking my survival food after seeing scenes in the Ukraine:
1. Alkaline preferred vegan (pea) Protein at 52g a day and chlorophyll to process it.
2. Water 3liters a day
3. Psychology Food that is "comfort" but an occasional food I usually have infrequently.
 

synthetic dream 03/29

Synthetic dream scene... (Not remote viewing) 

1. I saw 2 people fully clothed with head coverings. One of them was tall and thin, wearing a grey &natural colored dress with a scarf loosely wrapped around her head. The tall person walked at the right side of a smaller obviously male built guy, who had a blue tarp like hood over their head. They approached a door to a home or office. The door was at the end of a walkway (different style than a center places front door.)

2. The tall figure was baldish, without discernable features of being male or female. And sitting at a long table (plastic buffet type) as if there were some audition:- they said to me "you need to loose weight's.

3. The next scene I was in a South Pacific style seated bath next to a skinny and non muscular white male who was seated in the shallow bath with several limp white human bodies lined up along the left side. 
And I received the thought "you're sexy". And when I looked down at my body, it was darker than I have ever been in my life. And my abs and legs' length were definitely not how I look. 

It seems this synthetic dream is  a form of subliminal brain washing. And it occured before 10:26PM on the 28th. Yesterday, my mother also had X-rays taken of her skull due to problems with her vision. And returned complaining of extreme dizziness and bright lights from the x-ray. 
In the past, "DeepState" used my father (who claimed he is a veteran USAF OSI w6officer) as a handler for me and her. So in the past my JApanese mother was subjected to experimental surgeries that left her with disabilities, hyperviolence after the cervical spine surgery, and severe trauma. I believe this is linked directly to the DoD 5240.1R human experimentation surveillance methods from the 1980s. 
My mother was a Japanese citizen at the time the torture began. 
Since the UN torture allegation includes a parent who was/is a state actor of the government;- and also allows the children of the state actor to make claims. All of the known and unknown atrocities that occured to my mother, sister, brother affected my well being and life deeply.
And since a parent can participate in "their own torture" I believe this applies to my mother and my father is some instances.
So my story is rather Kafkaesque.
And It is my real life experience.

Monday, March 28, 2022

missing heart connecrion

My life in the USA female has been practically devoid of protection for any heart connection. Though in Japan and Hawaii, I could feel more of that heart connection. 
What I am speaking of is a "quantum" spiritual connection that transcends socio-political unity on agenda ie., Veganism, animal liberations, environmental issues.
A Heart Connection is the "missing link" to personal intimate relationships. And what I mean by this, is that there is a clear sixth sense between you and those around you.
It's shown in a worried phone call before someone near you unexpectedly goes into a frenzy. Or, someone returning to your door after leaving when they sense your agony and grief. Sometimes it's felt when you give someone a hug after knowing them for years. 

This type of connection is non-existent for me on the mainland USA. And it speaks volumes to the American standards of lust and exploitation of Asian women. Being impersonal has it's limits, and it is not safe when it is the only interaction with those in your community for years. Yet neither is becoming a trophy API (HAPA)fetish for men to defend or pass around while they sever and abuse any friendships the woman had. And sex assault is a tool for these men to "one up it" and hurt any heart connection a serious intimate partner (for marriage in US terms) has. For me, many of the assailants walked away from punishment, while my spirit and security were destroyed. 
And Americans (I mean state actors and Intel agents) who use the "whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger" addage repeated these offenses throughout my life. Iow., Even with their impunity, my only defense is to write another hopeless letter to the UN about how my life has been obstructed from any normal path. 

Ironically, the UN is overwhelmed with complaints from the world's citizens and is ineffective at any enforcement in member states like the USA. 
It makes the United States that I have experienced, worse than any communist regime. The impunity is stacked with Nazi-era values that overshadow my life as a mixed-race individual of Japanese and American heritage. And the heart connections I have, still remain with me despite the I'll actions of state actors who intentionally intended to torture me further.



Sunday, March 27, 2022

the frequency

Listening to American voices, there's a shallow competition going on the sound waves. Most of it is those who instill a frequency and sense of urgency, fear reaction, and negative criticism or the complete void of compassion and caring.
Do you remember what that is?

Do you remember what it's like to have someone who genuinely senses how you feel and would rush to your rescue from suicidal thoughts?

This lack of compassion is prevalent among Americans. 
Many people bludgeon themselves attempting to climb the financial ladder. And over the years they become completely detached from caring about their family.
It's a repeat story that filled the voids of airspace with demonic frequencies.

Much like the ionic disruption caused by black goo oil schist, the negative vibrations from Mainstream media cycled to a new high. There is some space for positive spiritual change and balance. But many people attenuate their focus on actual minerals and gemstones to clear the negative frequencies. They remain absent of feeling through calloused walls of spiritual food buildup. And it takes time to soften the soul, a feat for those who can genuinely believe and entrust their physical well being with God's grace.

Most Americans, are incapable of unwinding from the criticisms. And this hardened  bardo I wake to each day, is illusory and impermanence rules the focus of my spiritual journey. I am sharing these frequencies each day I wake, and the more I reach to God, the more darkness swarms me the following day.
It's become a vessel filled with particles that must be charged with positive energies of love and compassion. No matter how toxic the substance.

Saturday, March 26, 2022

being the "token" minority

As a kid isolated from other kids like me meant that my mom arranged alot of play dates. It was probably fun for her to engage with parents, but it was horrible for me as the one and only Japanese kid in school.
My mom, had good intentions for me as she tried to follow good parenting of the time. But, It wasn't a time geared towards diversity in the community where I lived and spent 2/3 of my life.
And it never improved. Especially when I was sent to "work" and learn the lessons of life by my tweens. Easy stuff that would make any LA trust fund baby cringe in horror:- my USA dad taking me to my US side white  grandmother's home to mow her lawn. I'd get a popsicle or something from the candy store. We never had Christmas or holiday photos together. And since it was weekends, I didn't make any close friends. 
Later on, I watched the neighbors' horses, cats, dogs, and more or less house sat for a cheap price. 
But again, I was totally on my own. Not something that would happen today.
The work lessons were fine. I never babysat. But I did start teaching 30min piano lessons by my sophomore year of high school. Until I progressed to being on a payroll at a local state park poolside  concession stand. And it was ok, except for the lessons I wasn't able to handle. And most of those were from adult men. 
I won't say it's a good place for a child like me to be, handling adult sexual advances and comments. Especially during the years before college and university applications.
And it's not prideful to look back on attracting this attention at all. Especially when one day you look back at life and see how the hurt and callouses built up. And the cost of having those early job credentials are what kept my net worth and self worth in the gutter decades afterwards. There's simply no reason to have these early workplace experiences as a minority. Especially when noone else around you respects you as anything besides an easy target passed off as a fetish.

Always seeking some safety and security is a tradeoff to having an income. Word gets around quickly when parents don't react. And some parents attorneys, like mine were pedophile debauches whose names match up to others on the official DeepState list.
What it means, it means the attorneys are predatory on the family. And parents resources are threatened repeatedly. Though, these predators will attack the children well into adulthood to drain the resources of a minority Loving Day family like mine. Mixed race haafu in Japan make money. Yet stuck here and downtrodden by city clients and visitors is degrading for decades. And the networks never dissapate. They always share their stories of debauchery of teenagers and exclude us from having families of our own. That is aside from dismantling our life plans every step of the way. The criminality of these men and women never fades, and is resurrected and repeated by subsequent generations. I will always be an outsider here. It's not my community, it a community that is full of predatory traffickers who destroyed my family.

I will never advocate for child labor. It is damaging for a lifetime.

Thursday, March 24, 2022

Dream log

Waking from a dream to the sound of a spring thunderstorm. The dream was abnormal for me. Like a synthetic dream in 3d. 
It began with my life of the ocean.
And a person on a large life raft.
Who was watching the water crash into a deep ocean scene with a few people in the water. One lone surfer sitting on a board, had a smooth incoming wave that concealed a very large grey shark like (whale shark) creature many whose closed mouth was many times larger than the man. The man on his surfboard looked our way in horror. 

And the scene changed to a small island. With an arch made of 3 tree trunks and an earthen box-like shelter. One small childlike man with a cleaned gunshot wound to his abdomen. And a dead soldier in uniform. I gave light to the man's wound and focused light with strong intention to draw the bullet and any metals out of the wound. This would remain with one more light treatment for a day or two. Until charcoal was made. I asked God for the person to heal. And, to forgive him any of his sins. He happened to look like Putin, yet seemed like a young boy. 

There was nothing there to support life. It was like exile, or an abandoned military post station. I imagined this was in the Kurils since the sky was chalky grey, and the water looked equally cold and uninviting.

So, i asked God to send food. And a large frond of seakelp appeared in the ocean, as if most of a stalk had broken off.
I took this and hung it to dry. And after taking the wooden arch down, needed some way to start a fire. Without an axe The plan is to burn the wood into smaller sections. So setting fire to it from the middle to make it manageable. 
And lacking a way to start fire, I focused on making the light energy from my hand to start this fire.
Also, for no apparent reason, a beached baby whale appeared on the shore. And I dug a deep trench with my hands so the whale had water from the sea around their body. The whale still needed a deep hole of water to take the weight off their structure.
And a way back to the ocean.
And gathered kindling of plant fibers to dry for the fire. It would take 2-5days for this to be used.
Returning to the wounded man, I blessed the charcoal from the chi fire I started. And to pray on it to be used to keep the wound clean.

The sea kelp made me quite happy, since I need minerals for my diet. And this plant offered me that which I need without killing animals. Yet upon cleaning the plant while wet, I found several live snails and shrimp.
So these life forms need water to thrive in. And I made small pools of water on some crater like sea stones and shells and placed the snails there.
Sadly, this man needs protein to recover, so I offered him a leaf of the kelp with live shrimp and snails, I never touched the (shrimp) prawns with my hands since I am very allergic to this crustacean shellfish. I used leafs of seaweed to wrap the live shrimp/prawns in order to move them.
I told him he could make a soup of them, though in reflection this is a compromise of my spirituality I must contend with as a vegan. But we still needed fresh water. And that he should only eat 1 at a time with some of the green kelp seaweed. The green part helps the body use the protein efficiently, and only 1-2 snail worth of protein (like 1 escargot) is needed in one meal. After some of the wood burned, I would make bowls if we could not find big seashells to use as spoons and bowls. Snails are hermaphrodites and their body contains their sentient brain. They reproduce quickly in one month.

I thought about the baby whale surviving somehow. And was uncertain if this man would help me return the whale to the sea.
I imagined a repeat of some primal tribes using this beautiful baby animal for survival and fishing hooks instead of helping them to the sea. And knowing we saw the large  shark creature in the sea. Made me happy this baby whale was alive.
In this unfriendly climate, I can only ask God for help. And with positive energy, hope that nature senses my intentions. And by returning the baby whale to the sea, still many times bigger than me. That nature would know my intentions and bestow grace and ease of travel on me. And In this dream I wished for my seeds to be seen in my clothing. And I said, this is why. This is why our ancestors took seeds with them to plant on their journeys. 

Here is where the dream splits into multi-verse of realities. Where release of the whale brings the aid of seabirds entangled in a net with a backpack of helpful tools. Or where the death and use of the whale becomes is the finite resources with a suffering period of nothing for punishment. And by returning the baby whale to the sea, an abandoned boat with fuel appears in the nearby sea after a larger whale appeared and breached the days before.

Praying, with God, I ask nature for grace and healing. And for the past sins of all of my relatives who killed humans and animals in war and for food to be cleansed.
In Japanese cultures, they say my karma is heavy from my ancestors. And my karma may have become heavier for normal people to handle because my mother married to her enemies nation that killed so many Japanese. This is quite different as a Japanese Buddhist with ancestral worship than to live Tibetan Buddhist and to be unattached to karmic debts of ancestral worship. 
Yet my Christian Lutheran upbringing taught me I would not reincarnate and can ask God's forgiveness before turning into nothingness.
My light giving practice and connection to God, I feel is stronger. As I asked in the Dreamworld to forgive this man who appeared injured with the thought "it is only skin" and I woke to Tengri the God of my ancient Siberian ancestors as I muttered some words of a thunderstorm blessing in Hebrew.
This is how my spirit world is. I am diverse in my ancestry across Indigenous Siberia, East Asia, and Asia to Europe, and America. That is too much religious practice as a human. And so, I only have my heart, my compassion. And thoughts of acknowledgement.

What is the multiverse today? What is our faith and intention to be with the world. And what options are presented to us, when we offer our assistance to those injured?

Yet what happens when life is good for those who believe in killing? Can we say that they do not experience God's bounty when they kill a creature such as a whale? 
Maybe it is not their nature to have such a frequency that supports life in the same way. And maybe today, in today's modern world we now have those options.







This issue about my "religion"

More about this Bruno Groening group and why I've remained in it. The reasons are moreso in the reading materials, name the "book table" books made available at live community hours. Since I had to socially isolate to avoid food during my biotoxin healing-- I read most of the books. Except those with a yellow cover.

  Though I had resigned as a writing helper due to Karens attacking me. And some anger directed at me (for overstepping the community leader) after being asked to search for a new meeting place.

1. To me, it wasn't church. Yet is God focused for my healing. 
2. There are books available to read, and I read most of them that were available in Hawaii while I was going through biotoxin detoxing alone, at the park or the beach.
3. I agreed with the possibility to heal without pharmaceuticals and the fight that started with the big pharma companies of WW2. Especially since my mixed genetics predispose me to toxicity side effects more so than the benefits.
4. I thought of it as a diverse world group.
Despite the huge differences in national origins of Americans on the mainland being predominantly European. There are communities in continents and countries world wide.
5.  Despite Bruno Groening being a former Nazi;- I learned that he was persecuted by the Nazi party for healing without a license. And this seems to me to be a form of prayer and meditation. Much like self healing guided books say to do on a 21 day cycle. And include a written portion after a healing happens.

To me, after praying and participating for a few months at a time up to decade or more meditating or light giving in Japanese,  Tibetan, Vegan, New age, Master healers, Krishna traditions... I found this to take the least time when I had a busy daily schedule and focused on my learning and financially surviving being decimated with biotoxin. Meaning I've had to throw away so much of what I had or give away major objects with the hope to move forward.

I followed in Hawaii community because there were also so many different lightworkers from many different backgrounds. And so many people shared their personal insights and positive mindset. This was interesting to me. 
However my mainland experience with the group is quite different. Especially since I have never met a mainland friend in person. And ALL of the interactions have been online, weekly if not daily since the pandemic. Much different and lonely than the in-person community hours Iheld 1x every 21 days in Hawaii. 



API HAPA attacked because of white leadership

As a mixed-race person who is on NLY understood by other HAPA Asia Pacific Islanders and those from my Mother's Japanese prefecture, I have taken a large battery ok f psychological abuse from the "non-mixed race collective" of humans in the USA especially. 

I have endured decades of being scared silent because of upsetting the selfish "all one race" of  white privledged, or African-Americans, or Hispanics, or Asians.
It's quite a broad battle to fight alone, isolated from other HAPA people, many of whom are adult children of military marriages to foreign wives or Hawaiians from well before the USA occupied Hawaii.

I can say that the United States people largely do not respect the Universal Declaration of Human Rights with culture, religion, and family values across national borders. Not only is freedom of religion stated in the U.S. Constitution, but it is meant for those of us with foreign beliefs to have safety. Instead many USA based religious organizations are a cats paw for the Intelligence Community. 

And I'm n Hawaii, where I was invited to and joined a German based group:- through an African-American drummer and lead by an Argentinian-American leader, I realize today that they are the friendly minorities of the group. And though I belonged for the refreshing classical music meditation and spiritual prayers for healing, I was and still am barraged with hatred because the German Mystic Bruno Groening had served in Germany during WW2. So as a mixed race person, the typical Loud mouthed angry and sometimes alcoholic racists attack me 1. For being a mixed race Asian-American minority and 2. Because the mystic himself was a Nazi.
Yes, I said it. I am attacked because of a Dead former Nazi. The hatred and rationality of the Karens and Kens in America is ridiculous to me. Though I suppose it has some rational bias in their minds. I simply view it as the "international" version of a similar White privledged and racist Lutheran group that I was baptized into in infancy. 

The Christian people of the USA uphold their own version of white privilege and neo-nazism as we see the attacks and fights escalate since Trump took office.
And it ironically, has a similar timing to when I first was introduced to the rebound prayer group.

Yet because of the rift and health complications I face, I am still dragged into situations without others of my generation or similar national origins or ethnicity around me. I am constantly chased by US State actors (meaning a government based attack) out of my personal belief system and forced into situations that are politically volitile as a read for other people.

I'm writing this as it is a continued violation of my human rights. And the 🕊️ peace I desire in my life has been stripped away. This I have no family or children of my own, barely any remnant of a career, and it definitely lacks an element of fun. That is fun in the sense that I have options to select from, instead of the ongoing contortion of my personal intentions by cIa or Intelligence operations.

Enough is enough.



Especially during a time 

Wednesday, March 23, 2022

Wiped out from the East Coast

Only 3 short years back in my Home State of Pennsylvania and I am doing worse than ever.
The materialistic toxicity, mass media, and racial biases clobbered my good senses along with my heart, hopes, finances, and interpersonal interactions.
The people here lack the spiritual substance I found 5000miles away on the other side of the United States. It's like a time machine rewound my modern perspective back to primordial days of humans attacking different looking groups of other humans. Yet, in 2022 the population compressed what was a civil war into en masse sized protest.

Yet my lifeline, sadly, has been cut short since returning and going through lockdown, accompanied by flight restrictions due to being unvaxxed. And so it seems  there is no information to help me available from Pennsylvania. 
A harsh difference from Hawaii where others were concerned I needed help and greatly shared stories. Here in the East Coast, being levelled and berated is a daily routine for most people to dish out. And irregardless of any corporate diversity training click through modules. 

It's become impossible to financially be uplifted when all cyber ops are designed to diminish my life. Either by the waste of time, or obstruction of communication with what I deem "appropriate" people for my life. Instead of being tossed back to the disrespectful racists who conceal all their thoughts of sabotage with social acceptance in their communities.

Shoving their religious organizations and ideology outside of my personal beliefs at me when I seek help...has become the numbing suiciding toxin of modern East Coast. No, I am no longer a Christian. And should not be forced to change my personal belief for basic human rights- food, shelter, healthcare, work. Yet I have been denied all of these things for the past several years. After being able to live in Hawaii where all my personal beliefs were actually upheld.



Monday, March 21, 2022

life changes

Reading up on what to get rid of that makes a woman look old--
And that Coco Chanel saying about jewelry comes to mind-- keeping fun jewelry sets for beach party photos is something I can't erase from my mind. 

Yet having a watch, and being criticized for not wearing a watch since I was in my 20s is definitely a pet peeve as a classical pianist and former rock climber and adventure guide.

Some accessories...just don't work for me. And a watch that can't sustain impact is one of them. Countless watches have been defective while working as a catering and bartender manager. Yet one day long long ago at a PGA event...my old Samsung survived a drop in the watery ice bucket.
And that is a truth that dry rice has continued to justify my no watch phone time only policy since the turn of the millennium.

Between Cracked watch faces and jewelry thieves of all sexes and species make having any watch a temporary item in my life. And the hassle for a watch in the $150-500 range is too much. Even the ceramic watch craze of five years ago made me realize the watch is better of with a child.
Thats the truth of my no watch phenomena. And the real reason behind my scant jewelry collection. 

Tuesday, March 15, 2022

When they aren't for you as a Nisei:- are they pro Communist China?

It's March, and it's blaring that Americans aren't "for me" at any level. The pandemic proved that 💯. And it's left me wondering where to set my all new low tolerance standard will be.

Yesterday, I listened in on a Twitter Space on Geopolitics and one of the female speakers started Japan bashing. At 292 attendees and growing, another speaker set her straight about how to define who an enemy is. And my ears were grateful to hear him refer to her punk arse upbringing as or of kids (she adopted from another nation know for Neo-Nazis).

Yet none of this resonates to a level of respect for my life to move forward. Berated by so many Japan and Asia haters since Trump's election campaigns in Hawaii-- and to my move back to hometown USA in Bucks County, PA-- it's been a long weary and difficult past 6years in the USA. 

And the Wars are shaping up to show me that MOST Americans are still Anti-Japan and pro-China for cheap goods. 

Monday, March 14, 2022

The stove issues.

Between 07:14_07:21 this morning;- I washed and changed the cat's water bowl after his meowing for 15min. 
Normal Sunday -Monday routine for him.
My parents don't clean his fountain bowl properly and insist on keeping it in a high traffic area. So, it gets thick biofilm quickly
Most times I clean the fountainbowl and they are home they are triggered to go into violent rage. This morning no different.
My mother is cooking chicken in a pot on the stove. She started screaming at me that I ruined the hood of their stove that she claims is 2years old. 
She took her fingernail to the hood and scraped away the paint that is covered with grease stains. The fan is off and the steam from the 5qt pot cooking is covering the area where the paint peeled. 
She's in a violent rage and then went to physically attack me.
The last time I tried to clean the range hood was 2weeks ago. And she asked me to clean the fan, etc due to grease buildup.
One day in Nov.2021 I put about 5hrs into cleaning the blackened oven. And the stovetop is an issue because she literally forgets she's cooking and leaves the house. And same with the fireplace being unattended or sometimes she raised the temperature of it quickly to near 425F.
The cat, frequently alerts me to problems since the air quality changes. 
Things are very bad here for me since they 1. Refuse to fill out paperwork with the state for me to be paid something to help.
2. Have no ability to allow me to work from the house and teach piano online, or do anything else.

I do need to leave since they are waiting to sue me for any income I do manage to bring in. It's been a completely disfunctional living situation for me. And I can't help them financially due to their control and abuse issues that make me an undesirable employee, aside from being Japanese-American and having a mentally distraught elderly immigrant mother.

Saturday, March 12, 2022

notice

sproutfuel.com was submitted as a website related to a person human rights complaint by Angela M. (Kikuchi) kneale  against the United States.

Further harassment will result in those being added to a lengthy list of perpetrators.

Wednesday, March 09, 2022

USPS and DeepState targeting

I would like to be able to write a letter and have it printed and mailed by USPS. This request is due to the surveillance by local PD and Fusion centers monitoring my whereabouts and targeting me. 
Due to the FISA and DoD 5240.1R surveillance as a discriminatory practice against Americans born to at least one foreign national parent and one US military parent:- the local police and State actors already tamper with my mail and critical financial related matters. This way they degraded my life and eroded my human rights.
They know the contents of my communication as I write them due to Surveillance monitoring. So for the local USPS (probably involved in monitoring my mail) to allow a service to mail the letter would spare me the travel, and an in person incident by Gangstalkers and privately contracted Defense employees.

In 2020-2021 they targeted me each time I printed an eBay shipping label since they do not permit home pickup for my location.
There were Gangstalkers in town, following and obstructing my driving from in front of me. In 2022 I learned eBay allows printing of the label from the USPS. And this eased the immediate targeting on days I left the house. I limited days I left the house to 1 or 2 days because of death threats attempts on my life including bodily harm since Spring of 2021.

My human rights and freedom is limited here. And the local library also participates in targeting when I print letters. The local Staples also seems to be accessible to perpetrators:- noting additional charges from printing during the closed New Year's Day. It appears the local perpetrators printed 3-4 additional copies of my affidavit on January 1st-Jan 3rd 2021.  After I paid and sent an affidavit to a civil rights group in 2020.

The psychological damages are also making my life tedious. 



if anyone can/will help me

Today, I left this review for Planet Fitness in Quakertown, PA. I am posting it due to the history of white supremacy groups in the local area. And due to attacks to me, and my 2 deceased siblings. We are mixed-race 1st generation Japanese-Americans who would have had beautiful lives as "haafu" in Japan. Our father was a USAF officer.

Instead, my family fell pray to USA white domestic terrorism AND Anti-Asian sentiment since 9/11.
I paid for 11mos and annual fee despite feeling unsafe by the 3rd or 4th month.
 Here's my review:

The member who harassed me.was not someone I know. And being told to accept his white privilege slave mentality of telling me what to do while I was on the treadmill, working out was extremely uncomfortable. 
Though I keep my life to myself, this incident got back to my 70+ year old mother who was upset.

I would appreciate a refund since I don't feel that the harassment and employees siding with this member (socially) was warranted. He was rude, intended to harass me, and was very obviously angry and hostile after the incident.

I felt very uncomfortable at this location, in my Hometown USA as an Asian-American during the pandemic. It added to the PTS of other random attacks by people in the community as Anti-Asian hate incidents.

Tuesday, March 01, 2022

Bucks County murdered my family

Conspiracy theorists and NSA whistleblowers drew my attention to DeepState and MKultra conspiracy theories in 2015. Over the past 6years of my personal research into the "persecution" and discrimination I, my late brother, my late sister faced as the only children of a Japanese national mother who moved to Bucks County, PA from Japan. The whistleblowers presented me with the lengthy international torture affidavit put out by a Stop007.org campaigner and in 2021 announced that she is the current wife of Bill Binney, former director of the NSA.
Though I took over 3 years to wade through my life filled with traumatic events from what had previously been considered "anti-Japanese hate crimes" of the highly racist Bucks County, PA community. Today, it is very clear to me, as a survivor of this ongoing U.S.A. intelligence torture operation:- that this was and is a doctrine of torture followed by many Bucks County, Pennsylvania officials, law enforcement, school teachers, church administrators, attorneys, and anyone else who has been coaxed into the operation to execute my life quietly as "suicided" Japanese-Americans. And the worst part of it, for me to understand as an adult:- is that my USA father a Pennsylvania USAF veteran and nephew to an Uncle who was a gunner aboard the USA Langley with 2 silver stars from his mass murders of Japanese at Iwo Jima, Pearl Harbor, and missions in n China.

Due to the lack of care for my physical and emotional well being, and the financial abuse of my identity by my father and/or his colleagues, friends and attorneys. I consider the international legal term of his role in my life to be more applicable as a "State Actor" and agent. Rather than a father, defined by normal legal terms. And the use of the "family" property and home as a torture chamber where I was easily isolated from others.

In 2022, we know the DeepState is prolific in Pennsylvania. And so, to call it  "simple hate crimes" with broken bones, disfigured face, wrecked vehicles, experimental surgeries, embezzlement, forgery, and multiple assaults; physical, sexual, and chemical.

The contents of this blog are to reveal the ongoing torture I survive in the United States Mainland. And that I was denied my choice of nationality, freedom to speak with my mother and relatives without physical torture at home, in school, at church, and being abducted :;- ongoing since elementary school. And that the businesses I "consulted for" as an office employee and piano faculty assisted perpetrators in coordinating conditions to abduct, assault, and potentially kill me and my late brother from 08/2000-01/2009.

I assert that the torture and operations are ongoing, and with new government officials and community members who participate.



Sunday, February 27, 2022

sat up thinking

This pandemic, shutdown time, has been an eye opener. I've seen so many people in better "diversiry and inclusion" environments- like Hawaii and California- excel to make millions this pandemic. The crypto market gave me hope, as I had another uncomfortable year in Pennsylvania. Crypto at least afforded me the space of removing myself from a physically and verbally hostile work environment. At $2.35/hr with tips, no guaranteed hours, and zero benefits, not much could not be less of a risk. Especially with a quick yet nerve-wracking study into the 2021 market fluxes.Crypto barely filled the void of making my minimum bills each month. Without PUA, EBT, or State health insurance because I moved from Hawaii at the worst time.

I was better off at the club where I had been rehired in 2019. After being appointed bar manager for early shift to a karaoke bar that was up for sale. A club in an area that was frequented by thefts every night of the week. Nothing was safe, no atm or purse. Workers who were robbed with their cash earnings had become a daily event. Along with shoplifters hauling carts of stolen goods out of the local Walmart on a regular basis.

This year, is a different story. this year, I'm faced with the reality of my elderly parents who were never my friends. The people who used me as slave labor for the duration of my childhood;- I spent 4hrs a weekend mowing the lawn on a small riding mower from the time I learned to drive one at age 4.
Cleaning the entire house, windows, polishing furniture, was another 3+ hours, plus pulling weeds (invasive plants) from a large daylily garden and the vegetable garden every weekend. Without an allowance, but armed with lunch tokens, I didn't know how other kids got money for extra stuff at school. I didn't have brand name clothes, ever. And, I was humiliated because my mom, who was a Japanese designer:- made my sweatshirts,.school dresses, Aloha wear that was unpopular, overalls, stuffed animals, doll clothes, and piano competition dresses.
I had Hello Kitty by 1979, and noone knew what it was...so I was berated through H.S. graduation for packing homemade inarazuahi and nori rolls for lunches. I was a loner, yet managed to have a few friends who never stood up for me, but who included me on their weekend trips to the Jersey Shore or wanted to take me along skiing with their church.

There were very few breaks in the dismal northeast sky. But I got through, and was inwardly happier then most kids know to have had those experiences.
Revisiting all that I was put through, everyone called me an "ungrateful ethnic". Especially my parents. The same parents who pay good white folk to do the same chores I and my brother did for free.

But my mom, after her debilitating surgeries- she stopped distinguishing between us as children under 10yrs old and her friends kids who were entering adulthood. She became unable to see reality. That I was a kid, and made demands of me equal to the 20something college students taking piano lessons with our world class instructors. And the pressure, hasn't stopped. 

As a non-vocalist (it's not my primary thing) doing lip trills like any body does in modern day America;- my mom can't understand the difference between common practice and "superstars". Her brain, after severe spinal surgery, pushes her personality into hyper violent mode. The derogatory comments spill out relentlessly. Accusing me of thinking I'm a superstar and being stupid for doing lip trills. 

To make things worse, she then spills over and does the same thing with my piano playing- something I excelled at as a kid largely self taught despite the presence of world class instructors. What I see, is a psychotic disabled immigrant parent who has a delusional alcoholic and violent husband. And it's heartbreaking to have had to witness the past few years. The pandemic opened my eyes to the medical and community abuse. And out here their indifference to provide any Japanese translation that my mother can understand without a dictionary at her side.

Today, I'm caught in this continued nightmare of family, 2 family members left in the USA. While I had attempted to change my nationality to Japan;- my downfall was from the USA not allowing her to register my existence in Japan-- despite my uncles and aunts willingness to help me claim my by blood Japanese nationality. So I could have a regular income, home, family or relationship I want badly.

My father's violent, inappropriate, and intrusive behavior was a deal breaker as his main focus every day around 7pm is to literally murder me-- as he reviewed his plan and berates my mother of she doesn't cooperate. Though he's threatened her life, and the cat's life as a drunk & medicated veteran USAF intelligence officer. 

The USA monitors my parents, and has for decades. The DoD has told me my parents are "batshit" crazy. Yet noone has intervened to end the psychological torture in my absence. The community is equally torturous, and they cling to their social right to be over the top anti-Japanese-American/ Anti-Asian. There's noone out here to protect us. While Asians with broader communities also help the anti-Japanese sentiment, there is also no solidarity from any government officials or employees.

Saturday, February 26, 2022

me time.

Looking back to my college days zombies out on caffeine and wading through multitasking way too much;- I finally got some me time. 

That is to say, that me time of healing and being concious (not simply woke) of the reasons I had to endure injustice. Meaning, I was woke ahead of my time in the 90's. Yet never had that time to sort out my own personal healing amidst a bunch of the wrong generation leading my life into a ditch or off a cliff. 

So finally sorting that out, it still hurts. The woke individuals who shame me for being the product of a Loving Day marriage ahead of their non Loving Day wokeness.
And how in the world this woke world is run without those of us who have experienced the Ins and outs of being persecuted for being 'different' culturally and otherwise.

I suppose that is the downfall of the bullshit that has encrusted America from falling apart. Though, I did my healing work for the past 6 years, while other activists educate the woke mob  steal my tweets as their own in online meetings. It will never end. It is discrimination repeating itself in another format until I am dead from being starved out of a livelihood while "woke white males" make their businesses and careers out of my experiences.

America needs to shove it.

Friday, February 25, 2022

about my late brother's attorney

There was already FISA 1978 abuse and physical torture beyond corporal punishment intended to kill me not only with a leather belt but escalated to repeat head blows, neck injuries, and scarring on my face  that I was victim of largely at the direction of Samuel Litzenberger's law office and Gloriana Sewell a PMTA piano teacher when I was age 5-11 or 12;- by the time I was 15. The See PA statute:

Title 18 § 509.  Use of force by persons with special responsibility for care, discipline or safety of others.

 My father did not care about me as I was a victim of childhood sexual abuse by community members. (See DOJ response 2022 re: a Quakertown , PA elementary school).

To this day, my parents, their attorneys, and friends/colleagues blame me for my brother's drug problems. In my defense socially, I was isolated to the family home, school, and church and rarely allowed to spend time with friends. My brother had soccer & skater friends, one named Eric S. there was also friends of my parents who were known cocaine dealers and or addicts. And, his issues with being dosed by his friends and classmates were ongoing well after I left the state for college. Yet my parents and their attorneys are accusing me for all of the hospitalizations he incurred in my absence.
They have built an airtight case against me while ignoring ALL of his medical records in my absence. Additionally, my parents do not understand their own negligence since their attorney and our 1st piano instructor maximized the physical abuse that I was subjected to that left me unconscious many days. I feel it  constitutes attempted murder of me, yet because of my sex, national origin, and race- as a mixed-race HAPA;- I have been denied nearly all of my human rights.

Below is a portion of the letter dated May 1990, from my Parents' attorney that names my late brother's attorney. It indicates what I knew to be embezzlement as a child, since my mother was worried back then, that my father and his colleagues might kill her before killing me. David Knight, esq was named in the letter and had become my brother's attorney. I was 15 at the time, my brother was 12. when this letter was written . 

It was well after the sale of a family property that my father missed the POA. And Bucks County Courts have approved his legal and financial abuses of my mother as well as me. Below is part of the text from a letter Samuel Lizenberger sent to my father in May 1990 after the "embezzlement" of property.
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" I received a call from Mary Ann Knight, apparently an attorney in Philadelphia who indicated that you and your wife were going to seek counseling, but that she would not be representing you in connection with any domestic difficulties. Yuko has now informed me that you have not been engaging in any counseling although she has gone for that purpose. I have read your recent note that you left at the house for her.

There are two purposes to this letter:

1. You are directed not to use the Power of Attorney that I prepared many years ago and furnish a letter to me in writing that you have not used it and that you have destroyed it, or are returning it and all copies to me:"


"In your recent note to Yuko, you referred to an attorney by the name of David Knight from Doylestown, but I could not find him in my telephone directory nor in my Bar Association Legal Directory. If he is representing you, you should refer this letter to him for communication back to me."

"Very Truly Yours,

ISL SAMUEL A. LITZENBERGER

SAMUEL A. LITZENBERGER"

Thursday, February 17, 2022

Affidavit Available

There are many affidavits out now, many cover the torture by State Actors and Community members and businesses and their attorneys who target first generation Americans.

My first Affidavit-lightly documenting some elements of torture over my lifetime is 20pages long. And I experienced severe retaliation for sending out to civil rights leaders and my Japanese relatives.
The retaliation is, in part, from some of the perpetrators listed in the affidavit who still reside in DeepState Pennsylvania and Bucks County. There is little I could do to shield myself from their attacks, hacks, cyber interference, break-ins, vehicle tampering, and encouraging my parents to assist them to dismantle my finances,  communication, and livelihood at the home.

There are additional complaints I filed about voting issues.

The damages have been and remain extensive to my psychological well being, online learning, meetings and interviews online, and applications for employment.
And include near death incidents on short trips to do essential activities in Bucks County, PA. 

I

ESL: Whore vs Hoarding

Many Americans confuse and make "bad English" jokes of iAsian-American immigrants and their adult children. One of the words that is used in their word gymnastic racist humor and taken out of context is the homonym for : whore  vs. hoarding. whore meaning a prostitute while some are known to hoard. Hoarding is a sign of mental abuse and psychological torture for some. While other things and people (loved ones) were repeatedly harmed and "suicided", objects replace the void of healthy relationships and interactions.

While there is little that can be done without eroding an immigrant hoarders human rights;- the human trafficking mindset of American men (many who are veterans) is commonplace. There is the learned behavior of men who 'being people in' to their countries so their buddies get a good laugh. Some 1st generation American children are viewed as being bred for Americans to traffick.and when they reach adulthood are thrown away to be forgotten.
That is the harsh reality of America outside of Asian-American communities. And the disrespect is intentional, as a display of American conquest.

Deep state Dining

In Pennsylvania, there are many national chain restaurants that employ people at or near the federal tipping wage at $2.35 in 2021. Not only is it below normal minimum wage and national living wage standards, but the DeepState has thrived in Pennsylvania by tipping who they want, and setting up other otherwise innocent people.

1. Force National Chains to comply with living wage and normal minimum wage standards.
2. Force states to provide medical and dental benefits to workers.
3. Give employees who are 1st generation Americans against, a way to provide feedback without penalty and violent retaliation from the company.

While many Americans don't have a care to help legal 1st generation Americans, sons and daughters of a US military veteran and a foreign national;- employers should be forced to uphold basic human rights for these individuals. Many are heavily targeted by human traffickers and others in the military as a scapegoat due to the obvious lack of US family. Others with foreign officials as grandparents and aunts and uncles are targeted by CIA RICO act violators to affect foreign trade and US foreign policy. There is no protection for individuals, like myself, far away from suitable Asian-American communities of the West Coast. The East Coast natives are not welcoming to those of us who have only immediate family members and are targets of other Asians -also due to our foreign official relatives.

And the businesses, also use their alcohol serving to implement ATF style surveillance, along with extended family members of US diplomats, to attack some first generation Americans. It's not as simple as "racism". The constructs of political legal (lawfare) to entrap a person exist 💯. And it needs to end.
It's bad enough that the US intelligence community authorizes these local officials, their friends and families to attack smaller minorities to build international incidents. 
But for it to have become a global security issue in s an outrage. 


Never Rerurn- elderly parental lawfare

This Pandemic has shown many people the downfalls of aging parents who have maintained a classic disfunctional family structure. 
And moving in with them, is not the greatest of choices, albeit the only one for many single people. Especially, being Asian-American through this pandemic.

Some positive things to do or try online while your elderly parents disrupt your income any time you speak to the outside world-- these are quiet things to do in under 2hours:
-  Secure a virtual volunteer position (as a conference assistant or writer) with an organization ie., Red Cross
-  Meditation 
-  Join an online prayer and healing group ie , Bruno Groening Circle of Friends

Like a having second childhood, these elderly parents are in denial and fail to see the reality of their toxic behaviors.The classic Alcoholic parent, community leader, and abuser at home still returns home crushing cans and sipping whiskey with their medications and abusing the enabler, feeling justified to be as irate as ever. Like a psychological torture deconstructed to layers of victim exploitation , isolation from persecution, and alcoholic family structure repeated with the new knowledge of Deep state. Not only threatening your life, but first threatening to take the life of your immigrant mother who was a married foreign national at your birth. The behavior to torture the 'enabler spouse's who is, in reality been tortured by IS State actors since before your birth and is an enduring captive to USA Deep State. If she doesn't comply with the US State actors, her own life is threatened. Yet they instigate the torture by threatening her life for non-compliance. While screaming and yelling through your Online video conferencing. That is until you decided to spare yourself the sheer humiliation of having to live with these parents.

It's not only cringy, it's downright life threatening. Much like an involuntary social suicide whether you speak about it or bear the harassment and "abuse" in silence and isolation. Early on in the pandemic, stepping into their world full time resulted in their control of the house wifi. Irate threats the call the police and elder abuse hotline anytime you attempted to go online and have "a normal" 21st century cyber life.

 Something any elderly person can do-- hit the off switch. Coupled with yelling and accusations of being inept and incompetant to support them-- all while knowing about the life insurance policy on your single life, without kids-- that will find them and their coverup of a murder they plan loudly through the lockdown with their old friend state actors. And so the decade old policy is cancelled, while they get more angry and hungry for money. Old Deep state behaviors haven't waned in their aged bodies that are now haunted by the demonic.

  And there's no rationalizing with people who still believe that "Jobs and employment" are something you go away to. And that their behaviors at the home will produce good economic results for them- even in the pandemic. 

The reality is life crushing-- a psychologically and financially a precarious nightmare ending to all social acceptance. And there is no negotiating with these elderly control freaks. Their personal stigma to fill out paperwork that gives adult children income to spend 3hrs a day cleaning up after them and their messy home from carelessness, arthritis, and accidents is just one of their financially non-cooperative behaviors. They think the state will view them as beggars, while they arre hiding away awaiting aa new episode of Hoarders.

And any attempts to talk and conduct a virtual business or job interview during lockdown and pandemic rules were thwarted by a new bout of hysterical control freaks screaming through thin walls and doors during normal business hours. All while being forgetful enough to cause concern that they may set fire to their own home amidst the clutter with forgotten stoves, fireplace, or irons being left on.

What's a genXer or millennial to do with elders who insist on destroying social credit and life? Especially in places where internet alone is expensive and tough to come by and the public attacks you for your race? What will happen to them? The state doesn't care. Especially when your own father is a part of the local deep state.

What is the escape, the self-rescue, after all finances and every last crypto coin is sold? It's 2022, and things are looking grim?

Wednesday, February 16, 2022

education & DOJ reply

In 2021, with so many different yet related torture incidents from FISA and DOD 5240.1R surveillance procedures;- I took a couple dozen old hate crimes incidents (as I consider FISA to be prima facia Persecution) and reported them to the New Asian-American Hate crimes reporting system. Here are 2 form letters reply I got back from DOJ. 
Obviously the statue of limitations is up. And there has been alot of deep state action in my life since youth-- which is why these letters may be added to an international complaint. Not that it will have any significant impact to mend and heal the torture wounds from the USA essentially holding me as a hostage.That is despite Trump trying to get Japanese abductees back from NoKo + abductees like my cousin. Enough said. Back to reality of American impunity.

music in Amerixa

Another day in reflection, and hearing the harsh words of how unsuccessful my life is from my Silent generation Japanese immigrant mother. In Bucks County, and in my childhood I was in love with the beautiful sounds of the music I heard only on recordings. Isolated from the cities in rural Pennsylvania - I also thought that music was a fun happy thing to enjoy with others. But that perception I had was clobbered with competitive stage mother's at the local level.

It was a big waste of time. No matter how well I played beyond childhood years;- the "white supremacists" of every European nation descent ridiculed me for any effort I put into participating when asked. So I thought it was asking. In truth, they were ruthless white supremacist demands that I prove myself. All while their less talented pianists gleaned melody lines of pieces that they had never heard. And to put it in their own repertoire and mock me over a solitary half note with a fermata that the instrumentalist ignored.

In California, I imagine I might have had friends and fun with music and a career on the side to support me. But not here on the East Coast where Italian-Americans threatened me for playing Broadway and American songs. Threatened my life. Seriously repugnant, minus a couple "safer" and supportive people who allowed me the grace of practicing out my anxiety due to the racist stigma from Boomers and silent Generation whites. People who did not support me in the community at all, and who ran me into poverty with their relentless miserable and toxic gab.

Today, it's a big wound that will never heal. 
They destroyed everything in my life. Literally with "community abuse". Out here music people are the most unfun people who I've ever met. And nearly always with a condescending tone in their voices. And also, who don't support me in any positive manner. I decided, they are no longer worth my time in any capacity. 
The fun I had teaching piano and sharing is compounded by the expense of lessons. An expense I had to pay with my own teaching studio as a child. Some things don't work.
Personalities clash. 

Saturday, February 12, 2022

As a Nisei

My dismay is in Americans while looking back on my life over the past 6 years-- to put it in a legal and USA Intel framework.
 As a Nisei, far away from my Japanese relatives, the Americans have been nothing great to me. As a child, there was outright bodily harm and persecution at school since 1980s. In the last months of 2021, I reported the pedophiles at my elementary school who convinced my parents I wouldn't be "American enough" to anyone if I continued to be bilingual in Japanese. 
They whisked me off to "speech therapy" where I was isolated in a room and returned to my teacher. The teacher then asked me how my vagina was and rlfeequently kept me away from recess. looking back, it was the beginning of the isolation.
And in 2021, the DOJ feels that it is not a hate crime to do such a thing. I received the letter about my report on Richland Elementary school from the 1980s. And that was not the only mdaily abuse I experienced. 
These people failedd me then, and they have no intentions of improving 
Today, nothing has improved- no work, nothing suitable for me all while their military and state actors have pushed me around for their use since I have diplomatic type relatives aka Foreign officials in Japan who are my aunt's and uncles.

This heavy burden has not lifted an ounce from my life. And it is couples with employers who are treading in the human trafficking zone of broken employment laws that I was barred from challenging due to a surplus of Anti-Kapanese-Ameeican attorneys. Essentially it is a form of the community trafficking me. That is, the predominant Bucks County community, where old military contractors and MKultra freaks join hands in the study of multiple religions to better execute their false flags as "Peace". 

I never had a chance to have a 'good liffe". And writing these pages is akin to sealing my own ⚰️ where I will suffocate.

Monday, February 07, 2022

Is the star-spangled banner a different color for 1st generation Americans?

 Is the star-spangled banner a different color for 1st generation Americans?

By Angela ‘Kikuchi’ Kneale

Feb.  2022

International familial diplomacy is no longer a ‘welcome’ freedom in the USA. The emergence of a Department of Defense surveillance manual, active since the 1980s, is only one of the horrendous tortures modern USA persecution has to offer. The lives of many 1st generation Americans who legally immigrated and for those connected – born in the USA to one US military parent – have changed drastically since 2001. For the American relatives of ‘foreign official’ families affiliated abroad in ally nations such as Japan;- the USA’s been about as friendly as ‘vegan friendly’ is in a Hawaii steakhouse.   

Or as Japanese-American friendly as an Abomb terrorist nation, the USA can be to a new generation that existed to bridge informal diplomacy. 

Yes, there have been deaths, torture, and persecution. That is to say, over the past 50 years in addition to the targeted global hate crimes rally of Asian-American persecution and Asian persecution by former U.S. President Donald Trump.  Other state actors still find reasons to use the deaths against the family members as a form of blackmail and extortion –meaning the threat of unwarranted and arbitrary conviction of the family members looms overhead, while corrupt State Actors coordinate their narrative. Their slanderous accusations stand with congruency to the DoD 5240.1R manual. This Defense manual alerted and made an impact on the perception of the condoned violations of basic human rights since the 1980s. 


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One US Parent and One foreign national at the time of birth

Only a cutting-edge international legal challenge remains for some of us born in the USA to only 1 USA national parent at the time of our birth– to challenge the USA military’s involvement in a new-old form of human trafficking of foreign nationals and children through marriage and childbirth. And to purposely force many into the USA sex industry (albeit domestically legal with a huge slippery slope). It’s not only a form of entrapment, but a form of hostage-taking, and for some torture. A place where minority women from highly respected international families have been paraded at the typical USA meat markets, naked for the world to see America’s dominance.  A place where state-sanctioned rape is protected by impunity, corporate and state-funded birth control and abortions. Where ethnic minority women are told by  “Don’t be a statistic” as a threat to lowering our already low quality of living for non-compliance with the USA social methodology for ethnic subservience.

 A place where police and most Americans turn the blind eye so the other eye can get a better view of the torture and persecution. It’s a place where the Military man and his attorney have used the legal system to feign superiority by committing embezzlement and forced technical trafficking of their spouse and children. The America that changes swiftly based on mainstream media (MSM) alerting its public agents to attack minority groups to affect foreign policy – RICO ACT racketeering violations in plain view. And a place where men on public buses have talked about taking away a woman’s bed given as a gift after frequenting her multiple times. Capitalism became a form of politically tearing people and persecuting them in the United States. And it’s a silent battle that pushes souls to total destruction. 

Community abuse exists in small USA heritage towns like in Bucks County, PA seated near the Delaware River. It’s a place where the average American plays their fantasy of 


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Japanese conquest by repeatedly attacking a Loving Day family and picking off the children over decades so that there is no next generation. There is barely a fine shroud between white supremacy and patriots. And other minorities gain a foothold by participating in persecuting and torturing descendants of USA’s only domestic adversary, Japanese-Americans. 



 It’s the dark side of the Patriot Act and the flip side to early FISA implementation in a world where the International Court of Justice doesn’t accept cases prior to1999 at its inception. And, a world where no one has heralded a tribunal to address the USA’s persecution of people and spread of racism and discrimination to leverage wars and defense sales.–  Being born to a foreign national who married a US military person;- it is why the ‘gray area’ or being technically stateless despite being barely ‘functional’ USA citizens exists. 

To tackle FISA surveillance and cyber-attacks issues with expertise, single-handedly as an ordinary citizen is an enormous task. Most US domestic family lawyers ignore all 

foreign or international laws in relation to US civil rights as common practice. Transnational normalization of human rights-related law is scant and insufficient for 

many individuals to find support within the United States. Tackling the international legal realm of cyber-attacks through satellite (space-based) and modern signals intelligence (SigInt) methods is nearly impossible to find for domestic issues.   

The pandemic shut many civilians out of business and safe employment that accommodates international business requirements and expectations. 

The Small Business Administration (SBA) employees have had their own agenda by refusing, stalking, and targeting Asian-American minorities to affect the supply chain with other locals. Their behavior is similar to how some Human Services benefits for 1st generation Americans and immigrants were denied, or lost by persecutory state actors 

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in Pennsylvania since at least the 1970s. It’s a type of malfeasance that is intended to force new citizens into FISA monitoring and/or participation as unregistered foreign agents.

 

These typical patriots engage in widespread “not American enough” persecution amidst handing ICE paperwork to American-born jus soli and jus sanguinis Americans who had one military parent and one foreign parent. Recently, in late 2021 after contacting my senator’s office;- his office staff who decided not to understand what I said urged me to fill out an  N-600 form – a form for non-Americans who are not born in the USA to get citizenship– This is how icy cold local and state governments are today. They basically shout, “Don’t contact us, we’ll mess up your paperwork and your life” to those of us who would otherwise have opportunities to create peaceable international commerce from the USA.


While writing to the United Nations is “a last resort”, there are few if any remedies to correct and end the impunity and malfeasance by state actors. These state actors only need to drop an email to a state office or notary tag to delete our plates out of malice and get us killed at a traffic stop.


Why? One possibility is to sell our identities to private military contractors, traffickers, or others seeking a smooth entry to the USA and exit to our foreign nation. The money they are paid makes their private operations lucrative to anyone willing to take the job.


Many first-generation Americans are heavily targeted due to the FISA surveillance abuse. And, the types of FISA abuse vary in magnitude from text surveillance bots to full-on gang stalking and ambient backscatter communications inundating the auditory spectrum. There are Americans who adversely impact civil rights because they are 

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against the new generation of American immigrants and their children. There is no end to the misuse of patented cyber methodologies to harass the targets during political shifts in USA’s foreign policy and trade. Consider this patent for example that has a possible direct link to Bill Clinton’s supporters: 


Patent No. 0272906A1-  Intelligent Technologies International, Inc.- "Vehicle Monitoring Using Cellular Phones" -  Oct. 30, 2007, November 06, 2008. 

  "[0043]    The cellular phone system, ubiquitous internet, or other telematics communication device, is shown schematically in FIG. 2 of the parent '363 application and outputs to an antenna. The phone system or telematics communication device (34) can be coupled to the vehicle interior monitoring system in accordance with any of the embodiments disclosed herein and serves to establish a communications channel with one or more remote assistance facilities, such as an EMS facility or dispatch facility from which emergency response personnel are dispatched. The telematics system can also be a satellite-based system such as provided by Skybitz."

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This crescendos to actual developments in modern hostage-taking in a world where the coined term “Electronic Concentration Camp” has become a widely accepted concept – amidst a variety of human trafficking and electronic warfare attacks that afflict the public suspect to be carried out by outsourced companies or private military contractors.


 "American Jurisprudence Aliens & Citizens;- Section 2687    Hostage taking - whoever whether inside or outside the United States, seizes or detains and threatens to kill, to injure, or to continue to detain another person in order to compel a third person or a governmental organization to do or abstain from doing any act as an explicit or implicit condition for the release of the person detained, or attempts or conspires to do so, will be punished by imprisonment for any term of years or for life and, if the death of any person results, will be punished by death or life imprisonment...." page 569.

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Hostage-taking like this only gains federal prosecution when done to a foreign national or alien. Yet again, impunity and malfeasance stand in the way. What is commonly known as “The targeted individuals' program” acknowledges the foreign surveillance attribute through the Patriot Act 2001 pertaining to all 1st generation Americans. Some Japanese attorneys interpreted the law to insinuate a form of statelessness for Japanese-Americans born to only one parent who was a foreign national of Japan, in an early review of the Patriot Act of 2001.  It is a tactic used by US State Actors to coerce US extended family members of foreign officials–  brother and sister in-laws, grandchildren, nieces & nephews.


The United States on every level of its democratic government has demonstrated complete impunity, malfeasance, intentional destruction of security agreements and international treaties,  and denial of rule of law for many of its first-generation Americans over half a century. And the stories extend well before the Silent Generation.


 This impunity and malfeasance is practically synonymous with European terrorist cells and trickled down to the nuevo rich and their progressive political influencers. Intertwining functional impunity with foreign intelligence legal contortions that sides largely with white supremacy and or unite minorities who adopt Anti-Asian stances as a form of patriotism.


It’s easy for any of these typical Americans to destroy or install USA attorneys and manipulate USA laws. Their discriminatory actions and blatant persecution protected state actors who commit crimes of humanities. Sometimes, in some small communities where brotherhoods and cults seek to set precedents through their conspiracies– it is coupled with rather fast if not early enforcement of laws that officially, have not been signed into law. Whereas the court date for the enforcement of such anticipated laws will be effective.  The exact targeted actions, scenarios, are made in anticipation of 



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those court dates. And, the DoD manual 5240.1 of 1982 was all the justification many of them needed after the RICO Act was passed. 


Cyber and electronic surveillance Laws– USCA 50 are also tied to Patriot Act, Freedom Act, FISA 1978 and FISA in its revisions among other acts and laws such as:


* USCA 50 Section 1805 5g: Chapter 36 War and national Defense  (g) Testing of electronic equipment; discovering unauthorized electronic surveillance; training of intelligence personnel  

* USCA 50 1811. Authorization during time of war. 

* USCA 50 1812. Statement of exclusive means by which electronic surveillance and interception of certain communication may be conducted.  

* USCA 50 1813. Procedures for the retention of incidentally acquired communications. 

* USCA 50 1822 Authorization of physical searches for foreign intelligence purposes 

* Executive Order No.12949 February 9th, 1995, to October 7, 2009 Research summary 

* American Jurisprudence Aliens & Citizens;- Section 2687 



To be continued: 







This is not legal advice. .

angela@tipublicinterest.com