My Giving "divine" light experience

No matter what "God's plan" is for us, I do believe we all leave our physical plane body or experience human "death". 

The Japanese based giving light cult was my most in depth spiritual "cleansing" experience this past year. I joined on 2-22-2015. Just relieved of my complicated Omitama pendant which enabled me to give light and sitting for a "receiving light" (okiyome) session  I'm sitting at D&B watching College football with some guacamole & bbq chips.

I know every time I entered, there was something more than spiritually distasteful about the place. Some of the Senior members, aside from being anti most everything I stand for by saying "God allows them to" so it's ok, didn't ever resonate well with me. Especially when it comes to the environment & my veganism. That and having over 50 something crowd breathing down my Gen X neck about contributing more money because "all money is God's".

Though I've had the omitama in the box for a while, I read a psychology article about people with severe psychosis "seeing things" and experiencing & explaining the world though a more primitive and unscientific mindset. Attempting to put a quantum value on it is, Obserd to me;- despite several members who seem to be excorcised by shaking and erratic movements during an okiyome session. It is grossly more subtle than an evangelist TV healer, however it has longer participatory times and exists as a fixture in some communities. 

Politically, financially, physically, and mentally draining and put in the hands of old wealthy Hawaiian-Japanese who are incredibly sexist and rude to all of my senses. They are rude because they dislike The East Coast experiences they have had and are used to 3rd world Hawaiian ways of living and socializing with undereducated women.

I've opted for 2 other more independent practices of similar spiritual Healing practices that are headed by actually known and acknowledged master Healers who walked the earth. This profound actual healer vs striving practitioner difference is what lead me away from OShinenushi Sama founder of Sukyomahikari. 

Plus I've had better results with extremely less time commitment than Sukyomahikari. And, with less interference to my actual human needs of employment and working on a lifelong project and such. 

The Omitama pendant used to give okiyome I was given upon completion of the primary course for $250 in Honolulu was returned today.

Paradise to a modern City scape

Most people fly, cruise, row, or sail to Hawaii in search of a peaceful and warm abode for a weekend or two in paradise.

My Morning Photo: Honolulu, Hawaii 

_______________________Like most women who get stuck here. I make enough to survive, but not enough to make up for the financial damage the men have caused due to lack of employment. I want to go back to life as usual on the mainland. That's aside from my business plans and how broke Hawaii state is -- so they try to extort my family stateside & Japan side for money so I don't get killed here. That's why they have shooters at meetings like APEC. Average people are horrible. The people they admire are worse.__________

- one woman I lived with was attacked at her job site taking inventory at the warehouse. The men cornered her and cracked her skull open. She made 70k+benefits a year. She has 3 Hawaiian children. She offered me the job. Of course I said no & remained the course of physical integrity. She left the island with her children for safety sake.

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my experience with Photography law inside a state building:- 

- I went to the Honolulu DMV on Dillingham to voluntarily surrender the taxi license I had obtained for work I tried barely a month prior. The clerk informed me she could only issue licenses. So, I went to take a photo showing an attempt at surrendering my license. She got her manager and he came to the window told me that it's illegal for me to take photo of his employee. I told him I'm representing myself in court and that I can take photos to defend myself in court. He kept telling me the legalities of my photo taking on me, implying immediate arrest if I didn't delete my photo. I asked him, "are you an attorney?" And he stayed in silence, no response. I asked him, can you tell me what laws there are that will tell me that info? He said "you can go look it up."

The manager had to tell his employee that they do accept surrendered certificates. I tried to point out to them their requirements say that I have to surrender it if I stop driving for 30days. So I need to know where to surrender the certificate of they don't accept it.

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My "duty" is OVER - it has been tremendously damaging to me

After a one month briefing and a hint that "my family" might need me to remain in Hawaii for 5 years -- No More Hawaii for me, please!!! Have mercy! 

 I received a January briefing before my February vay-k about how the Hawaiian islands are full of old Japan based gang enemies to my Most Imperial Japanese relatives and families;-

Most of The Japanese I met in Hawaii are   Pathetic critics of east coast life since they can barely stand to stay there more than a year or two at best. 

The other major issue I have with the Hawaiian born Japanese and Japanese green card residents is that they are collectively and individually pathetic & deplorably rude to me. This is not only because of my relation overseas, but they are completely insulting to my senses as I am accustomed to "dominant American cultures " of the East Coast and impacts of at least 14million other people who don't fly back and forth to Asia as frequently as Californians.

And then they fail to understand that I have some Caucasian upbringing that is a family tradition that skipped my parents generation yet was handed down to me.

My peer group in the islands is nothing suitable for Any business requirements and I have met others on their visits who give me more than tremendous awareness of their preparedness for future actual project(s).

Apple phone FuK'd me over eh-tee-tee

So. Today's task is for me to try and view a .mov video file of Independent footage that is still being "sold" in a manner of speaking. 

Problem, I only have my iPhone 5s that has been chronically hacked. Survived decimation of 2 Lifeproof Nuud cases that also had Hawaii sun & heat exposure. My several laptops have died out of extinction real. Due to balcony swan dives caused by Nuclear Engineer submariner tantrums, I'm guessing or presuppoposing M.I. Jacking of my hard drives, and TSA forcing me to surrender my carrying. All USA sinking USA effort because I'm me. How many ways can I say my own kind USA nationals absolutely Bloomington big SUX, without a friendly game of euchre and microbrews. 

I am left with generified not gentrified as word goo Apple Store wireless terabyte Formaluzed Bawlshert while having a second glawsss of  chianti to subdue my implant headache. 

Hawaii has been chrawnik-cally pein-full. 

And I am aht thee end of mawyee rue-ope. 

Hard SD vs wireless terabyte drive BS

Thing about globalization of Asia

Everyone and anyone can be a nobody in  America (the USA).

Blog topics thoughts after Netpac@25 symposiums

Analysis of the American Impact on peer censorship of cultural identity language of Asian Nations and localities 

(as an issue from domestic USA discrimination of nationality and or Race)

• How does this impact differ in specific regions of the USA. Variables to analyze include education level, industry presence, population density, political parties. Gross geographic regions traditonally separated by history such as East Coast USA's;-- New England, mid-political Washington DC area, to Southern Eastern Seaboard states including Florida.

focus especially in areas for example:-

 ~ where Asian descent is only in 1% to .1% or less of dominant culture

~ and/or where there is a high per capita of higher education institutions such as Private or state funded Universities.

~ proximity of Human Rights Commission offices (if any) and what the radius is.

• How is this American impact on the USA's West Coast different? 

•How is the American Impact in Hawaii and other USA territories different? 

•In total, Does one geographical region impact globalism with Asian countries more than another through use of language or through peer censorship?

• Is peer/social censorship of the cultural specific Asian language in USA regions representative of government enough to substantiate changing Asian film language from culturally specific to globalism language in order to open and engage a conversation with audience that has only Eurocentric view from America-vocabulary of ideologies.

Chinese Film & Professor Xie Fei

World renowned film Professor Xie Fei

participated in Netpac@25 Nov. 24, 2015 

With an hour interview by Netpac@25 participating directors and audience. followed by a showing of "A Mongolian Tale" and a Chinese Film Presentation.

Professor Xie Fei for Netpac@25 presentation

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Some days

•bombing of Israel

•build a China wall (with Trojan horse), Myanmar 

•we no longer trust any governments. There is slight chance and later greater possibility of biological warfare contained in any air strike and capsulated armorment being aleotoric in its ultimate destination;- ie plane crash. 

I barely didn't sleep.

Today I decided to attend the morning panels for Netpac@25. Hasan Elahi gave a keynote speech that was worthy of note taking. 

During coffee break I also briefly met the Man, Xie Fei;- world renowned film school director from Beijing Film 

All of it was followed up by a lengthy discussion with 2 other attendees.

HNL security should improve--

After hearing how many ISIS supporters monitored online & are living in the Highrises of Honolulu: - this does worry me....unattended baggage & simple lies

reparations included future rape payment of Japanese

The reparations payoff from the 1945 nuclear bombing by the United States of America on Japan is considered by May Americans to be justification in the Rape, assault, and further killing of Japanese citizens. This includes some of us who are forced into American citizenship due to American ignorance, personal agenda and discrimination, and abuses towards Japanese Nationality Laws. 

The United States feels that it is justified lifetime torture to those of us who have political family in Japan to influence. 

About making Films in Asian Language versus globalized English

My notebook: intro of this symposium panel

This morning I went to the Carnation room at the Ala Moana hotel and sat down to listen to the morning symposium "Chasing the Dream: Culture, Capitalism, and Cinema" presented by Netpac@25. It was followed by the panel discussion on "Co-productions and Globalization".

"When Language is Outlawed, speaking it is a political act." ~ Ella Henry, filmmaker New Zealand 

The only Panel Members I really think have the right mindset were-- New Zealand's Ella Henry, Philippine's Nick Deocampo, India's Nilesh Maniyar, China's Shayoi Sun.

"Word's are not innocent & have identity of the Colonizer. Identity is a negotiated process."~ Nick Deocampo, filmmaker Phillipeans.

They didn't give Kazakhstan Gulnara Abikeyeva's time with her more formal paper to share.

What I got out of the 2 panel sessions:- 

•Trying to overcome borders and communicate to other "cultures".

      - whether to use Cultural specific language or globalization's English language.

•The people's film claiming to do combat artistically against some globalization and corporate film mindset emanating from  Hollywood's "Wagnerianish" auture.  

•Attempting to "negotiate" the use of language in a world where only America allows some liberal idea of "freedom of speech".

•Nick Decampo was the only one who ventured to mention ASEAN and making film footage of rice.

------ I did ask 1 question about use of English and tried to briefly explain That even if conversation is put into English that it does not mean there is much context for the rest of the English speaking/ Euro-centric world. -- 

That I went to a business Dinner where there was a table full of people all who spoke English -- who needed a translator to give in depth context of seemingly simple sentences--also broken down in English, to an American Businessman. 

Still how the film world plans to cross globalization borders without similar dinner scenes to resemble & more like a cinematic Opera glance at the story from which the libretto has been derived,  is beyond me. ---------------------

^The panel chalked it up to a "negotiation" of use of language over culture. Or how to "weave" culture specific material with Global English...without getting into cinematic style.

It also made me reconsider being more specific when I use the following terms;-

•indigenous (political term, geographical presence, personal experience of foreign body)

•culture & culturally specific vs. society

• cosmopolitanism (went unmentioned) vs. globalization

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USA should take Hawaiian tribal funds

Since M-16's were prevalent with dozens of snipers at APEC 2011, and even a Hawaiian-Chinese Kahuna & Olohei was sent to the airport to interfere with my Japanese-USA business plan;- it seems that USA should make efforts to freeze and or confiscate funds of the Hawaiian tribe. The USA is using Hawaiian tribes to interfere with international Efforts to maintain a peaceable business environment and to exacerbate war interests by side-stepping head on attacks to private individuals, families, and other international interest. 

They also make zero reparations and the Hawaiian tribal community (whether carrying a U.S. Passport or not) is making advances towards War between Other Asian nations from USA territory/lands.

My Christian experiences

Every Sunday, my godparents took me to Sunday school. The Church I was baptized under was an evangelical Lutheran church in a small nearby town.

I was the older one of my brother and I. So aside from some children breaking my brother's toddler leg with a swift kick at a Unitarian church in town;- I took the brunt of the church abuse for a while.

My parents agreed to let my brother out of going to church activities in Junior high school after he begged them. It was after an incident where the pastor Craig Landis actually tried to strangle me in front of my mother and those in my confirmation class for saying the word Japan. A lot of the church abuse my brother and I withstood was directly because we are not white. 

There were several incidents daily that I was being shouted at like a prisoner undergoing brainwashing. They frequently shouted at me repeatedly, "you ethnics are going to hell" as all ethnics would under the Lutheran doctrine. 

Also at a certain point in Junior high the Sunday school instructor said I couldn't read the bible or say John 3:16 and sat me in a circle and tortured me the same time I could hear them doing something similar to my little brother (through the dividers). 

The church we attended was an above ground cover for the underground local white supremacy movement. They treated my brother and I worse than prisoners, despite knowingly baptising us. 

Years later immediately following my brother's death and that old pastor Craig Landis instructing my father to kill me & he's help him cover it up;- I was offered an opportunity. One of my clients, a Jewish pastor who made angel pins that went into Walgreens couldn't pay me in normal money. So instead of taking the equipment I was offered I asked him if he could u baptize me from the church. He said he had never done so before and came up with a ceremony to cut the cords that bound me to the abusive church. I used to come home and cry in my room after every Sunday school, plus all the kids I went to regular school with knew I was to be hated for my "race."

It was an awful place and my mother naively punished us extra because she believed that these people are the best people despite them hating her for being Japanese too. It was a horrendous ordeal for 17years. 

To be revised/continued...additiona

How Caucasian Vegans are patenting the Asian & Latin food markets

Keeping the peace and spreading the love among America's world rebound obese. As if they didn't consume enough to feed an African village, the Skinnier breed of Caucasian American, the European mixed white american has been patenting what they call "ethnic" foods. Is this a Fair and equal food market full of diversity? It seems highly unlikely since I rarely see an Indian curry made by anyone actually Indian. Most east coast Japanese restaurants & sushi bars are Korean owned. Then try to explain to a white vegan how rude they are telling me that animals should have more rights than minority "ethnics" because we are from countries that kill small animals like dogs. Though they don't see their own Agricultural meat industry as a "race or nationality issue." 

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American vegans are more two-faced than anyone I have yet met. Plus they feel more justified to steal from other vegans especially yours truly because they are so white they don't think anyone will believe us if we say a word...because they have the perfect cover. It's a parallel to PETA actually euthanizing their shelter animals.

Even today I was thinking how silly it is and how pissed off the cats are at the humane society and no kill shelters;- their feral & left behind pet counterparts live freely outdoors and flourish. They are stuck in cages in ringworm infested quarters. Irony at its finest. White American progressivism does have its minimum is maximum  quota of "non-whites" to fill. Then take away and patent 3rd world recipes!!!!

Going movies HIFF fall 2015

Assassination Nov. 20th

Assassin Nov 20th

Mocking Jay 2 Nov 19 

Atlantic Nov 19

Black & White (senator Dan Inyoue) Nov 15

my brother's death- head blown off with shotgun

Japan owns $1197.0billion USA dollars in debt. The average inbred homeland American whose reading comprehension is low thinks that they own Japan. 

So...what I have been forced to live through...as a social experiment is absolutely unforgivable. especially after my brother's memorial service and his so called friends joking about beating the shit out of him because he is Japanese. My father & his friends silenced me from getting into a fight and then several people attempted to murder me, which exhausted me financially.

The White Pennsylvanians (clearly have strong white European supremacy) and my college schoolmates thought it was funny that another "dumb Jap" but the dust on the east coast. That's the crowd of Pennsylvanians and New Yorkers (as hateful of Asia and white supremacist in their progressive allotment of race") I had the most exposure to. The Americans  think it's amusing that my mother & I, & our family Akita woke up to the disaster of my brother's brains splattered in a family picnic area with a shotgun.  Apparently my father "found him" and then went to sleep until my mother found him. 

No, I don't have friends here in the states. The half Chinese and mixed race other Asians think it's amusing as well since they revel in Japan's failures.

41 years tomorrow of the USA is quite enough embarrassment and harshness. 

My aunt Junko should know my mother psychologically wrote me off as a representation of her Jealousy for Aunt Junko's beauty and refinement in Japanese society. I was born to an oil and water family;- or steel and steel that clash constantly. 

Clinton & Muslim Law

Clinton boys to adopt Sharia law.  @1997-2005 I was around a number of Clinton Boys of varying though predominantly Caucasian backgrounds - Lebanese, Vermonter, California, oil pursuers who were livid about 2 things while intensely playing big board backgammon and lonely solitaire amidst kilos of cocaine

1. Their white supremacy born of even American nouveau riche  2. Muslim law

Obama didn't tell u that. 

Polarized USA homeland

Recently, many Caucasian & African-Americans are using the overseas refugee crisis to polarize their homeland.

More so America is becoming like Nazi Germany when "terror threat" is used in the media buzz. The words "terror threat" trigger the American homeland to violently lash out harder at more legitimate Americans who are from more diverse backsgrounds than "black or white".  

Again American fantasy patriotism plays a role in everyday American culture where discrimination of nationality and or race is traditionally misplaced on "racial minority" individuals and their families. Using the term "terror threat" sets that game into motion and the number of unofficial diplomatic relationships affected between the USA and other nations can rise to catastrophic and economic downfall. The USA is well stocked for a new isolationist economy. 

Issues--USA

Problems with the USA:

Teachers don't teach or know--most public school teachers use the schools as their political podium to maintain order when faced with a diverse population.

Anerica