Last night

I got to sunset before the T-shirt tent. The 1st bus load of tourists arrived pounding on my car window because I wanted to leave the lot, and was still sitting with engine running in my parking space. Old white guy with a Yokohama (American owned Japan city) hat on. 

My dreams this morning;- I was working in a 2 story building in Japan and the ocean engulfed the large stairway to the second floor. I was underwater holding my breath. Floating, I felt the walls & molding along the wall and followed it pulling myself by my fingertips  to the large square banister (which was partially hollow and contained some air) at the top of the staircase. I anchored myself to the banister post seemed 1'*1'. I blacked out and woke up at the top of the stairwell, laying face down. Only myself and a younger child seemed to be alive. Then another body began to cough and shrimp. I had to be thankful... Coming out of my dream the Egyptian snake headed God spoke to me in my lucid state;- telling me they finally found me. 

I wonder if this has to do with 2011 Tsunami as I was supposed to teach English in Tohoku region. I obtained my ESL weeds teaching certificate in Feb 2011.  It was after my 12/2011 visit with my family in Tohoku. 

Eating grain today from Ganesha Pad Thai dish @ elephant truck in an hour. Then to town Honolulu  by 4pm. I need the ocean and peace away from the tourists...

Crazy posts I make public to try stay alive in USA.

Fraud due to USA companies/ Institutions i am unable to remedy

From the time of my brother's unnatural death;- Most USA banks/creditors  have mishandled or not allowed me to access my account. They also  allowed data breaches that destroyed my credit and bill paying ability. Some  have also shut down my accounts when I began to receive paychecks.They have in fact, made it difficult for me to continue living in the USA. Their automated systems also fail when I call. The tellers complain to their management when I have issues with this as well.:
list includes: Alternatives Federal Credit Union in NY
                     American Savings Bank, Hawaii
                     Bank of Hawaii, Hawaii
                     Citigroup
                     Chase
                     M&T Bank

The Federal agent was friendly with Tellers and was able to access my safe deposit box at the Mililani, HI  Branch especially (due to the Agent's  personal girlfriends & "students"). The agent was also able to take enough personal identification and cards of mine to most likely have a female accomplice and take out line of credits as below.

This bank was entirely fraudulent and added $60,000 debt to my credit report during a time where I was having issues with a member of Secret service/ Feds :  Bank of America

Fraudulent: Bills from University of Hawaii that included parking tickets when I had NO CAR.
also, during the time the Federal Agent I took to court 2 years later with slight intervention with USA Military intelligence unit.

Other Stores in Hawaii that have made accusations and collected my personal information with security present and refusing me any "privacy policy";- because of purchases I made
CVS/ Long's Pharmacy.

I cannot live in the USA. Pennsylvania has White Supremacists who frequently attempt to kill me, with aid from the Quakertown and Richlandtown, PA police.

I define my  week currently  as Tuesday- Monday.
Wednesday tends to be my spirituality & Personal  day.
I am off typically Saturday.  Friday on occasion.

Blue flower moon over Haleiwa

Once in a Night Rainbow

The North Shore;- Blue moon rising, and the rare night rainbow was seen by a Hawaiian woman as a privledged lifetime experience. Today May 21, 2016 at 10:16:37am Hawaiian Time is the real full moon we won't be able to view, In daylight. Viewing times at this link http://www.calendar-365.com/moon/moon-phases.html.

Stills from my phone while watching the moon set @ Haleiwa 5 hrs before today's "full moon" is seen @ the rest of the planet. I'm still wishing for a decent camera.

Beautiful

American men can't impress Japanese family

It's become really clear to me;- 

The men I've met really can't afford to date me or be part of my family. My father married"? my mother at a time when Japan was poor economically. Since the Japan became the 3rd largest economy and American men find it cheaper to impress Vietnamese, Chinese, and Filipino families abroad. Their money buys a lot in those countries now. 

It makes things really intolerable since they "scoff" at my family overseas due to their own financial deficiencies. 

So, I understand why China doesn't change their currency value. 

Japan is in a difficult position. It's an extremely difficult time for me here in the States. Plus add in that all Japan's competition has been on the east coast undermining my life. Compounds the problem for me. 

I'm ready to throw the towel in soon because the men in Hawaii also expect me to "be nice" and have sex with them for free;- and they harass me a lot (nearly everyday here by someone new out in public). I really can't tolerate much more as a first generation person. The Americans are awful to me most of the time. Very few actually help. And then I still have to be cordial and polite for political purposes. 

It's unbearable at this point.

Was thinking of writing a song today

It might go like 

1. I want to wrap myself in the ocean 

Surrounded by waters of peace...

Or 

2. I'm so sick of u you f'n tourists

U think the parking lot is a f'n sidewalk

In Haleiwa we don't gotta work

So they rob u tourists blind for making us late and f'n pissed off 

Because u won't get out of my f'n wawhile u walk the f'n parking lot all f'n day

And the bus dropped off a new crew

To do the same thing every day 20x by two!

U f'n tourists fly a price to f'n eat pizza in paradise

HPD worse than Terrorists to me

I saw this headline this morning;- though I'm sure entirely unrelated to my personal safety concerns::--- I was like wow! About time, though doesn't include specific officers

Journal meditation day

Today, meditation group @ Waikiki from 6ish till 9pm. Our community leader is still in Argentina and headed to the group's international North  American conference in a week or so. Yesterday, I got my weekly and quarterly focus plans underway. Still have to pick up a new journal and do my annual focus plan. Working out of "The Way of the Seal" since it already mimicked most of what I learned decades ago as a trained grassroots organizer. Today is going to be an intense self reflection day for me, more so than usual. 

Also, I'm going to try and restart master cleanse minus the super strong Senna ClenzT. Going for a more dilute version. 

This morning drinking my Green2o and a coconut lime KeVita. Getting choked out on coconut. Opting for mint tea if I'm out at Starbucks. Picked up a couple organic lemons. Last 2 -- will half fresh juice with lemon organic presqueezed lemon juice.

Stomach still sore

Today 

mint tea  in morning. 

.18lbs  Tiny beet, cabbage, carrot, cherry tomato salad. 

.3lbs kidney bean chile.

Then totally ruined my 160cal Vega Sport performance protein chocolate by mixing it in most of a total 360cal 16oz Soy Delicious Coconut Milk yogurt- I ate most of it (added water) until I realized there's tapioca & rice starch in the yogurt...gak!!! 

Yesterday:- 

16oz Green 2o in h20

16oz Zico + 1stick mint Green 2o + Vega Sport Performance Protein chocolate (watered down with mint tea)

20oz Mint tea

Lg side Mixed veggies Panda + blanched almonds. 1/4 fortune cookie.

1avocado

2cups coffee

1cup CleanzT tea

28oz natural saltwater flush

Missing card today

Has happened more than 1x so far, several:- someone steals bank cards, credit cards, anything with a name and then make a fake ID to go with it. Annoying Hawaii 

Not much i can do;- since it takes time for replacement to arrive 

Day 2 recovery from MC

Stomach still hurts and finished the night with last of MC lemonade with maple syrup. Breakfast is slow:- mint tea 1st, 1 organic avocado, then some almond milk yogurt, and this salad with a fat free tomato sauce based basil dressing (no oil) ; cabbage, beets, olives, carrots pumpkin seeds and a couple cherry tomatoes 

Thought on TSA

Collateral damage of TSA on "race and minority women". Especially since they target "me" 100%.

I'd like to know the financial setback when the airport's TSA confiscates various items from passenger luggage. 

This happens every flight I make, they take my carry on too and damage electronics if they ever return them. Also collateral damage of the delay of held luggage and missing appointment or not being able to charge a phone because TSA takes the charger.

Financial damage & personal security tampering to my life without reason or repayment.

Nightmare since 2003

This morning stomach sore - fast off

150 cal. coconut yogurt chocolate 

0 cal. 1stick Green2o +8oz H2O

0 cal. 16.9oz Pellegrino

10 cal. Ginger lemon KeVita probiotic 

I may restart MC Sunday & go to next week. Figure out new sugar dose. Or try with less senna Cleanz T, liquid only.

Cleanz T 7 days Mc Cleans 2days

Just killed the MC cleanse after intense upper abdominal pain that making me sick, mucoids. I'll try it again when my stomach has calmed down, 

Things wrong with MC for me:-

• sugar

• coming off cleanse orange Juice - I don't drink juice or eat much fruit + sugar issue

In a few days I've concluded the Mc is close to my daily regular caloric intake & has more sugars. I feel better with less sugar, though I love maple syrup.

just been through tons of stress.  It is however day 7 for simple Cleanz T cleanse I started last Thursday. I tried to add on. 

Will try again another time without Cleanz T. I think the combo too much.

Day 3- Master Cleanse

Can't believe I made it through day 1 without shaking hands.

Day 2- 2 Cleanz T 1morning tea, 1 evening capsule; fresh juice from organic lemons, water Cayenne, organic grade a syrup in glass containers. No food. Slept 16hrs though...craving pizza.

Day 3- morning saltwater 2tsp+1qt

Crystal Geyser. Sea salt Raw& Natural from hawaii salt holes- has imperfections.

Cleanz T tea. Then capsule l8r

Quotation for the day

"Whoever has not learned to look behind the scenes will be duped time and again by promises and flattering words." ~ Bruno Groening, mystic

Hillary vs. Trump

The deconstructionist movement is humoresque in the future of an American nation lead by Donald Trump. It is frightening. Hawaii is a hub for gangs and some of them are agreeing that under Donald Trump, they would be able to become establishments that are uncontested in their communities:- especially when working jointly.

Hillary Clinton is a woman, yet our more stand and appropriate politician type with little hype coming from the "underground". She is a mother and has been a protector of the USA constitution for decades. Even with overseas faith in the TPP crumbling quickly;- the USA will still benefit internally from a standard American platform.  

Japan Trans-Pacific Partnership

Last night the Japan Rep who I met at ABAC 2011, a older white haired Caucasian man from Bucks County;- stopped by my stage. It finally made sense that his collegues and/or friends pressured my brother's death nearly 11 years ago in this volatile world of EX-IM. 

I'm tragically disgusted with what I realized, and that they are making me a laughing stock. 

I am not at all happy, and I agree with my family in discontinued business with the Caucasian-Americans, women included.

Whites are violent back stabbers who find the longterm game more satisfying and gratifying in their executions/murders of non-whites. I'm not sure that business with African-Americans will be much better as I have already experienced their agenda against Caicasian racism. They are biased at pushing their agendas and offer no internal domestic help that is actually appropriate for an international field.

Though, I've found some of the Russians (not the Georgia born) quite agreeable. I question their possession by Christianity in the ASEAN Environment. It is my biggest concern.