Beautiful

American men can't impress Japanese family

It's become really clear to me;- 

The men I've met really can't afford to date me or be part of my family. My father married"? my mother at a time when Japan was poor economically. Since the Japan became the 3rd largest economy and American men find it cheaper to impress Vietnamese, Chinese, and Filipino families abroad. Their money buys a lot in those countries now. 

It makes things really intolerable since they "scoff" at my family overseas due to their own financial deficiencies. 

So, I understand why China doesn't change their currency value. 

Japan is in a difficult position. It's an extremely difficult time for me here in the States. Plus add in that all Japan's competition has been on the east coast undermining my life. Compounds the problem for me. 

I'm ready to throw the towel in soon because the men in Hawaii also expect me to "be nice" and have sex with them for free;- and they harass me a lot (nearly everyday here by someone new out in public). I really can't tolerate much more as a first generation person. The Americans are awful to me most of the time. Very few actually help. And then I still have to be cordial and polite for political purposes. 

It's unbearable at this point.

Was thinking of writing a song today

It might go like 

1. I want to wrap myself in the ocean 

Surrounded by waters of peace...

Or 

2. I'm so sick of u you f'n tourists

U think the parking lot is a f'n sidewalk

In Haleiwa we don't gotta work

So they rob u tourists blind for making us late and f'n pissed off 

Because u won't get out of my f'n wawhile u walk the f'n parking lot all f'n day

And the bus dropped off a new crew

To do the same thing every day 20x by two!

U f'n tourists fly a price to f'n eat pizza in paradise

HPD worse than Terrorists to me

I saw this headline this morning;- though I'm sure entirely unrelated to my personal safety concerns::--- I was like wow! About time, though doesn't include specific officers

Journal meditation day

Today, meditation group @ Waikiki from 6ish till 9pm. Our community leader is still in Argentina and headed to the group's international North  American conference in a week or so. Yesterday, I got my weekly and quarterly focus plans underway. Still have to pick up a new journal and do my annual focus plan. Working out of "The Way of the Seal" since it already mimicked most of what I learned decades ago as a trained grassroots organizer. Today is going to be an intense self reflection day for me, more so than usual. 

Also, I'm going to try and restart master cleanse minus the super strong Senna ClenzT. Going for a more dilute version. 

This morning drinking my Green2o and a coconut lime KeVita. Getting choked out on coconut. Opting for mint tea if I'm out at Starbucks. Picked up a couple organic lemons. Last 2 -- will half fresh juice with lemon organic presqueezed lemon juice.

Stomach still sore

Today 

mint tea  in morning. 

.18lbs  Tiny beet, cabbage, carrot, cherry tomato salad. 

.3lbs kidney bean chile.

Then totally ruined my 160cal Vega Sport performance protein chocolate by mixing it in most of a total 360cal 16oz Soy Delicious Coconut Milk yogurt- I ate most of it (added water) until I realized there's tapioca & rice starch in the yogurt...gak!!! 

Yesterday:- 

16oz Green 2o in h20

16oz Zico + 1stick mint Green 2o + Vega Sport Performance Protein chocolate (watered down with mint tea)

20oz Mint tea

Lg side Mixed veggies Panda + blanched almonds. 1/4 fortune cookie.

1avocado

2cups coffee

1cup CleanzT tea

28oz natural saltwater flush

Missing card today

Has happened more than 1x so far, several:- someone steals bank cards, credit cards, anything with a name and then make a fake ID to go with it. Annoying Hawaii 

Not much i can do;- since it takes time for replacement to arrive 

Day 2 recovery from MC

Stomach still hurts and finished the night with last of MC lemonade with maple syrup. Breakfast is slow:- mint tea 1st, 1 organic avocado, then some almond milk yogurt, and this salad with a fat free tomato sauce based basil dressing (no oil) ; cabbage, beets, olives, carrots pumpkin seeds and a couple cherry tomatoes 

Thought on TSA

Collateral damage of TSA on "race and minority women". Especially since they target "me" 100%.

I'd like to know the financial setback when the airport's TSA confiscates various items from passenger luggage. 

This happens every flight I make, they take my carry on too and damage electronics if they ever return them. Also collateral damage of the delay of held luggage and missing appointment or not being able to charge a phone because TSA takes the charger.

Financial damage & personal security tampering to my life without reason or repayment.

Nightmare since 2003

This morning stomach sore - fast off

150 cal. coconut yogurt chocolate 

0 cal. 1stick Green2o +8oz H2O

0 cal. 16.9oz Pellegrino

10 cal. Ginger lemon KeVita probiotic 

I may restart MC Sunday & go to next week. Figure out new sugar dose. Or try with less senna Cleanz T, liquid only.

Cleanz T 7 days Mc Cleans 2days

Just killed the MC cleanse after intense upper abdominal pain that making me sick, mucoids. I'll try it again when my stomach has calmed down, 

Things wrong with MC for me:-

• sugar

• coming off cleanse orange Juice - I don't drink juice or eat much fruit + sugar issue

In a few days I've concluded the Mc is close to my daily regular caloric intake & has more sugars. I feel better with less sugar, though I love maple syrup.

just been through tons of stress.  It is however day 7 for simple Cleanz T cleanse I started last Thursday. I tried to add on. 

Will try again another time without Cleanz T. I think the combo too much.

Day 3- Master Cleanse

Can't believe I made it through day 1 without shaking hands.

Day 2- 2 Cleanz T 1morning tea, 1 evening capsule; fresh juice from organic lemons, water Cayenne, organic grade a syrup in glass containers. No food. Slept 16hrs though...craving pizza.

Day 3- morning saltwater 2tsp+1qt

Crystal Geyser. Sea salt Raw& Natural from hawaii salt holes- has imperfections.

Cleanz T tea. Then capsule l8r

Quotation for the day

"Whoever has not learned to look behind the scenes will be duped time and again by promises and flattering words." ~ Bruno Groening, mystic

Hillary vs. Trump

The deconstructionist movement is humoresque in the future of an American nation lead by Donald Trump. It is frightening. Hawaii is a hub for gangs and some of them are agreeing that under Donald Trump, they would be able to become establishments that are uncontested in their communities:- especially when working jointly.

Hillary Clinton is a woman, yet our more stand and appropriate politician type with little hype coming from the "underground". She is a mother and has been a protector of the USA constitution for decades. Even with overseas faith in the TPP crumbling quickly;- the USA will still benefit internally from a standard American platform.  

Japan Trans-Pacific Partnership

Last night the Japan Rep who I met at ABAC 2011, a older white haired Caucasian man from Bucks County;- stopped by my stage. It finally made sense that his collegues and/or friends pressured my brother's death nearly 11 years ago in this volatile world of EX-IM. 

I'm tragically disgusted with what I realized, and that they are making me a laughing stock. 

I am not at all happy, and I agree with my family in discontinued business with the Caucasian-Americans, women included.

Whites are violent back stabbers who find the longterm game more satisfying and gratifying in their executions/murders of non-whites. I'm not sure that business with African-Americans will be much better as I have already experienced their agenda against Caicasian racism. They are biased at pushing their agendas and offer no internal domestic help that is actually appropriate for an international field.

Though, I've found some of the Russians (not the Georgia born) quite agreeable. I question their possession by Christianity in the ASEAN Environment. It is my biggest concern.

My current death menace is back

In Hawaii the term Export-Import is a salacious word to the majority. It connotates foreign car models & porn stars. I = neither. Yet it is still a source of amusement for the male population on the island knowing they destroyed any decent career I may have had from the USA as a political liaison in Export-Import.

They made it easy for the Chinese-Hawaiian descent Federal Agent & military contract trainer who hijacked me from my vacation at the Honolulu airport to rob me and put me in the Sex industry 6 years ago. (He is someone who also proudly claims he has purchased women on his credit card and trafficked them to the Vatican in hearsay, as well as grilling me as to if I could obtain weapons for Hawaiian Nation). My credit was completely annihilated. He gave my ID to someone else. I've been fighting to retain minimal living standards here in Hawaii, and I can't go back to the mainland in this kind of disrepair. He annihilated my financial security. 

My depression is starting to become overwhelming. I can only "dance" as licensed by the Honolulu Liquor Comission that has previously "given away" my identity information to Chinese biased authorities on this island. 

The Hawaii population thinks it's amusing. They have embarrassed me in front of an international audience of tourists and some of my relatives;- not to mention other countries where my family's business connections have been more than aggravated. Each time I have a suitable living environment he, without incvitation, has "stopped by", stolen information or keys and called me crazy and threatened to harm me. 33black belts and 6 grandmaster ranks in various arts- he is impossible for me to contend with anymore.

My newest concern is his "poverty due to helping his parents current debts. Current debts they hold from their housing association. He incurred job loss as a paramedic possibly from harming me over 5 years go. He teaches martial arts privately to children of Kailua families at a church, among his other adult students.

I'm afraid he will kill me.

Vegan Superfoods Alkaline

Top 3 List - no fruit or grain base

💚Cacao - powder easiest to use on the go

Pros: easy to add on the go to drink, protein & energy, alkaline side, loved 

Cons: can't think of one. 

💚Chlorophyllins - broken down chlorophyll 

      •Chlorophyll- grows in a tank (homegrown)

Pros: great protein source, super energy

Cons: hard to process from scratch, better mixed with other elements, finding product that works well (blend) is hard, not available at most stores.

💚Poi - pounded taro root (made fresh is best) 

Pros: low glycemic, good calories, not grain or fruit

Cons: Hard to get fresh even in Hawaii, possible contamination due to root crop

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Others for alkaline 

Kale

beets

Cleanz T day 1

Day 1:-

 breakfast

Last food/oils for cleanse- 1/2 avo with vegan pesto.

1 serving Go! Nitrimax

Drank 1 capsule Cleanz T 

--------------afternoon- evening

28oz Maple syrup+H20- mixed 1/2 cup black coffee+ cayenne pepper (will try cut out coffee)

1 small Pelligrino

3L H2o

Hawaii updated Skyline

General consensus:-

Hawaii's skyline is "laughable" with poor outdated design choices that resemble prisons and hospitals. 

Car check- ugh daily

Things to check car for:-knowing it's probably been broken into- this is a regular thing that turns into costly repairs.

• flat tire- usually happens at Ala Moana mall level 2 parking side where Macy's to Long's Drugs. Despite cams, someone lets air out of tires. Security staff no good.

• mileage change

• voodoo- unusual amulets / symbols usually in trunk or under mats.

• planted clothing/ aka evidence some of the more surly extortion blackmail peeps do.

• missing car accessories - phone charger, tire slime, newly broken interior plastic (my car is older so more fragile and noticeable tampering)

• fuse box - missing and rearranged fuses 

• bugs & wire tampering under/in dash

-- once found a charged fiber optic HF bug in the trunk- tiny, and wireless. As big as a letter "O"

(Movie theatre - "firefly" drone with infrared cam back 2009)

• under hood tampering - suddenly loose parts 

• antenna missing

• hubcaps missing

• door locks near completely broken