Focus plan this week.

I'm stumped, this week 

My life has been for others, for my brother to live, not for me. He left the planet and left me with the difficult part I thought I could see through to a positive end in 5 years (by 2014).  Now 2016, things have spun out of control and I don't think I can fix it alone, or go back to Philly  to work on my startup. 

I'm cringing at the USA politicians and the backdrop that has been created. 

Dream from this morning

Intense realistic dream futuristic ,

I was in the water with y surfboard being brushed with a shark's presence. Knocked off my board and in still water 

The shark kept grazing my submerged body. I held my breath at a smooth pace.

I returned to land and a large explosion had happened on the highway near a tunnel. People weren't rescued by paramedics and many of them made the highway their encampment. Some still bleeding from schrapnel and getting thinner;- they still possessed an oblivious and seemingly happy demeanor. A family sat on a silver mush tarp only 15feet from an overturned tractor trailer. It seemed that the explosion released a neurotoxin that put the highway traveller's in a state of happy trance, immune to their surroundings. 

I wasn't exposed to the neurotoxin during the shark encounter. And ran through the accident scene looking for help. Only one person noticed me or spoke with me, asked what I was doing and I said I was going to get help or food. I ran through what seemed to be a massive accident that ran the length of the highway. More and more peopl were "entranced" in the pleasant state covered wth blood and injuries. I ran back to where I had come from got to the the shoreline where there were soft grasses, and I thanked God for the lush soft grass. The hard surfaced pavement and hard edges of human invention were nightmarish tragedy. I grabbed at the thick beach grasses and felt their softness, thanked God again.

The Help

"You never know who is going to help you. So be nice to everyone." Training is no good. When down to the wire, you realize that being in a predicament you didn't expect is due to the people in your environment. The next conclusion is that they caused the situation.  After that, trust is non existent. 

The only thing that I can trust is;- that they will ensure they intended to cause the situation rather than loose face to others by acknowledging they were wrong. 

So, help needs to emulate from another source that can prove trustworthy and remain so. 

Globalized Clothing is "Fashion"

Globalization of the world is happening. One thing that containers and shiploads of clothes contains is the globalized interpretations of what used to be cultural prints and patterns. 

No longer on homespun from a loom, the "tribal" designs have left villages and virtually evaporated. Instead, there is a cacophony of "culturally or tribal" inspired design from the Caucasian globalism fashion regime. The stores that plague the American landscape in heinous strip mall force contain the battered products of a sweatshop global culture. 

They say, if it weren't for globalization and America, these workers would be penniless. 

Penniless is more affordable and luxurious compared to the garbage heaps and toxic air America's globalized tribal village has created abroad.

That is of course, while the American Elite remain harsh and progressive critics of using anything except organic fabrics. It's all gotten to be too late before the next population Explosion.

Relationships

There is nothing else in my mind than

"You either are or you aren't for me."

My life is lonely waiting on TPP agreement;- I used to be a classical piano teacher, business organizational consultant, bartender. Hawaii is full of unsavory and inappropriate as well as life threatning people. Those  who wouldn't even qualify to host a foreign exchange student due to the broken family structures really are the most inappropriate in making comments. They don't even have a wholesome American Family let alone fit a high standard of the definition of success by American standards. Instead I'm being bombarded with criticisms by Hawaii's FOB 3rd world prostitutes who latch onto the rich men here as success is huge in their home country for the $150 or so going price for prostitutes. I've learned to hate the speech impediment or Asian foreign accent on English as the people are extra numb and abusive to tolerate. Emotionally it's like hearing nails on a chalkboard screeching.  It's not only aggravating, it is like its America's way of shafting the TPP with Japan before it is finished in completion.

This goes for 

1. the long range business plan, 

2. my family is treated more harshly due to their political friends negatively impacting my life;- ie., killing my brother so he wouldn't be at my wedding (which didn't happen). A DOD employee contacted me to tell me even my family would be considered terrorist if they threatened my life at this point. @ 2005.

3. People I let close to me who really aren't qualified to speak to me about the long range business plan. 

4。Racists hiding behind the polite, cordial, and nice veil. Not for me.

5.  Men who want an intimate relationship. And bad-mouth me because of their own deficiency that is not for me.

You  are for me or aren't for me. If I'm not "happy" it's because you aren't for me or necessarily against me and I have to tolerate being there. There is no bringing in anyone to the Plan. So, there is no use for extra people who can jeopardize our goals for the 11million+ who have families to support. And, that number is expected to quadruple in the next 25years.

 My Father and my Mother are politically askew from good intentions towards me, have been accomplice to their Republican friends in dismantling my life in order to propagate WW3. Legally they are entities who met minimal accommodations and both broke child abuse laws (more so my mother on a daily basis than my father) and pilfered what was left for me by my Great-grandmother. My mother, initially part of the Imperial Japanese Household Security and my Father, EX- USAF OSI are both ostracized from the family. I have tried my best through an extremely abusive and life threatening environment to survive on behalf of the PEACE concept. 

I am at a point where, my instructions since childhood as an Agent of Japan and serving my Emperor seem futile. Though, my sentiment is to terminate this relationship as there is no one who is helping to improve my life to a reasonable mode of living. Everyone who knows of this plan and has money to gain or loose threatens me with legalities, and so I have remained with my "Vow of Poverty" I was forced to realize in 1996 if I was to continue my life.

Since I have been in Hawaii;- I was unwillingly detained by a Navy Seal trainer and Martial artist and tossed into the Hawaii sex industry. He forced me to surrender money I made, if it wasn't stolen from me along with other pieces of my identity. This is due to his parents' ineptitude financially. He also identified hisself as a Federal Agent and a VIP body guard. He explained he had to do this to me so that he could protect his own "credit rating" to keep his job. Due to this initial violation of my personal well being, It opened the doors to more attacks from the Hawaii military & sex industry, as well as the local security companies and Honolulu Police department;- all involved in sex trafficking or illegal narcotics to some degree. 

This Hawaii is tired. It would be refreshing to have new security move into the area and more constraints on soldiers at all levels;- as they are to take orders and fail at being better civilian business people.

Earthquakes in the News

This photo shows how serious the matter is;- I stooped to purchasing INSTANT COFFEE...OMG!!

The past week has been riddled with minor earthquakes across the globe.
A few things despite the unlikely hood of it hitting Hawaii;-

I am phasing out the Slippers aka Flip Flops aka open toed sandals.
Instead, I'm back to wearing closed toe training shoes most of the time.
Most of Hawaii would be plagued with cut up feet if there were to be an actual disaster.

Just a thought this Sunny Saturday afternoon.
Aside from the loss of shipping to the Hawaiian Islands and a 3 day food supply out here.
Most food, even food grown in Hawaii, is shipped to the mainland and then sent back to Hawaii.

To Yoga again a rainbow

Rainbow on cloudy day

On way to yoga 

Ex-im look at it this way Atlanta

They put a hit out on me, that is Atlanta, GA. so they have helpin Hawaii from local Chinese-Hawaiian maffia. And some NAVY SEALS.

I'm lucky to be alive, though everyone in Hawaii agrees that my misfortune is setting the bar to anger the right people in the right places to set up for WW3. They thank Hawaii for this.

Ex-Im

Ex-IM TPP deal is Too little to late for the USA. Keeping open to North America seems like suited to Canada and Native American tribes. 

Unrealistic  2017 will work. 

Uncertain any of it is good. best to close out trade talks until 2018 & let everyone take a break and prepare for disaster.

-6-knell-out-66-

Third of July 3rd

Oahu fireworks- Magic  Island, in front of Ala Moana;- according to Travis from the Maui team... we will have a great fireworks display bombarded with ground level fireworks. There will be fewer high Ariel fireworks. 

Getting a good seat up front is key to this years fireworks display.

So, for the military members who are sensitive to Explosions due to PTS;- this will be a dimmer view from above. 

The North Shore, Haleiwa, is already setting up for their holiday block party that will run until 11PM tonite. The block party will include Salsa, dancing, food and drinks all in the parking lot area by the Wyland art Gallery and Cholos and Patagonia store. 

I'll probably be online? catching a 23rd year of fireworks from Ithaca community fireworks display, in NY, if possible. Or, looking forward to 360 drone footage of the display.

Sunbow

Today I went to Ala Moana beach park for 1hr. Trying to avoid the traffic for a Friday, Holiday. So, opening my eyes and looking up, I saw a big Sunbow...was amazing.

Hawaii in need of Bird Baths

My Buddhist perspective;- I'd like to see shopping centres installed cooled bird baths in cool, shaded outdoor places for the migratory and displaced birds & small wildlife. Since most of the Developed world has shuffled in asphalt acreage for natural yardage,  birds are unable to find fresh water sources. The obvious downfall being that someone puts poison in the water to kill the birds. It's a no-win situation for the Birds.
I was just sitting at the coffee gallery table and a desperate gecko ran up to my iced coffee mug 3x with my hand on the cup. The gecko licked the water droplets off the side. I set an ice cube out on the table where the gecko's purple younger lapped up some cool water droplets to beat the Hawaiian heat.

Gecko Leaving the scene after lapping up melted ice droplets.

Meditation morning

Haleiwa, After sunrise meditations (still have to do new UM breathing exercises & yoga);- Short walk on the beach. I found a tiny Opiihi shell, size of a fingerprint.

I tossed my sunrise shell back into the ocean, this morning I noticed this tiny Opiihi. Pretty, to me.

Yakuza? Hawaii Syndicate? hacked my news feed -

So, I just watched a video about North Korean Missile  that said it was by Bloomberg;- the commentator/ newsanchor said., "Japan is a U.S. Territory." then it was followed by "the USA is entitled to rape women and beat up Japanese."  Was speaking with an official from Hong Kong.

It  may be the location I am at;- Coffee Gallery. As, last time I was here a white woman harassed me because i laughed.

Cultists and Information/ News

How I view the News
I was trained in the USA as a national grassroots organizer after my exposure to classified information as a child and have a different perspective on the News. That is in addition to the political nature of my relatives abroad and overseas and USA politics gravely impacting myself and my now deceased siblings.
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What USA civilians try to force me to do, and ostricize me for Watching News.
Again, again, again; - I've heard it so many times!!! "Don't watch the News!!!, It's Toxic!"\
This is coming from the fast food generation that has a penchant for being ignorant and ill informed.
Last week, I heard it 2x.

1.  from a White supremacist, 20year Christian-Krishna devotee who likes the Caste system. We actually got into an argument the day before Hawaii's solidarity protest against USMC base in Okinawa (Which I was happy to see and join). This was after she returned from a National healing Conference where group's leaders don't watch the News.
2. from Coach Mark Divine's website article by Rolf Dobelli, "Avoid News. towards a Healthy News Diet" www.RolfDobelli.com, http://www.dobelli.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/Avoid_News_Part1_TEXT.pdf

-Globalized English News in USA- 

Media Worthy = Deserves Presidential Attention

Think about news in the USA. It barely takes 30 minutes on any channel to filter through anything Media worthy. It's not really presented for Ms. USA house-wife who stays at home with her kids and works from home. The typical USA citizen really isn't inclined to go Lobby Congress or do an in person Drop for a new law that is going through the Senate or Congress in Washington D.C.  Though, it might matter to non-profit/ issue oriented group leaders in their home states.

The Nuclear Spirit & LV Handbags

The United States of America is the only Military power that has openly AND covertly used nuclear bombs on Civilians and other nations. If you assign the value of nuclear weapon owned by a nation  as same as value of a personal luxury item, then the USA is making a big stink against the rest of the World's nations for looking more 1st World. The only thing the USA is lacking now is selling personal use mini nukes.

Nuclear Bomb = LV Handbag  

North Korea has been firing Missiles that are openly publicized in the USA for over a decade.
I'm not sympathetic to senseless killing;- However, I can sympathize with the sentiment that the USA has in the past decade;- used and elevated its own illegal international and domestic drug distributors to Federal Agent status. Those Federal Agents have had security clearances to access information and independently aggravate Asian politics from within the USA homeland.

Difference between North Korea, JAPAN, China
Where North Korea stands openly making threats and launching missiles has lasted over a decade;- they have taken on an air that equivocates the American domestic attitude of governing laws. More recent developments are anti-USA propoganda and disobedience of laws that were set in place to protect the masses of civilians.

Japan, has again waited with great aggravation like a parent while witnessing the USA's democratic citizens rape & murder many Japanese abroad and within Japan. The most recent rape and murder being in the past months and commanding a 65,000 person Japanese protest of USA military systems.
Though China has been more of the long range ICBM fear of Tokyo Officials;- North Korean hatred of the USA since the G6 in 2007 is now an immediate and critical concern for Japan.

The Japanese Government is not commanding the evacuation and relocation of Okinawan Japanese residents while these North Korean missile threats continue.

to be revised. 
JAPAN Nuclear/ Fire Storm Spirituality:- 

Some spiritualists over many religions concede to God's Plan. I only know one thing for certain, that God's Plan for we humanoids ends in a physical death. There is research that shows the effects of Nuclear disaster;- that many sentient beings who have physical form on this planet die in close proximity of the nuclear disaster. Some spiritualists do not blame God for the sentient beings perishing;- rather they blame the faulty nuclear reactors, nuclear bombs, and other nuclear weapons. They have even gone so far as to make

new findings in atomic research that simply state that Nuclear weapons are the only weapon that can actually destroy the Spirit itself (akin to the God particle). 

It also seems that spiritualists who think about the Fire Storm that is coming;- Don't personally accept that their viewpoint of God's Plan includes their death. They also project that they are special in God's view, and that death by Nuclear warfare or Nuclear Disaster is a horrible atrocity. They ultimately contradict and are intensely in Denial of their own spiritual teachings. When I presented a slight argument that there are amazing spiritual beings and other humanoid or non human sentient and physical life who can survive in the Aftermath and close proximity of the Nuclear disaster;- the spiritualists were appalled. They contested that it was not a matter of earthly, spiritual evolution;- that is, for creatures and humans who were mutated or survived Nuclear radiation to live. 

USA Racism - my brother's memorial

After the not accidental death of my brother in 2005, we held a memorial service for him. The memorial service room was packed with his white so-called friends. His closest friend(s) not white showed up after most of the room cleared. We then had several people who knew him at our home. My father forced me to refrain from starting a physical altercation as the people he knew unleashed their laughter about how they had him beat up, stalked, dosed with drugs & left laying on the ground only to be kicked and hurt by their brothers and friends. Some of the instigators were the girls/young women he knew because they were making closer ties to the guys he knew. It was community racism. 

After the memorial service, I was stalked and threatened by white people with weapons and those who claimed they were at our home to mourn my brother's death. 

They were rotten people underneath the friendly" exterior for years since many were his friends in High school. 

It still angers me to the core of my being to this day. 

Stretching felt Great!!!

This morning, I did a shoulder stretch on my chartreuse, roll-out, squishie mat @ the Gym floor. It felt great today! 

Difference was I did the normal  shoulder stretch as follows;- laying face down with chin on the mat, either right arm or left arm crossed over sternum and pressed between body and the mat/floor. This time, I added an opposite leg lift off the floor until I felt my hips press securely against the mat. I actually felt my hips adjust into a relaxed position and it felt Great! Not sure if an instructor would agree as I've never been taught to stretch like this. It just felt right. My lower back and hips relaxed. Will add pic if someone can tell me what I did/doing. 

Me, @ a gym on my orange,roll-out, squishie mat more than a few months ago...Go! Nitrimax in the cup.

Tsunami - Warm Climate

Surviving in a tsunami disaster zone after a tsunami;- doesn't necesarily mean you will want to follow general rules of camping. I went to Thailand 2004 to do civilian re-con of business partnerships after .

I did not bring a tent, I was able to rent one when we got to an encampment. This is what I used to survive and not contract Malaria #1 threat due to pooled water and moderate summer climate.

TSUNAMI DISASTER - CIVILIAN RE-CON PACK 1 Month. 
1. tiny bottle of Deet - used 1x on the trip and did not reapply;- due to info that the mosquito count was out of control with dead bodies, flooding, and people running for the mountains. Most areas were quarantined by the time we arrived at BKK. My travel partner for 4 days went all natural and slept in a tent. He had contracted Malaria by the 3rd day;- 1st night out of the city he had over 150 bites on him as the tent body heat attracted the mosquitoes that snuck in through the tent fabrics.
2. 7 yards heavy duty mosquito netting  - wrapped myself in it to go to sleep in the open on the ground. I probably looked like a dead body.
3. Camp mat for sleeping
4. 1 med sized internal frame Backpack 
5. Katydyn Kayak water bottle - I retrieved water from a natural stream. My hiking partner scolded me and then had an eye opener as the Government was siphoning water to water trucks just a terrace above us at the waterfall. They don't even treat the water there, so my personal filtration was better.
6. Chlorine- tiny bottle of POTABLE Water drops (chlorinated)- i put about 5-9 drops in each 50+gal barrel and it had people quietly running to the water barrels.
7. EO Frankinsence - my natural bug deterrent/ first aid kit 
8. Patagonia Atom sack - keep critical items on me with a day or 2 of Cliff Bars & passport
9. Light stick- battery powered - less noticible than a flashligh & provided safety while walking along roads at night. Enabled me to hitch rides for me and my travel companions in the dark.
10. Clothes lightweight & easy to wash and hang dry by hand. Cotton clothes had to be left behind so I brought my volunteer t-shirts ( I had a huge XXL duffel of them and packed as many as I could) Cotton is more pourous and carry more organisms, and needs detergent to be cleaned. Synthetics are better to wash in natural non-detergent soaps as they don't break down the oils;- also Synthetic clothes dry faster.

2004 Survival FOOD:
I ate grain back then & my pack was identical to someone else randomly going another direction at the airport. Our Cliff bars were stored in the same place, so I thought TSA got aggravating enough to swap out the flavors I liked for flavors I did not care for.
1. a case of Cliff Bars
2. packets of steel cut oatmeal (in flavors)
The encampment I stayed at for most of a month allowed campers to fish on their own and bring it back to the kitchen. I am vegan & allergic to shellfish;- so I ate my oatmeal each morning with a fresh banana smoothie. I had 1 meal of mostly rice, and 1 large bowl of coconut/vegetable soup each day. I actually felt great. There was somone on a bicycle who started to stop by with ziploc bags full of veggies, fish, cooked meats for sale. I was partial to the fresh peanuts for protein. We also got some fresh coconut milk and coconut, as well as using a moped for a day;- trying to get ketchup (which had become scarce). Liquor & Coffee was the easiest to obtain aka - least desirable.