Greatest sin & overman path

Synthesis of overman & humility
About the path of the ubermensch or overman Excerpt written By Angela M. Kneale

All rights reserved July 1993 

"____________________"

What is left to live for?
Come down from the heavens and look beneath you.

"Once the sin against God was the greatest sin; but God died... to sin against the Earth is now the most dreadful thing." - Frederick Nietzsche

If the life on Earth were to die, we sin against the Earth and ourselves. We will become selfish beings without either a home or Mother Earth. We will have destroyed the things dearest us, admitted, or not. To find another Mother Earth will not be the same, and we will venture to destroy her through hatred of our initial Mother (Earth) abandoning our souls. To become a race of overmans would be favorable for self, Mother (Earth), and siblings. 

Granted to become and over man is a treacherous path strung high above the wide path of the many. However, once one has begun to take the path of the overman, the path of the many will be harder to take. There are many places to step on a path so wide as the path of the many is. The path of the many is taken to try to find the path of the overman. It is a path of pure experience and takes much from the Earth. The overman, in starting on the narrow path will be hesitant at first but with each step grow more reluctant to recede, and shall take each step with growing joy as the path is so clear, and without doubt.

Love around the moon

Bright red heart drawn in blood
Love around the moon

Equinox dark teara

I thought it was bad enough the past decade on Oahu. That is, going for a vacation after the adrenaline of being supportive of my folks after my brother died, then running into the ground. I got stuck on Oahu. Then SHF. I was prodded to go to an international summit despite being in horrendous shape. & While Dating the elite combat artist trainer.
I financially couldn't make it back to mainland for several family funerals.
Now, 10yrs later I'm back and on equinox got a call my 1st crush died tragically.  It doesn't feel better that I've been back not even a year and haven't reconnected with those who i spent family holidays with.

Yesterday I tweeted a big psychic attack; type thing. So tonight's phone call explains what was sheer pain yesterday.

In tears. They place is tearing up my soul.

Supermoon

Moonlight makes her water. Tonight I finished filling bottle to set down at 20:08 or 8:08PM moonrise in the east.
A short meditation brought bright orbs and dark shadows. Giving thanks and asking for healing & interconnectedness with mother Earth and all of the spirits.

Looki g for work

I'm going on 6 mos. Here in Bucks County. I don't feel safe here.
I am asking, For prayers for me to return to Hawaii with employment. I planned really only to be here till January so I could still find hospitality employment & do usual odds and ends jobs.
However, I am now basically stranded in the middle of nowhere & many extreme hate crimes, propogate by Mostly cacucasians, seem to be hitting  the media from this County.

Prayers...

Prep talk tonight
Hypervelocity star
Pythagorean Angle
Hounds of Anubis
Pythagorean Curve
Saves the world
Druids, Stonehenge
Healing Bluestone
Quantum body
My Oob & NDE; tankas, monastery, grey, perception shift from Oob at 10/26/1996, Ray elliptical light w/ scatter, expanded perspective,

Orbs, channeling spirit, energy,archangels, demonic substitute for God's angels,
More

March 21 Full fertility Moon solstice

Getting ready for the fertility full worm super moon in 2more nights.

Clean Glass bottles
Do both pyramid & merkaba meditations
Add swirl of light
Okiyome bad places in life even if it's a mental walkthrough

Intermittent fasting (21hrs today) & every day going into 🌒 moon

Cleansing & letting go of all that doesn't flow.

Big awakening & sky portal duty

Draw a line- i'm almost dead

Reframing what Bucks County is;-

A White supremacist hotbed for domestic terroristic actions.

Predominantly Diverse European Caucasians who are inbred in thought and never left the area.

Conversationally inept and not held accountable for criminal actions against foreign nationals & their families.  They choose this cover up method to prompt national incidents. Questionable actions their community Gangstalking teams execute have gone unnoticed largely due to the numerous municipalities that are crossed while driving 313rte. They are aware of this and boast it. So they have cooperation as well as insignificant crime while continuously stalking an individual such as myself. Local law enforcement has not consider point a to point b stalking, rather they go by municipality irregardless of tresspassers and harassment t or assault once I have arrived at home.
In my brother's case his attorney & also car salepersons were able to secure a significant amount of his money in this way - including running him off the road. Obviously this became one of the largest financial damages prior to his unnatural death. And, also the reason why I was not funded for any USA based Export-Import business discussed from my childhood. Aside from the loss of my 3rd person intermediary, my brother;- Japan's perception was that his attorney was behaving in a manner much like Yakuza crime gangs in Japan. Isolation and resource exploitation of an individual and their family.

Thus the new saying
"(Mainstream Caucasian) Americans are worse than Yakuza."

Bucks County White terrorists

In my days as a mixed race piano faculty here in Doylestown, PA I was pummeled with racist comments, emotional & sexual harassment on a daily basis.
Many of the domestic parents spoke to me in a very rude way. There was a very small percentage of parents and families who didn't cause me to plummet into a depression. That is aside from snide & white supremacists who hired me and also directed men to harass me. I had not shared my personal life with them to stay professional. Yet they constantly attacked me for being unmarried and not forcibly impregnated by a male of their community. I had had a very long relationship from college that I kept away from them due to very political reasons.
In any case, I had gone to the brink of being suicidal from their brutal racism & sexual harassment. When I went to secure an attorney they a declined due to my race and national background. Some said I deserved to be "sexed up." As a pathetic ethnic my father threw to the comnunity to be used. Neither of my parents were instructed by attorneys to do commonplace checkup calls on my well being daily or even weekly, despite my residing with them for 1.5yrs full-time until i was able to spend part of my week with my partner & friends in NY State.
So aside from employment laws that were broken by the conservatory; I was unable to get any moral support within the Bucks County organization. Instead I  found help through an expensive Life coach & musical/play/film director. The life coach simply coached me through professionally ending my relationship with the "conservatory".

It was a very depressing experience I received from many of the parents who don't think non-whites are an appropriate role model for their children. And, it was just a barrage of insults directed at me mostly rooted in Bucks County area racism. Even the few African-Americans whom I met with at open houses blatantly said things of a similar nature.
So my question is to the Bucks County Community;- who then is an appropriate role model for the Mixed Race children?

I myself was belittled and beaten up by school mates and teachers in school K-12 due to being the only non-white and mixed race child for several years of my public school experience. It was condoned by my teachers too for "brownie points" by the other kids.

I personally don't find this attitude appropriate here in Bucks County. it is a tradition they have taught all kids on school trips in the past;- James Michner's Japanese wife wrote diaries of her abuse & first experiences of USA racist abuse & harassments. Or Pearl S. Buck's adopted daughter who left behind a small legacy documenting sexual & racial emotional & physical abuse.

I have lost both my brother & Sister in this God forsaken hell they can Bucks County. And,after 6 mos. Of returning to the area have already been barraged with the emotionally abusive & racist & immigrant directed verbal abuse weekly and in some cases daily.

There is no decent legal representation at any price & my past experiences have incurred police threats when I attempt to represent myself. They refuse police reports I have made (if they didn't throw them away giving me a fake report number). And have refused to take complete reports for serious crimes including times I was abducted, assaulted, & stalked.

So how am I supposed to say I think these people are even competent to raise ANY child when these behaviors are what they choose to propogate?

Bucks County today is not much different. Their sketchy county services also maintain that potentially false power of attorney are 100% reason for them to abuse minority women particularly. It sounds more like entrapment to me. They do tend to place blame on any minority 100% for incidents caused by their locally known domestic white supremacists & terrorists.

I read the news in late 2018-early 2019. Still to my dismay;- Bucks County is plagued with racism & hate crimes directed at non-caucasian. Including school children lobbying to bring awareness of 2018's racism & hate crimes in public schools. That is over 40years of hate crimes and discrimination festered in Bucks County's Public Schools.
Additionally, end of January 2019;- Quakertown Community School District is accepting Martin Luther King as a viable Holiday!  That is the High School where I endured more abuse and social outcast isolation by many of the teachers from 1988-1992. Now tell me how they are appropriate role models?

My brother & I were the only Hapa Asian kids in the school district. My brother had Human rights organizations involved in his Ivy League demise by the Quakertown High School President 1993/94. I was pummeled by white supremacists trying to lure me to fights to be beaten to death at the mall & movie theater and several area churches. And NOT MUCH ChANGED.

I am disappointed by this communtity and it's recruitment of outsiders to use in their hate crimes.
Someone needs to step in and force them to be more socially adept than wretched. Others accept White bucks County citiEns into their diverse communities. Yet there is no reciprocation, Even for a mixed race mixed nationality family like ours (3rd Generation).

They have done numerous terroristic acts against me and my family, especially financially and property damage. They don't want and never want a Peaceable future.

I only made it

Quick summary- Bucks County terrorists

Life here in Bucks County is awful for me. Every interaction is tiptoeing around whoever these white people are. I

The levels of emotional abuse & threats subtle,social, backstabbing & overt have historically been covered up by local & state police.

White supremacists are gangstalkers moreso than any other type of perpetrator aside from invasive Electronic Warfare from other nations.

They targeted me in K-12 ;- and include racism by Italians and other so called non-white yet European ethnics.
They hire an ethnic or token person for fear of retaliation & verification of the token person. Sometimes they hire more than one which serves as their "progressive & compliance" cover. It does not mean they actually don't continue to overtly attack other non-white minorities. Additionally they don't define the divide between international USA citizens when they attack families. They simply attack every family to create international incidents in multiple nations. This is what I have endured and witnessed in Bucks County from Doylestown to Quakertown & New Hope as well as Mexhanicsville & Buckingham TWP. In Pennsylvania.

Also the organizational figureheads switch position within the community in order to still enable serious felony crimes against non-white minorities. It is difficult to sort out due to the non-inclusion. And also life threatening when they do include minorities.

I have seen the interactions through my life as well as understanding the legal bulldozing their agencies & police propogate in order to effectively traffick, abduct, or assault women like myself.
Though not always sexual trafficking, they may also be trafficking and doing clandestine ops of their own coordination. This was aside from Ritual Abuse interconnected to demonic witchcraft by some Masonic & Illuminati in the community. However, many who work within Government & human services did express their links to IRA or CIA or MI5/6 individuals in the past.

IRA Memory on St Patrick's day

I just can't keep trusting anyone, where my y life is an affidavit full of hate crimes & CIA/IRA suspect & MK ops against me &/or my Japanese family. Even if Peter Arthurs  was being a nice dude stopping by my place one summer I was at Cornell brushing up on my Japanese. He sat in my living room and talked story about his life and Arthur C. Clarke He wrote a book on Brendan Behan.
Carl Sagan lived at  the top of the street and he lived halfway in between. Those were strange days.

Pintos

Cooking 1/2 of the dry .75lb of pintos soaked overnight.

With 1liter Water
1 blacktea bag for 3min.
1/8cup dried rosemary
1tsp salt

Cooking for 45min on low after bringing to a boil. Or Till soft

My Reflections of USA mainland

Hi all. I'm having a very difficult time.
I am asking  for prayers so that I can find a safety here in Pennsylvania & USA far from the friendly faces I miss in Hawaii Pacific region.

As you know, my brother was found shot dead on the property here. I have alot of trauma from people here. He was found with his head literally blown apart. I also had to watch his body burn at the crematorium my mom's request with her for what she calls custom.

Things are more difficult with my parents than when I grew up here.
I documented his fake friends who also were inappropriate backstabbing white supremacists.
This has cost our family alot, even if my parents are ok with it since they don't have to worry about him anymore.

I am a Japanese mixed race  human being who is his sister. I do not agree with the nonchalant attitudes of my parents and the communities & people who violently pushed him to his final resting place at age 27 & 2mos.

Additionally, my sister was killed in 1970, prior to my birth. I filed a basic police report regarding what my mother told me when I was still a toddler. The story of her death was my mother's lesson to me of how awful the people in this Pennsylvania community are.

In my late teens, I became an activist due to the continued hate crimes  & racial discrimination against my life throughout k-12 in the Bucks County & at college in upstate NY & surrounding communities. It included my teachers, pastor(s), schoolmates, and people who should have been there to protect me.

It was an international incident.
Regardless of any USA law enforcement covering it up as a simple suicide.

Today I am in my 40's and I was asked to try to fill a role that needed both of us to participate In starting a legal export-import related & USA based, international family related business. Obviously things have taken a turn for the worse with the entire USA on the international stage.
These plans did not include either of my parents. This was to give us & our future kids a way to survive better than how racism dictated by mainstream USA. Instead, I am left without anyone or anyone understanding what they did and how damaging they were.

Due to several factors we were supposed to be protected without special favors from USA. However that turned into my being trafficked & used for clandestine ops against Japan by several people who are very powerful or wealthy in USA related to infrastructure & export-import or security. My own father potentially being the biggest backstabber in my life by manipulating us directly as children through what is known as MKUltra or MKstargate.

I have taken the past 2-3 years to sort through the abuse & damages to my life in total from all of this.
The odds may be stacked against me, however I pray to God that sharing my story helps to save other's lives.

I hope to have an international affidavit completed in the next month or so.

It has been at extreme expense to my personal professional & financial life to do this. If you can help support me through this, please do.
I am also seeking work that still enables me to complete this massive project.

Thanks & Arigato.
Namaste, Mahalos, obligado

Bucks county guided meditation

I'm Starting early on the outdoors meditation ;- happy to also join you and guide you & your group to natural sites in and around the area. for a daily fee.

Meditation tomorrow at Ringing Rocks.
weather depending Bring a yoga mat & hammer in this floody & muddy weather.
Hammer to play the rocks.
http://www.buckscounty.org/government/ParksandRecreation/Parks/RingingRocks

Million Dollar Bill

My Story not for affidavit.

My father was held responsible for the party favor Million Dollar Bill with the Statue of liberty being printed.
At that time, our whole family came under scrutiny & surveillance as it created an international incident in the Middle East.
I was not aware until after everything occurred.
However, I suspect it was the catalyst for the NY Underground related handler who came into my life in 1996.
Some thought I would have married otherwise, however he was opped with a Russian woman at Cornell University while I was away for most of the year 1996. 1996 a Crux in my life

Spider season. & Old farmhouse

Anyone know when spiders hatch?
Had several of these guys when I got here. This one died by my  frankincense resin (which is higher vibrational frequency) in coconut oil (barely a spoonful i had in a bowl) a low toxin

Programmable Life forms?
I gave light to one with intention & they went up to location atop a dresser with Bruno picture where i gave them a little water. Spider didn't run away and allowed me to serve a small bit of water. So it seems if I direct light with intention they obey a little. 

Non-toxic yet Dusty remedy to hard shelled insects & arachnid;

In Hawaii I scattered Diatemacious Earth & left the apartment for a month upon finding a pinky nail sized brown fiddle head spider. Baby brown recluses after heavy rain in my 2nd floor apartment.

Vengeful arachnids & others I'll willed  programmable intentions;-

I'm a bit worried. Tons of webs we're left in the basement when I arrived. These weren't the daddy longlegs I played with in childhood. The bigger adults wolf spiders stalked me out too after vacuuming. I feel their eyes on me aka their psychic frequency;- & find them easily. I learned to recognize their intent in Hawaii. Some of the spiders & large tropical predatory millipedes & centipedes also send Psychic energy of attack.

Older folks not in reality;

How to explain the health hazard to my parents? They have gotten into protecting animals (as a cover for abusing me in childhood). They also and been using tons of pesticides on their own sleeping areas & not cleaning the cat's water bowl of slime from being near a we'll used winter stove. The cat, a familiar walks around crying for water when the weather is ill. Both have hand issues from surgery or carpaltunnel or Lyme disease issues. I even vacuumed webs for hours...

I vacuumed out 1/8 of the basement where there was an entire colony of webs & eggs under the stairs. The 1 brown recluse worries me due to number of egg sacs. OMG. I'm going to be sleeping in my car soon just for them NoT walking on me.

So, how to tell them how dangerous this is now that it's spring? Or just still do I do Einstillen for it...yes.

Thoughts

I have the pain &  waste of my life on my mind. In the back of my head...
Somehow, supposed to give them hope.

Hope hasn't been there for me since I was a child. Recently I've been filling out a 90some odd page international affidavit to let whoever is looking for such information know that. That is, if they understand anything about my existence & how it affects/ affected politics globally.
I did have some say in my family as my extended family in Japan paid some attention up to recently.

I've been praying alot for life here in the USA to change for the better for me. My soul & finances pounded into the ground along with everyone else's frustration of seeing me in failure mode due to the sheer cost of attacks on me & what was my family that left my 2 siblings dead.
It's hard to prove its not a farce that my family just doesn't care, or they gave up long ago.

After all, my mother moved to the USA with a man, my father who reads my writing & has had his attorneys involved in civil conspiracy against us Japanese-Americans for as long as I can remember. It wasn't just MKULTRA my mother informed me of;- but that our presence here would have been a diplomatic peace mission if he had been an Ambassador class person.

March flow rhyming

Hull of my Heart
Is safe from Storm
Weathered n' worn
My firery tears fall heavy
Into Ground
Up a tree grows of 
Skeleton folk

Never never
Allowed to cry
Now now
I know why
Life of my tears
Is death of all fear
Ur jus like a devil
Telling us lies
Teaches us ways
Not good, I survive

I found a good tune
That helped me survive
Feeling alone,
after such a big loss
Walking alone,
sacrifice is a huge cost.
Walking alone
With an empty heart
And they think it's alive.
Lot of us live,
Feeling empty inside
Saying alot
it would be better to die
Walking alone
with an empty heart
My heart it aches
And it kinda wipe out
So much I did
I wasn't about
But I did what I did
All that I had
Met a few others
Kept me smiling around.

Walked down a highway
With a mystical man
Moves all the ocean
Waves & d sand
And I turned around
See two guys n they dreads
They sat smiling by
d'grocery store across from sea
Place in my heart
Special to me

Returned to my home
After so many years
Nothing is same
Big hole bringing on tears

Weight of my sorrow
Didn't dull a bit
Suprising me like
a big birthday cake

Weight of my sorrow
Weight of my tears
Haunting me for
So many years
There's a time to be
A time to thrive
Walking in past footsteps
It ain't really alive
Gotta find a groove
Make amends
Even after loosing my closest friend
Keep living for you
It ain't really my way
Memory treads on my heart everyday
--
Poverty is a disease of belief in virtures of leaders who keep us safe.

Fueling your hatred
Ain a good vibe
Do I fear (F-E-A-R) it out
Do I flip the page
Changing my vibe
Speak of different ways
I got my own way of thinking
How our world should be
I stand with others
In a real (MK online) city
Our game is real simple
Didn't you know
They making it tough
For everyone's soul
I show you my way
Struggle every day
Fighting like crazy
Between every post
Here's what I got
Here's what I did
You know I got skills
To get through these trials
Imagine doing this
As a mother & child

Garden of Eden thought

Did anyone ever wonder?
Did Adam or Eve?
How the sex would be(have been)
Without biting into the apple?

February 2019

Some words I wrote...been silent for a long time poetry & Earth.

Caress your neck & shoulders
Cool, air & free.
Rock me to my slumber
Surfin on the Sea
Starlight from heaven
Fills my heart with dreams
Moon glows a Halo (of ho-oly)
Sun bring a rainbow
Through dark clouds, it casts
All impassioned...
These experiences last

Watching moons & rainbows
On our balcony
Lifetimes in motion
Meetup hardly
New Year's mentions
Of us hardly

Didnt you know
when my tears are dark
A comet crashes into Sea
We all affect this planet
You're important to me
I jus wanted to say

A comet crashes into Sea
From the world above
A comet crashes into Sea
Didn't you know
You're important to me
When my tears fall heavy
A comet crashes into Sea
We all affect this planet
You're important to me.

Gotta teach young souls
What saves Earth is fun
All my dark tears,
Lost days and years
My heart,
figured I should start
Caring about this world
Burned like a comet

Didn't you know
when my tears are dark
A comet crashes into Sea
We all affect this planet
You're important to me
I jus wanted to say...
My heart burns like a comet
Watching moons & rainbows
On our balcony
Lifetimes in motion
Meetup hardly
-

Looking for a reason
To keep hanging on
Any little reason
To laugh and smile
Just that one thought
Got, got me through
A very tough time
Whenever I hurt
I think of you

Saw those bad times through
And I hope, some love was there.
I never knew.
Kept guessing
about you
If your intentions were
Good -- somehow you saw me through

I walked in your room
In A dream of mine
Just to check and see
If you were fine.
Wanted to say
I loved to live
Took a chance
That things, me and you
Would work out positive too.
-
Ty Spiiren my Day

I love you baby
When you do it right
Right vibe, right way
You know... right vibe
When I do it,
I do it right
When you do it, right
Yea eh eh eaah

When we stay
By beach or bay
Soothing sound
Make sky & waves
Sacred place - don't take it away
By ocean waves

Magic, freedom
Heart vibration, sails
Under sunlight
Till the sunset
Even moonlight
Make love
All all all night
I love you
Making it too
Right vibrations
Hold my hand
Walkin the beach
Watching waves
Pounding reef
Breathin, breathe in.

Wake in the dawn
And do it all
Just one mo-o-ore

Magic, freedom
Under sun light
Till the sunset
Even moonlight
Make love
all all all night
I live you
Making it too
Right vibe

Hold my hand
Walkin the beach
Watching waves
Pounding reef
Breathin, breathe in.

-
Didn't I trust you with anything
My heart, I counted
Didn't know I needed to explain.
Taken for granted
Not a fair trade
Everyday livin
why you got to add strain?
Simple is life,
in a certain way
Wakeup, coffee, smoothies
Smiling every day
[Yeah I got my work
Bills expect to pay]

When we are together
I found a certain groove
Breathin together
Makin my mantra, Everyday with you.
--

In a land far away
My friends in ohanalei
So good so free
So many same as me
Growing up so far away
Didn't know life could be that way
Lost my brother in a violent way
We could always relate
Lie the same way
Same goal
No matter how far away
Even if a year passed
Know our way
Till life's end,
make it last

Wish I could stay
Without hate
So much hate
Nothing feeds my soul
So much bird song
Lightens heavy mood
Sun it shines
Palms they sway
Turtles they see
Me...on beach I pray
Take yoga class
Sunrises, I
Dinner is served
I prep a little more
Go out to work
Till near next days dawn
Socialize and revolutionize
My thought my word
--
Heilstrom came into my life
My insides, soul, all torn apart
Everyday a little part, heals a little bit
Heilstrom stitch and light, it grows
Mends a piece ravaged by dark evil ways that my heart does not want to stay.
Fixing my heart like God only knows
Heilstrom is a stitch of light from God. The thread, the chord eminates his Love. Golden glow fixes my eternal grid.

--
It changes course

Souls are born
Know who they want to be
Devil's actions
Change your course
Trust me
Planet made divine
With Sin's finery
Mark of error
Changes our course
Not that we perish
Immediately
Changes course from
divine
robs mind.
Changes course.

For matter, for care
Divine path
Trust God is there.

My heart, its empty

||:  I need love for all the time Earth turns...& Then some  :||

On a happier note

In winters weather mix,
Birds come to eat seeds tossed on the ground. Usually they fly away when the see me approach. However, since I shovelled a couple days ago & tossed some 5am seed for them;- I added some Unhulled hemp seeds.
So today, the bigger of song birds landed by our patio door. Birds looked at me and then looked over remaining birdseed like (what is this ?) Then looked back at me.
It was an oh man, I didn't feed u.
So I got my bag of seeds and tossed a few handfuls out for them. They returned to eat the seeds. And, only a few hemp seeds were left when I returned to check.

Birdseed makers need to add hemp seeds to every mix. Birds all over the world seem to pick hempseeds as favorites.

Prespective: Diversity, Dating, Dailylife.

Diversity USA

Born As a 1st generation Japanese-American & dual national, I have been forced into USA's diversity debate.

It seems my Caucasian east coast counterparts  still hypothesising about diversity. They are still in a sea of Homogenized eurocentric family traditionalists.  Their dating habits are also largely Caucasian. They don't interact with women like me in an equal manner or consider the constraints of their biased gender & employment systems.
It's virtually inescapable, and is an "investment" decision and risk assessment to even venture on the highly unusual first date. Rather, they opt for insulated sexual harassment, abduction, and sexual assault as their primary interactions for "diversity". While mildly sitting back and interloping with collegues of minority desparity, and statistical comparisons of race based plights.

My return from diversely integrated Hawaii has shockingly contrasted this common Eastern Seaboard experience. There are virtually zero Japanese men for me to date here. They are scooped up quickly by others who target them for income viability. A prime social slave.
It's USA's pecking order of slaveship, nothing my Japanese family has ever had to endure. They know little of racism. Even my cousins who attended University in Philadelphia were quick to adopt Jibe to fit in.

I've grown weary of the Caucasian dating scene due to their sex trafficking pimp attitudes towards dating me as a rare American-Asian privvy to their racist tonalities.
The same tonalities they scorn me for spotlighting as a USA standard over 3000miles away from the crossroads of flourishing Asian-American culture.

It's lonely here. Quite possibly worse than being a severely disabled child all through life. Friendships are scare due to encroaching 'let me get at you to prove myself to the others' Caucasoid conquerer mentality.

I'm so exhausted and disheartened from this, it makes me miss being poor in other more friendly places.
However, I'm financially trapped again. 5months of violent & angry threats in the Quakertown Community. It's not the uninterested or positive people I have to worry about. I have to worry about the few haters who are active about causing harm. They have engulfed and sunk my hopes of a pleasant life on the Eastern Seaboard.

Prayers to me, I still hope for a nice life.

Black

Black lace lies like wings of flies.
Death rides my soul with reapers' grim eyes.

Today a thought- all draft as usual

Because I wanted to help, I bought a little trinket, maybe a stone or a rock, basket or indigenous frock. Then that person got more ambitious and used the money to get hardware to kill a whale or the last of some last extinct species, or one noone in globalist english had discovered. That person got into a fight on a boat, killed someone with a knife bought. A chain reaction of death took part. Eminated from the distant land & echoed out, into some ungodly War.

Then I thought again. I went without. Found the significance was something I could live without.
That species survived and balanced others who needed, good vibe. And things were pleasant. Everyone in a good way, at home not envying others who get paid.
Life moves us

Hearing issue, Hyperacusis

Do not play loud! HF warning!!! HF range vanishes/ out of range while holding key before the other tones!!!
It is a sound wave that descends, maintains drone with subtle ascending variable, carries ascending HF simultaneously. It sounds like an airplane engine (plane crashing slowly) with a monk's voice changing pitch. 3 frequencies on 1 sound, key depressed more than a few seconds till HF range vanishes & my ear hurt.

Dangerous sound, my superhearing hack (superhearing a disability under Hyperacusis) I created in soundlab in 1999 at Music College.
Uncertain if complete & I may have on reel to reel still.

HF warning!!! Can be painful or damaging to hearing!

[PATCH] sheet from 1999
COM
Hold Control on =A,B,C,D
Velo curve A=03, B=02, C=04, D=01
LFO1
Rate A=59, B=74, C=74, D=74
Delay A=REL, B=40, C=40, D=40 TONE A
TVF
Filter mode = HPF high pass
Cutoff Frequency = 99
Resonance = 45
ENV depth = 48
Cutoff KF = 35
LFO select = 02
LFO depth = +19

TVF Envelope
Time 1 = 11
Level 1= 100
Time 2 = 78
Level 2 = 0
Time 3 = 2
Sus Level = 4
Time 4= 11
Level 4 = 65

TVA
Level =52
Bias direction = Lower
Bias point = C#1 (C#-1)
Bias level = 04
LFO select = 1
LFO depth = -45

TVA ENV
Velo sens = +18
Time velo = -30
Time KF = 00

I need protection immediately

My father is not a studious man.
He is very much about his guns and ammo, a Pro NRA supporter & proud of his marksman. He enjoys the white privilege of destroying my life. And, acts appropriately on under direction of his attorney or friends, many who have egged him on to throw me on the street.
He, As a handler who beta programmed me since childhood;-
He took nude photos of me, as a toddler when he had an open printing shop his own printing business BCG.
He dropped me off at different people's homes in the middle of the night
Also he used to play with me when I was in bed and tell me he wanted me to be good at sex. All by age 9 with extreme physical abuse to the point I blacked out from both hi. & My mother handler. She did not abuse me as much until her return from the Hospital.
He used to tell me that if I ever meet the right guy I'm to tell him "im a poster child for MKULTRA and to use my initials."
My mother abused me and hid behind her surgeries. She abused me daily, taking over after my father stopped abusing me every single day. It was not normal physical abuse. She dragged me on the floor & down the stairs nearly daily. They got off on beating me and used to smile and laugh when they did so.

I personally want to file old child abuse charges on them that have been impeded due to my "race & national origin" because of my remote location as well. However, that seems hopeless due to all interest being against me;- area attorneys & locals making money from Child trafficking & drug trafficking.
My own father has joked many times about the good ol'days with his military buddies dropping bails of "dope" from the C130's, running spooks & bombing overseas villages & people outside of wartime in several different nations.

He was not an " appropriate" father figure and we had very few positive interactions with his extended family.
My mother has chosen to go along with him on even very offensive notes in order to maintain what she values as an acceptable marriage.

Today, I am very uncertain that I can remain alive with the knowledge I have of his friends & shooting buddies that bring weapons to the house in my absence.

They do not interact with me as normal reasonable people. I had hoped that their age changed them.
They have also done extensive Fina call and emotional damage to my life permanently. And, there are no apologies. Since my mother's family in Japan does not want the complications of my parents decisions;- they are excluded from this posting as an appropriate audience.

My personal documentation of this matter is over 40yrs of MKultra style abuses since before my Mother naturalized to the USA.
As I began blogging due to issues I posted at the onset of the PAtriot Act, my father and the US military or feds have "changed" the prior USA documentation of my mother's immigration & hid or destroyed an original copy of one of my proof of birth that was vital to my proving his affiliation with some Occult/Cult that took the blood sacrifice of my sister prior to my birth.

Vegan Cream aka V2 (frozen)

Vegan bartender making  custom drinks in 2003

This one is a Frozen Vegan Cream  I used to serve up in repurposed 1/2 yards and take to my neighborhood friends. my daquiri substitute.

named : V2
3count vodka
7 count Bacardi Gold
Balance with Very Vanilla Soy delicious
Add frozen strawberries
Blend

Rainbow Heaven

Long time ago...
Rainbow heaven running through my head
Went to my pen
Then vanished again.
Rhythm
Rainbow heaven...how is it found make the world ur greenest playground. r.H. How is it made?
Free creatures, trees...go unseen

turn night from black to green.

Run wild in city streets
Invoke the animal who doesn't eat meat...is quite a task

Body all crumpled up
Like Its thrown away
I watch the living
Like I'm hunting prey

I'm wearing all the things
They got them through
Figured it help me
See this battle through

And I rise up
After they passing through
Picking my target
Like I'm shopping for shoes

Meditation changed my life

30 years ago, I used to just meditate. I never thought it was a cure. Since I started, I found It is a cure when done correctly.

Meditation 1st, takes away the societal stress the ego puts on our souls.

Meditation 2nd, focus creates a flawless place away for our soul to experience freedom.

Meditation 3rd, is where our soul & body can achieve healing;- let go of sickness & complications entirely. Give them to God to amend.

I painted my heart for you
On a cardboard box
Thinking I know,
I'm not even art.

It became my whole world.
So vibrant it glows
While my life becomes cold.

Blue sky & clouds they blurred
White caps & surge.

My heart it pulsed red yellow green
Took my vibe to the ocean dream

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About My heartwish:
Just so you know, before I came I asked God if I can go in a beautiful way. I didn't come, expecting to stay. I think of finding my way
Back Home,
Every Day.
There was a beautiful spot,
admired & respected by intellectual thought.
Not to ruin the fun,
just adoration in
the last jump.

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I think of the days 
When it was about strong hearts
Our hearts that could withstand the pain
That life pours on
So we can see the wrong witness the dying of Innocents
Lost under the drone
Monotonous life making money Having an ego
& Some good food .
Today it's about fighting or holding up this big dark cloud
Before it comes crashing down
On everybody.
Some grasping at straws 
Are leaving the good 
To wreck ALL

Just for a little money

All the same as it was back then;- ALlot more damage 
To keep on going,... To keep on going 
I wonder where those strong hearts went
Or if they joined the struggle to pay the rents.
And paying the debts of our parents gen
(To the) the souls that demand a balance 
From before our grandparents. I wonder where all the strong hearts went
Demand for a truthful justice
While on the run
From the dark cloud
  Taking down the strongest ones.
So they could hurt the rest
It's gotten so bad,
my handler rents got to believing in miracles & magic.
They believed the lies
Woke up realizing there.
Ain't nothing else left.
Reality is gone.
Having power, promised a lie 
Their bodies got old so they are feeling the pain 
not quite ready to shrivel up and die. All my friends are gone Suicided for real Life's taken without fear
so their souls weren't stolen
Or contorted to be a form
they weren't warranted to be born with 
My eyes are torn.
From the sights I've seen
The horrors MK ultra's CIA created for me
My eyes they're torn
From the images of war
The cold hungry and poor
I'd rather tear the illuminati bill
And start doing things for real
More save more (lives)
Today we got more Strong hearts saving money
It more of the old norm
What happened to the strong hearts Where did they go
My eyes are torn
I cannot hear anymore
Seems the struggle went...
Many just grasping for a scent
Of someone they loved before
My heart knows that feeling....
Before my eyes, they tore
Burst forth with a flood Drowned, like thousands of one/lives In cold red blood, The sunset or Dawn
It keeps on coming...

2019 Vegan ideal & Keto Vegan lifestyle

I'm working on how to explain the vegan-keto diet I lived on for 2yrs before reintroducing normal food meals 15% of the year.
And, what breatharian meant when other suggested I'm able, the mind games for willpower to do it, etc.
It's a different world today!
If anyone needs help fasting...this was very comprehensive for reducing my footprint. And I've read enough articles about how others are Afraid to do vegan- keto.
No, this isn't a 30day master cleanse either. Or a Vitamin C & Saltwater flush routine. Nor is it Krisna's calendar of diet adjustments. NOR DID I HAVE MUCH OF ANY JUICE!

Lime roasted Turnips & sweet potatoes

Ingredients:-
4 large turnips
2-3 large yams
1 organic lime
2tbsp Avocado oil
1tsp smoked salt - I used keawe smoke flavor in Alae'a Hawaiian Salt.
1/2- 1 tsp - Mesquite spice
Water for boiling.

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I prefer organic lime & root crops yams (golden flesh) & turnips (swedes). This was "higher altitude" cooking, and I used lime peels. Also richer, carb yams/sweetpotato drenched cooking option at the end.
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Prepare turnips for mashing by slicing & boiling till soft. Add 1/2 organic lime (unpeeled & unsqueezed) to the water with 1/2 lime cut to garnish drink size. Add 1tsp Alaea salt (keawe smoked salt - or other)
Strain water into bowl when turnips are soft.
Pull lime pieces & set aside.
Reuse water & boil diced sweet potatoes 8-10 min until semi soft.
Fork Mash turnips while boiling yams. Add 1-2tbsp avocado oil. Preheat oven to 350°F to slow bake or Broil
When enough carbs are cooked off the starchy yams, turn off stovetop heat & drain & rinse (or use liquid as soupstock (if all organic).

Put yams pieces in an oiled pie tin, add slivers of lime mixed in. Squeeze 1/2 lime 1tsp lime juice into mashed turnips. Scoop the remaining lime pulp from the 1/2 lime & mix it in the diced yams. (Add 1-2 tbsp maple syrup for a glaze if desired when yams are near done or cooking for starchy carb eaters.)

Put the pie tin in the oven & bake/broil yams till lime peels are still crispy.
Pull the lime peels from the dish and scrape remaining lime pulp into the yams. Mix in 1/2 -1tsp mesquite spice.

Add the mashed turnips to a small quart sized casserole dish & top with the hollowed out lime. Remove both dishes from broiler oven when lime turns brown.

Stir in 1tsp Chipotle Tabasco to the yams. (Cholula)
Serve.

I tried to make this simple, so lower carbs go without the starch & maple syrup.
Variation:-
The 'richer flavor' variation & more starchy carbs is to simply bake the yams. After baking, slice into 1/2" pieces & then mix in boiled lime pulp, mesquite spice, add a little 1/4-1/2tsp Smoked salt, Chipotle Tabasco.
& Broil yams in a separate dish with the lime juice & avocado oil mashed turnips.

The Vegan Ideal

The VEGAN IDEAL (group)
I want to start a new group or project dedicated to the following.

Promotes:
Practices that advance a compassionate supply chain based on vegan ideological principals.
Understands the collateral damage involved to promote vegan lifestyles with respect to the suffering of creatures and humans.

What is traditional use of human hygiene, nutrition, and living standards may no longer be sustainable. This includes the shipping of foods from different locals over long distances that the average human could not travel independently within a reasonable time frame. Ie. Daily travel by foot and food sources.

No Animal tests.
No non-consensual human tests
No unsupervised by 3rd party consensual human testing or DNA testing.

Healthy Low impact lifestyles
   Low to zero toxins
   Low to zero biotoxins
   Non-toxic
   Natural

Identity disassociation from being Japanese

Back in NY. Realizing that Even the people I talk to consider saying "they" in reference to Japanese, while I'm present.
I've had to handle this behavior for alot of my life inside the United States. And, as a Japanese American Nisei, I have tried to participate and disassociate from my Japanese ethnicity, heritage, and

Realizing that I'm vegan when I order tofu outside Japanese and Asian restraunts. To them I'm not Japanese at all, I'm one of them by disassociating from being born a dual national to Japan & the United States.

And the typical jesting at me when I point it out, is their normal protocol for handling it.

Unlike Japanese-American areas, I can't just be myself. There is no dialogue for it here.

Inelegant American drinking culture about how they take advantage of women like me by serving huge amounts of alcohol and make it less socially acceptable not to participate.

Morning thoughts 2018

I'm writing my next sentence to help give my reader a hint at the perspective I'm writing with;-
I'm Nisei, 1st generation Japanese-American in 2018.

It's not just my perspective.
In the USA it is also my "race".
Corporate America calls it my "ethnicity" or more rudely that I'm an "ethnic".
My friends, many who are predominantly Caucasian & study "not culturally appropriate" arts to their background, say I'm wrong for my perspective or I think the wrong way.
Canada, is one of the only nations who have come forth to make a statement about practicing culturally appropriate arts and making money.
So, the United States still remains in the insulting range.

They say instead that Asia & Japan should adopt their way of thinking to the advantage of Globalists:- be mistreated, taken advantage of, and generally pushed aside and forgotten people of our cultural heritage(s).
To me, it still doesn't matter.
My DNA is too diverse as a Eurasian.
Japan is far removed due to the social stigma of the USA globalist culture that bludgeoned me since birth & throughout 4 decades going on five.
The economic damages I survived were tremendous.
Yet those of the last decade impacted my ability to be "successful" in the business sense due to extra enormous devastation in Japan from 2011 Tsunami & major infrastructure damage from quakes, typhoons, landslides, and flooding.

An app im thinking to develop

Requirements for the scrapbook & vacation & budget app.
Selfies with friends at an establishment/store or activity at start.
Pics of food & beverage or having service performed (ie massage, facial, )
Rate the experience #stars or shakas,
Pics of entertainment.
Pics of purchases for souvenirs.

Allow other app users to view what vacation days other tourists experienced;-
Enable the app user to:
1. pay ahead to businesses & make reservations.
2. Enter/Show their vacation budget, do comparison shopping, and dietary requirements or restrictions.
3. Track most popular goods/souvenirs for tourists & stock better.
4. Include in app translation/ pronunciation service for select languages for destination names.

Make ride share easier to use.
Tie in maps directions if possible.
Make tracking tourists easier & have expected ETA at planned destinations.
Allow local resident freelance guides & photographers to advertise easily for personal tours & to have their expenses or gifts covered by the tourists in app.

Allow shared photos to have face blurry or gif mask, possibly.

FREELANCER Life on Oahu

I have to be thankful for the Hawaiians, especially Da Hui & some kamaaina, even if I don't agree 💯. They know the water culture & the sea inhabitants best. They also are lifeguards. They set the playing field fair enough for everyone's safety.
Surfboards are dangerous in the strong currents of Oahu. What I saw & experienced at the North Shore is that the Pro & local surfers are fair. Tourists & dreamers avoiding serious mainland responsibility aren't fair. Hawaii is Asia Pacific crossroad to the "freedom" the USA offers. That's a new concept to Chinese tourists & others who don't live in democracies. However, for USA demographic that focuses on dragging Asia- Pacific minorities into financial destitute;-  Oahu, and Hawaii State needs a system for local businesses and kamaaina freelancers to get paid. Too many tourists, foreign & US Domestic residents do charge backs on their vacations, services & food, once they leave. It's created a poverty and level of crime, violence in Hawaii that State residents cannot afford. I think that's the state's responsibility. The overall attitude of those people & the large banks is that their credit card users don't need to pay, and many locals are thiefs. Hawaii State could easily set up an app & vacation log that tracks tourists' vacations & itemizes each purchase, service, meal, and activity. They should have to verify & clear every item before leaving the island. Or, the easy way out is to make tourists purchase Hawaii dollars printed money & have a debit load system to a card, making them exchange money for local Hawaii money that stores & services accept. It would help reduce crime local businesses endure and also create leftover investment for keiki or other needs of the local community. It's wouldn't be easy, however reduce the rip-off rate by those tourists which adds up to impact local business owners in a bad way.

Chrysanthemums in Asia are important symbols

For those new to Asia:
Kikuchi as kiku-chi is a beautiful Ancient Asian name that means Chrysanthemum land 菊地 or Chrysanthemum pond 菊池 . The former being less common than the latter.
There are many kanji,  Chinese Asian alphabet, where Asian writings have a different meaning. Chrysanthemums are common imperial imagery in Japan & China. Phonetically Kikuchi sounds similar, though Europeans & Americans do not pronounce things correctly. So they think we are all related, which is not the case ;-
Some are
kiku = 菊chrysanthemum
Chi =池  pond kanji
Chi = 地 land kanji
Chi in both cases have similar looking kanji. However the radical for land looks like a cross. The radical for pond is three horizontal lines instead of the vertical lines for river. Each radical is placed next to the symbol for Earth that resembles a plow.
It also designated land warriors vs. water warriors in the old imperial security houses, before modernization.

Though Kikuchi 気 口 as in Ki-kuchi
Ki= 気 spirit
Kuchi = 口mouth or opening
As one way Europeans & Americans  intend to defile the ancient Buddhist or Imperial family lineage. Many Americans defile my heritage by using saying Ki-kuchi as a request for prostitution services also USA eng. Slang "Kuchi" means or Pussy/ Vagina or suck dick.

ASIA Security in USA Domestic Counter-Terrorism

Draft 2:- 03:02 12/16/2018

Counter-terrorism security for individuals & families as Global EX-IM diplomacy without military involvement.

Trade agreements have been on fire in the USA public media from 2010-2018. However, from my Japanese-USA & EX-IM (export-import) politic perspective;- it was not about the details of deals & IP with most corporations.
The crux of the trade agreement was a Security & Counter-terrorism portion to be equipped and adept in ensuring the real lives of human beings who are relied upon in EX-IM. The agreement roughly appears it can evolve to include the use of citizen AI or avatar on multiple levels.

The USA should be obligated to provide security for it's EX-IM partners lives that:
1. are and can be clandestine targets intertwined with politics for use of trade routes.

From my understanding;- this portion of Counter-terrorism security measures wasn't solely based on guaranteeing the lives of customs brokers, shippers & forwarders. It also includes;-
1. political families & their children
2. Extended family relations involved (as many large EX-IM families in Asia are over 400 people who live through various regions any nation.)

3. And such as my own immediate family*, where EX-IM Responsibility skips a generation and transfers to a different nation.
       That the USA would be obligated to provide security to those of us whose lives are reliant upon EX-IM politics & deals between regions of any nations involved.
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*Ie., my immediate family; Despite my father's choice not to pursue any opportunity after he allegedly did extensive recon for the USA along the entire Eastern border of Asia.
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However, USA has not put an end to their domestic terrorists attacking Asian Assets. Or, agents of other nations not in the same trade Agreements taking diplomatic action as active gummy thrust o rings.

And, in cases like mine of constant and direct face to face death threats since birth in the USA. I received them from from the Bush-Cheney's Cabal thug following PA/FL, Clinton Boys/ NY Underground, and others in DOE, DOD, & US Military who choose to follow agendas rather than bi-partisan politics.

The counter-terrorism portion needs to be equal for all EX-IM parties involved and within the USA domestic boundaries. Other nations with different currency to leverage are requesting USA domestic security be actively provided by the USA as a form of global diplomacy in securing the supply chain.

However,  choose to follow agendas rather than bi-partisan politics.
So the counter-terrorism portion needs to be equal for all parties involved and within the USA domestic boundaries.

Ban hunting on Private land!

Shots don't stop at property lines. Neither do crazed recreational hunters tracking bleeding animals. Hunters keep their guns handy 365 days a year instead of having seasonal weapon rentals.

Proposed:

Ban Hunting on Privately owned land. Demand revisions to provisions of Title 34 & Title 34 Chapter 25 for Protection of Persons, Title 34 Chapter 23;- to include the following;

Those persons residing at a property not to be harassed at any time, for hunters & shooters to gain access to wildlife.

That private property must be registered with the State by the landowner to be hunted by permitted hunters other than property owner, even for agricultural damage.

State mandated safe numbers;- maximum number of hunters allowed on property (acreage) at any time.

Include a safe radius from housing & buildings from line of fire with rifles & guns & projectile weapons.

2307(b)  Hunting before and after lawful hunting hours.

Post State signs/ markers where hunters intend to hunt. Issue permits for hunters out after dusk (if within legal hunting hours with night equipment). No spotting, scoping, or harassing residents after dusk.

Ban hunting on private land in addition to keeping & maintaining: 1. PA's Sunday hunting ban. 2. the Spotting Ban

Currently, Pennsylvania State does not directly regulate property owners who allow hunting & track who hunters are permitted on their property. This is a dangerous situation for resident family members who disagree with the hunter. And its cause for some hunters to harass & attack property owners for FREE seasonal & year-round access to passing wildlife. Sometimes an adjoining property owner gives permission to hunters while one did not. And some families are also international, with multiple citizenships. International incidents are a ticking time bomb.

Pennsylvania residents and private property owners should have hunting laws that make it safe and peaceable to live and use the outdoors.  Please keep everyone safe from recreational or other hunters & shooters. Some who conspire against individuals use free for all hunting as a cover to cause law enforcement issues in hate crimes and more serious crimes.

Wildlife hunters accidentally shoot people mistaken for deer at dusk. Aside from that fact, there are 120-130+ organized white supremacist groups including their militia in Pennsylvania. There are over 40 Federally recognized Hate groups in PA. Some "hunters" scope minority families despite the current Spotting Ban. Its is difficult to see license plates in the dark, identify, and distinguish vehicles. Some hunters & shooters threaten those who have already lost family members to gun tragedy in the hunting area. The emotional damage to the family is cumulative, over a decade. Some hunters & 3rd parties target, threaten, sometimes murder minority family members of those who own Pennsylvania land. I am one of the living who they attacked over decades, since spotters targeted me as a young child. Despite the gun club down the  street, there are still Sunday shooter(s) or hunters who I don't know. The off-duty police also used to shoot early each Sunday morning, year round. They shoot in the area where my brother was found shot dead with a hunting weapon over 12 years ago. And, they harassed me intensely with targeted racism. It is saddening!

This free for all or needs to stop!

Ban hunting on private land in addition to maintaining the current Sunday hunting ban Pennsylvania and the Spotting Ban.

Please regulate hunting permissions for the safety of  all property residents & neighbors, whether landowner or not. It's everyone's liability when someone is hurt, injured, or killed. Help make information internet accessible for citizens to make police reports. Not all hunters are welcome everywhere, and it's not for police to decide against minorities at time of incident.

Please Change Title 34 to ban hunting on Private Lands! Sign this petition to put a halt to the hunting free for all!

Regulations need to happen. Human lives are at stake.

Get proactive to Add an initiative for weapon rentals for seasonal hunting in order to cut down on the year round threat of shootings & gun accidents.

Pennsylvania: Ban Hunting on Private Land!

Shots don't stop at property lines. Neither do crazed recreational hunters tracking bleeding animals. Hunters keep their guns handy 365 days a year instead of having seasonal weapon rentals.

Proposed:

Ban Hunting on Privately owned land. Demand revisions to provisions of Title 34 & Title 34 Chapter 25 for Protection of Persons, Title 34 Chapter 23;- to include the following;

Those persons residing at a property not to be harassed at any time, for hunters & shooters to gain access to wildlife.

That private property must be registered with the State by the landowner to be hunted by permitted hunters other than property owner, even for agricultural damage.

State mandated safe numbers;- maximum number of hunters allowed on property (acreage) at any time.

Include a safe radius from housing & buildings from line of fire with rifles & guns & projectile weapons.

2307(b)  Hunting before and after lawful hunting hours.

State posted signs & permits for hunters  out after dusk if within legal hunting hours & where they intend to hunt. No spotting, scoping, or harassing residents after dusk.

Ban hunting on private land in addition to keeping & maintaining:

1. the Sunday hunting ban Pennsylvania
2. the Spotting Ban

Currently, Pennsylvania State does not directly regulate property owners who allow hunting & track which hunters are permitted on their property. This is a dangerous situation for family members who disagree with hunting and cause for some hunters to harass & attack some property owners for access to wildlife. Sometimes an adjoining property owner gives permission to hunters while one did not. And, some families are also international, with USA & multiple citizenships. International incidents are a ticking time bomb.

Private property owners should have laws that make keeping their $$$$$ costly property & those who reside there safe from recreational & other hunters and shooters. Some who conspire against individuals as hunters as a disguise designed to cause enforcement issues.

Wildlife Hunters also mistake people for deer at dusk. Aside from that fact, there are over 120 organized White Supremacist groups including militia in Pennsylvania State. There are over 40 Federally recognized Hate groups in Pennsylvania. Some of the "hunters" are scoping minority families despite the spotting Ban. Its is difficult to see license plates in the dark & identify & distinguish vehicles. And some hunters & shooters threaten those who have already lost family members to gun tragedy in the hunting area. The emotional damage to the family is cumulative, over a decade. Some hunters & 3rd parties target, threaten, sometimes murder minority family members of those who own Pennsylvania land.

This free for all or needs to stop!

Ban hunting on private land in addition to maintaining the current Sunday hunting ban Pennsylvania and the Spotting Ban.

Add weapon rentals for seasonal public hunting to cut down on the year round threat of shootings & gun accidents. Regulate hunting permissions for the safety of  all property residents & neighbors, whether landowner or not. It's everyone's liability when someone is hurt, injured, or killed. And, make it internet accessible for police reports.

Not all hunters are welcome or have permission to be everywhere.

Please sign the petition to put a halt to the hunting free for all!

Regulations need to happen. Human lives are at stake.

About Wozzeck

As a young artist & music scholar,  I had a great fascination with the Second Viennese School since I was 18yrs old going into my sophomore year of Music college.
I currently am publishing a short ebook about Wozzeck on smashwords titled Aspects of Schoenberg and Berg in Wozzeck.
However I am omitting my more Occultic speculations.
One such, major, speculation is how Arnold Schoenberg was superstitious of the number thirteen. His avoidance of "acknowledging" the number itself is much like floors of a building left blank for use. Instead, he renames them and skips the idea deliberately.
It is an observation that his infamous Matrix for the twelve tone row is a 12x12 square. Much like the standard 12x13 magic square used in the enochoian magic system.
The magic square is a basis for some Occultic superstitions that Schoernberg observed religiously. Thus the concepts of inversion & retrograde can be mirrored by triangles for Earth of fire and fire of water in imagery linked to Schoernberg's self portrait painting he entitled South - North.
Akin to the triangles of the magical system with colors, an entirely different realm of magical system evolves in the tone row as he sets the code.
Though it may be entirely coincidental and from the original play of Woyzeck... I could not ignore the similarities. And if he took ideas from enochian magic coding concepts to impose in his music.
Thus the red moon symbolises Earth of fire where blood flows under the red moon shining. And fire of water where the spirit is drowned.

Though my book is a somewhat futile look through the composer's eyes for perspective on the Second Viennese School, it was well researched for the small nuggets of Berg's life he interjected into the work. It parallels more to Les Miserables a soldier's and citizens view of his surroundings. An opera for the soldier and commoner, yet written with demanding musical techniques for the vocalist and atonality or dissonance to the untrained ear.

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Racism in Pennsylvania

Racism runs rampant in Bucks County Pennsylvania.
There are very few people who can handle friendship & business relationships with minorities.
I was reflecting on my return here, and recent violent racist attacks. It hasn't stopped since before I was born.
This past weekend, I was again reminded why. I attended an interfaith church, with an aging congregation & predominantly white. The speaker, also Caucasian was telling them about the idea of not just having "a token" minority.
I suddenly understood my "place" in the community again. I was one of the token minorities, with my family, somewhat isolated from other minorities (let alone dual-nationals). And, it was followed up by persuasion into that I must need therapy from someone white in the community. They attacked my mindset & credibility IMMEDIATELY because I'm not white.

Yet, in this community;- I was shoved out of a faculty position by an artistic director who also is a choral coach of one of the most elite operatic choirs in New York.
Her words to me were;- we have one of you Asians. We don't need you.
This was 2002/03. From a Caucasian woman with a North American illuminati surname who was running an artistic conservatory that I helped rebuild.
Again, no written job recommendation. Nothing in writing.
So imagine the social interactions of the parents & remaining & new faculty at the school. For a pool of over 3,000 students & parents it is a largely affected place under the mindset of token minority racism.
A couple years later, my 26year old brother was killed in a horrific way near the end of the school year.

Recipe Sweet potatos & tarragon

I made this carb loaded dish many times as it started while building a garden for a professor. It became a favorite to compliment dinner & for breakfast potatoes to reheat. The last time I cooked it was at a billionaire's estate party for a Mish mash of NYC elites.

Sweet Potato Tarragon

Ingredients-
Ratio:
2/3 Jewel yams to 1/3 russet potatoes.

Marinade:
3-6 stems of fresh Tarragon
3-6 leaves (Pineapple) Sage preferred
1-2 Basil leaves chiffonade
Rosemary to taste.
1/4- 1/2 cup Apple wine (or apple jack)
Avocado or sunflower Oil

Mix marinade ingredients in non-plastic bowl & let sit for 1hr.

Heat oven to 450F or broil.
Mix in potatoes cubed appx 1" for even cooking. Put potatoes in 2" deep or deeper pyrex glass baking dish & pour over marinade. Potatoes will be swimming. Bake or broil for 30 min. Checking on potatoes 2-3 times & turn. At 30min pour off most of excess liquid (can use for soup stock) leaving potatoes in glass pan.
Return the glass pan with potatoes to hot oven or broiler until crispy.

This is somewhat high maintenance recipe. The potatoes should be crispy on outside & sweet & softer on inside. DO NOT use acv or apple cider or apple juice as a replacement for wine or spirits. The combination of apples & potatoes causes extreme gas, & is a technique to ripen unripe fruit. Not recommended for any cooking.

Gaea's Children

Gaea's children

scales climb silent break
waters' edge and glimmer at
heaven's feet winding preludes
of echo's plunge head deep into
waters gaze upon fractured
castles built of coral reef
colored memories fate flashed
green gray silver golden apples
fled sun's heat in shallows
to blue oceanids deep

By Angela M. Kneale
1999
GreenOndine Productions

where the Elephants weep

By Angela M. Kneale
Hypertext  Experimental poetry
1999

where the Elephants weep

Rocks once
Crushed
underfoot Man

has no Trust
rolling across
the Desert like an
armadillo might.

he Tears
trees
supple young
Limbs

Droplets of water
sliding down roughed
Trunks, Disappear

at the sight of
Small shady Trees
comfort
comes

(only a mirage)
leaves
Crumble like glass made
from desert sand

Barren trees stand alone
in stark heat and
lizards sprint between
shady Rocks.

A pear tree lullaby

By Angela M. Kneale
Surreal modern sonnet
March 1999

A pear tree lullaby

tonight I dine on sleepy porridge made
to near perfection in my altered state
by candlelight I walk to microwave
and Seer my ear with (beeper beeper) plate
in hand I look at clock to see it's three
and Dew's upon the ground so scantily
like peacocks' fans my Lashes long are Free
to wander where they please and jauntingly
my porridge tumbles to the ground and Pear
tree Whispers Whispers golden fruit surrounds
those Branches of familiar loving care
to keep this time of lucid dreams abound

like green and blue of peacocks' shiny plume
this lullaby is silently attuned.