Cults & "Salvation Syndrome"

HAWAIIAN ISLANDS
A Cult to for me to Study:

In the case of the Spiritual dojo I studied for 1.5yrs and due to my family background;- Almost daily, after my initiation month the cult member attempted to apply acute physical trauma to my skull pressure point connected to normal sight and nerve receptors. I was expected to behave with great shame cast upon me if I was outspoken. My being outspoken resulted in several "spiritual disturbances" that were my actual requests that the members have no physical contact with me while in the process of giving light or okiyome.

How this began:-  In Spring of 2014 while I was at an already world famous homeopath's office, plagued with toxic mold in my bloodstream (without Candida) so I couldn't walk;- I was approached by a Japanese Cult ("New religion") group.
Create Biological Confusion = Toxic Mold = Incurable Doom
Catharsis = Obey Homeopath (Ritual) = Impassioned/Elated Existence
Salvation = Living & without most food = Extreme Phenomena
Follows a pattern that fits into ritual cult abuse protocol:

• Exposure to Electro Schumann Frequency therapy
• Change Diet to Minerals & Chlorophyllins - not as sports drink
• Eliminate "spiritual contaminants" from normal food that grows on planet.
• Coerced into receiving "light" and harassment by cult member(s)

;- they claimed I was going through a deep "spiritual cleansing" while I attended "light" sessions for 10months as a non-member. Despite cult members adversely affecting my life, being chased out of my home within a month;- becoming homeless with huge "nutrition" bills, I finally joined the Cult for a short period 2/22/2015-8/2015.  I officially resigned 8/2016 and turned in my @ Spiritual level 1 omitama due to their ensuing manipulations/coercion and acute/deadly physical trauma attempts on my head & spinal chord.

The other personal side-note about this cult is that the founder made the cult of a hodgepodge of Asian occult practices and was kicked out of other more established Asian/Japanese cults. The new cult members, as well as those at the Homeopath's office are heavily laden in Network Marketing products as well as having backgrounds in promoting old Nazi value systems such as Skull manipulation and grading, biological blood classification, and financial exploitation of less educated ethnic minority populations. They are English speaking figure heads who have had a dislike of my tribal Asian background from Siberia & the Kurils. Coincidentally, places where their "light giving" okiyome practices began from my tribes shamanic traditions.

My notes on "Salvation Theory" after reading the 1980's publication "DOJO: MAGIC & EXORCISM IN MODERN JAPAN" I ordered shortly after joining the cult. I ordered the book because many of the spiritual dojo members quickly changed behaviour after I "joined" and took the initiation course & ceremony. They began to behave abusively and malevolent spiritually. Their behaviour was similar to other cult behaviour I experienced in my childhood. The  quickly confirmed and explained the main ideas that were enveloped in their particular "Sect."

1. The main Criticism of the Cult members were that they are all "high" on themselves (Ideal Ego) to be giving the "light of God to people."
2. The positive was that a person is able to "Bless Food" that is animal derived even though they are striking hypocrites.
3. There was much hypocrisy of words & actions in between and little logical continuity.

My more General Formula of CULT control follows:

INCURABLE DOOM + IMPASSIONED/ELATED EXISTENCE = EXTREME PHENOMENA

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Points of discrepancy/ Notes from spiritual dojo study:

Possession by Defective spirits: The Spirit is Lying if it claims to be GOD. It is sometimes assigned an "Evil" attribute for claiming to be GOD. However, the Cult will claim that everyone is "of GOD" and is equated to a grain of sand makes beach, drop of water makes ocean, a little bit of GOD that remains connected to God (with their help/ through them) yet doesn't make a person GOD. 

After this "possession" of the Cult can claim the new member/ person is "Pathological" as

"Possession in Western Culture is considered pathological behaviour due to the Legal System" (Dojo: Magic & Exorcism in Modern Japan, Page 127).

The Cult member may feel safe in the Cult because there is an extraneous social nonacceptance of this behaviour. It can be compared to having a normal nervous-breakdown (of Western Society) within the constraints of the spiritual values of the Cult.

The Cult uses Coercion & is cold and follows am established protocol. The harmful actions and proof of the Endless Realm of Hope ensue. Typical list of Chemicals, Seduction, and Physical manipulation used in cult protocols are as follows:

• Sodium Amylobabitone for functional organic/biological confusion
• Post-Hypnotic Confusion
• Denial of Actions & Refutes responsibility of Actions (common in Delta altar)
• Hypnotic Behavior
• Hypno-Sociodrama
• Catharsis
• Psychic Abreaction
• Electro or Insulin Convulsive Therapy - (Typical in Hawaii)
• Sodium-Amytal
• Sodium Pentothal
• Orgasm / Sex - (Typical in Hawaii)
• Religious Ritual - (Typical everywhere)
• Hyper-Arouse
• Hypnotic Lethargy
• Semi-Meditative Tranquility
• Psychogenic Stupor - Extreme cases only.

• Spiritual Seizure - is not hypnotic, it comes from Repressed Guilt aka Symbolic form of "evil" spirit.
• Actual Ego compartmentalizes Repressed Guilt/ "evil" spirit to balance the Ideal Ego
• aka.  Compartmentalize is to hide the disassociation of a deviation from the

SALVATION SYNDROME

 U (Unbearable Dread/Fear) + I (Endless Realm of Hope) = A

U :-   First, is created by placing an uncompromised importance on a concern/object/ideal/movement/practice. A deviation from that First is assigned an Harmful & No compromise Consequence.

I :-  The Endless Realm of Hope - Prayer, Practice, Spells, Giving Light with God,

independent disassociation from the Value System leads to perceived placement in Exceptional meritorious sphere/Realm.

New Death Threat-

Today I got a verbal death threat from someone dressed as a Military personnel, in Camo.
They told me they'll kill me just to make sure Japan is on the US side.
Security Agreements like this, after my Ex USAF OSI father called me & told me he has hated me since I was born yesterday. Apparently;- The USAF had some other intention when they brought my mother to the USA (or as my mom's sister claims:- USAF trafficked my mother to the USA.)
At Valkenburgh Rd. near Pearl Harbor,  I don't take this as a good start to April Fool's day

Just my Notes- CULTS & SPIRITUALITY

Cults & Spiritual or Religious factions today create supportive environments for their followers. Some cults are too destructive for their new members. My life in the USA has taken me through a spiritual realm of organizational business and value development in Environmental and Rights movements especially. I have spent a lifetime in the midst of how USA cults & domestic terrorist groups (such as White Supremacists) recruit and develop their organizations by living in some of their communities. All of the negative exposures that I had as a child prompted me to become the "ALICE" aka the vigilante to overcome the injustices. It is not really anything new to the world, except maybe making the statements in English as a primary observer's language. I suppose that the Asian continent is still curious as to what lies beneath the blood streaked Banner of Stars that lies across the Pacific.

Most people who gravitate towards cults do so because they have experienced childhood with some religious setting. The religious setting may have been one of the most peaceful times to interact with "strangers". If there was a meditation or other prayer time, this is a very powerful feeling because there is a sense of safety and trust in closing one's eyes and diminishing senses while reciting a prayer. Many times, all of these basic elements in a person's life are gradually overcome with hectic modern life. Unlike other regression periods, participating in religious or "Spiritual" groups is a socially acceptable adult practise.

OFFERING by the Cult, Religious faction or Spiritual group
- (Mission Statement) An inclusion in the group whose members have a Value System that is based on the appreciation of a common denominator;- singular (noun) Object, Ideal, Person.
- (Participation) The ability for members to participate in a supportive environment that supports the Value System.
- (Acknowledgement) Since many people are not going to give large sums of money (Pirates), the Social Acknowledgement from group must have a high value for the person's ego.
It is from this last portion the Social Acknowledgement that the Cult gains it's momentum and control.

Mind Control and Ego are common facets of Total Environment. Symbology has evolved in similar ways throughout the world;- yet homogenization of Symbology in meaning/definition is not uniform throughout the world.  I'm not talking about any traditional college courses here. These are attributes that I am attempting to define from my point of view at the organizational level of a Cult or group that is "Spiritually" inclined.

                    Actual Ego + Ideal Ego = Destruction or Resurrection of Ego

The Actual Ego, is the Ego in itself with it's natural flaws and understanding of Sin, Good & Evil.
When the Actual Ego enters the Cult, there is a significant impact of feeling "unworthy", due to dedication of time to values, that may be impressed on the individual. This unworthy feeling may be kept supressed by the new member. Some Cult members call this the testing period, other's use it as a crux for bending a person to surrender themselves to the Cult for fear of further rejection.

The Ideal Ego, (ie., the Divine person who is with God);- This is to say, some fantasized version of what life is like as a human, within human social constraints living perfectly with the Spiritual Value System. However, attached to the Ideal Ego is a typified Ultimate Personage. The Ultimate Personage is the spiritual version of Ideal Ego that is meditated upon and used for Actual Ego comparison check-in.

Destruction of Ego;- In fact, once the Prayer/Check-in with God/Meditation/Spell/Healing Energy is made the Actual Ego goes through a small, or large, destruction (aka to Humble oneself).  In extreme cases, the Actual Ego is annihilated/destroyed as a show of unworthiness in this realm of existence;- ie., Waco, Suicide bombers, Mass suicides. In a normal case, slight correction of an unbecoming behaviour or circumstance & attributing the correction to the Ultimate Personage/ Thaumaturgy/ God.

• The Cult already knows that most people "will believe in" the 10% they hear that is good.
• This Destruction of Ego is a small eye opening to see & change the 90% undesirable with the Cult's Value System.   

Resurrection of Ego;- The Actual Ego attains a "Theta state" while accepting the Cult programming. The Overall corrections to the Value System are comprehensive and emerge as to fit the desires/needs of the Cult. On a spiritual level, the Actual Ego has relaxed within the Cult environment and is attuned to the Value System in entirety and can insert pentagram to dictate change.

The Comic/Movie Deadpool uses the "Salvation Theory" justification theme
Incurable Death + Ultimate Cure = Deadpool

Spiritual Cults work on a similar platform.

INCURABLE DOOM + IMPASSIONED ELATED EXISTENCE = EXTREME PHENOMENA

write more later;- bedtime....m still sorting out all of this... groan. My worse than a vampire problem has subsided Skinwalker Navajo & Rosacrucians. Time taken over by retired? DELTA altar Military Contractor, Add back in JP Cult members tied to Yakuza gangs, and minus one Nutritionist who hates me who has White supremacy background and a huge Isis tattoo splayed on her back. I NEED SLEEP!!!!

My Vegan Diet -Today 31st March

Today I splurged on carbs (day off protein) after talking to a new nutritionist to me the nutritionist @ the gym I frequent. Her advice was to add poi or sweet potato carbs since I told her I kept crashing on my new water soluble diet after workouts. Today's food rang in @ $28. I shopped at Target and got local Hawaiian poi, almond milk, and bai5 bubbles. Close to average Hawaii price for a day of food with fresh veg's. 

POI IS POWERFUL!

I'm not supposed to eat grains at all (not just processed ones) but, I did eat those memorable Slave mentality based foods today from Panda.

1. 1lb poi (508cal) - ate 1/2 morning 1/2 night ($7)

2. panda bowl mix vegs- with BAD grains of low mein & chow fun-- they say all vegan.($7.80)

-- actually don't trust the eggplant tofu to be vegan here anymore. 

3. 1 gallon Califia Farms almond-coconut milk ($4) with 1 packet of mint Green2o ($2.87)mixed in. -better to dissolve Green in warm H20 1st.

4. 3oz Bai5 blood orange juice ($2) with BioSil drops.

5. 1 12oz iced coffee(3.60), 1tsp raw sugar

6. 2 Tbsp blanched almonds

My energy level is much better despite a more mentally stressful day than normal. This was a complete change from my daily protein diet. And I feel super full. And I didn't crash after eating all of this huge food for me.

Yesterday, I was invited to hear a band play at Hardrock (an ex coworker the singer)- my diet yesterday after the nutritionist chat steered carb wise to 1 rice dream mocha cookie, and a Dirty Martini 3olives & vegetable stack at Hardrock. I had a panda plate I split 2meals breakfast & late lunch with mostly mixed veggies, then eggplant tofu + some chow fun. 1protein shake with my coffee.

USA murder attempts on EX-IM

The United States decided to detain me from my home country of Japan, and has made several attempts to slaughter me. 

Each person I contact who works at a different agency has a particular political opinion. The total sum of their actions has damaged my life and is highly unacceptable for me to continue with my role in the USA.

Today, I'm revisiting the financial damage caused by Honolulu Police department and  a 2013 murder attempt made by a Nuclear Submariner in the USA Navy. I was never contacted by the Hawaii State or Honolulu prosecutor regarding the matter, as she was bought by the Navy.

USA military wants run guns through ASEAN Ex-im

USA is Only one country. Their military has expressed a want and need to run guns and more arms through ASEAN territory. They think it's great and their contribution to world peace.

ASEAN is comprised of 10 large Asian countries  on this planet working together without USA's new TPP agreement. 

Does the ASEAN world & its families really want to afford the risk of the USA? 

I don't want that ASEAN blood on my karma. 

Most USA citizens of any race or nationality think tearing apart other nations is a great money maker. They have zero regard for actual peace. 

Identity theft, sex trafficking & Hawaii

Just 2 generations since some of the Pacific's most historic battles, Hawaii's military culture has created an influx of civilian women who have been forced into the sex industry (aka the Industry).

One of the most common types of sex trafficking happens because of the severe "cultural" reliance on a wholesome family structure. Women of all ages arrive in Hawaii for a vacation, and are robbed of their crucial USA identification. Many of these women have abusive and unhelpful parents who have military backgrounds. Any identity information the parents hold "in good faith" for ther daughter is quickly lost (good faith) once needed in emergency. The parents refuse to surrender the identity information their kids who can be older adult women. 

This behavior coupled with discrimination for being "mainlanders" by the Hawaii State residents makes it nearly impossible for women to return to the mainland on a plane flight (without ID). 

No job, no money, no protection, no housing, many women are left to turn to the sex industry if not forced or coerced, in hopes of returning to their previous lives.

The common military mindset and 3rd world mindset thinks this use of its women "of age" is acceptable to "return the favor".

Forget Hawaii Security

People in 👘Japan are well aware that Yamaguchi-gumi & Yakuza gang factions are practically sworn enemies to my relatives. The fact that Hawaii is full of these legitimate United States Yakuza business people is not a hidden fact. Why anyone would think I'm doing "Great" since I landed in Hawaii is beyond me. I have to work in Hawaii's legitimate night clubs, where I am "allowed" by different Asian-Americans who choose to accept me. The money I make is barely what I made as a Part-time non-profit piano teacher and the hours are longer & tiring, especially since I have reached my 40's. I don't have energy for 2more jobs or the patience as those around me continuously take to creating "issues" and try to instigate legal issues. 

Twice, men who identified themselves to me as Yamaguchi-gumi tipped me $12 each time they warned me to stay out of Waikiki when they had meeting/outing, and to stay away from their end of Waikiki since Yakuza war began, a year prior to media acknowledgement. 

Everyone else, especially US military, remains numb to the actuality of what is going on. My life here is difficult, very poor in fact for Hawaii's multimillionaire scene. The US military pays rent here for the soldiers so they have nothing to fear.

Those are some of my issues with other Japanese alone. Then there is everyone else who terrorized me, especially From Phillipines who are like Yakuza gangs & are knowingly are jealous of my family relation that already brokers steel & builds infrastructure. Tell me how these people aren't terrorists? How am I to do USA Ex-IM in this insecure environment. That discludes the high level clearance US Military men who have tried to kill me while the local Honolulu Police stand by idle and Prosecutor succumbs to cheap tips from the other side, never contacting me.

I have no life left here in Hawaii, or the USA for that matter. I do hope for something better for me  than the people whom I have already met, in all fairness. 

This was a tough gig for this lifetime. 

Ps. Just an afterthought about how my treacherous 1month vacation in Hawaii ruined most of my financial life in the USA. How could he, The Martial arts security person with 31+ black belts including 5-6 Grandmaster titles, not understand that staying in Hawaii was a bad idea to force on me. He hisself told me that all the "Gangs" in Hawaii had asked them to train him. So someone please tell me where he gets away with involving federal & local law enforcement to in essence "pimp me out". Left me with bad credit, I wasn't able to pay bills once I landed here, ransacked what was possible out of my Social security number and His federal and local buddy ties at the banks & DOE. 

Now he's at wits end trying to save his parent's home (so he says). So how am I really supposed to trust him? I can't. I'm just wondering who's going to kill me first here in Hawaii. 

Ex-IM are the Doers

The Export Import world I know of and am familiar with is indifferent to religion. Trust is something that exists based on actual execution of business dealings. Trust is not something that follows behind the failed acknowledgement of some Christian's God, or anyone from any religion. American's seem to have a habit of screaming that they are Christian, which brings them online with their own views of domestic acceptance. They FAIL, in most circumstances, to engage and correctly complete most of what they proport they will do in fairness. And sometimes those with a proven track record fail because of those "Christians" who want to show off and ask for their forgiving God's pardon. 

I had the most Disgusting dinner:- I was listening to another biggot scream the word Christianity aloud, while trying to eat my moldy cooked mixed Veggies from Panda on Valkenburg. 

So amidst his smattering of Crowley and other names used to Justify the Christian background of USA culture and acceptence in USA military;-ugh such awful and annoying commentary.

American @ssh@l@s versus Terrorists

The United States of America is supposed to be a diverse place. However, despite weak attempts at incorporating diversity in the Corporate schema;- it has failed. There are large companies that have purchased multiple properties in the USA, in nearly every state. These companies are supposed to do some kind of minimal human rights standards. However, depending on the actual employees, their personal values, and the surrounding community;- they can be harsh and discriminate against their customers. Some places that are predominantly "Caucasian" will target non-Caucasian customers, harass them, break into their vehicles, confiscate laptops at coffee shops, and even call in their friends to terrorize these USA citizens. However, some of the non-Caucasians they target have not been USA citizens. So, it takes on an actual air of American Terrorists who target Foreign citizens. The USA cries loudly that they are "All Men are Created Equal". Most international people who have foreign citizenship have learned that is not the case;- even if they are also citizens of the United States.

It does translate;- that the USA has a plethora of quantifiable terrorists who pose a threat to the Peace & Security of the World more than the "Outright" terrorist attacks that we see in non-democratic countries.

The United States and it's common people attribute most of the attacks, rapes/ sexual assaults, aggravated assaults and other issues to common "Party" standards as well as college/University campus "Frat Party" standards of their Privileged intellectuals.  I think that it's time we call it what it is in the Worldwide media 'U.S.A. Terrorism."

USA airports & Personal security

Racism plan that pervades the business scene of the USA:- Because I am non-white & born a dual-national.

Federal security discrimination stolen my belongings in air travel including;- important and crucial items to my personal security. 

My experiences as well as those of other non "Caucasian" friends of mine who make substantial money in USA domestic oil and other industries, are shared. 

It seems that the airports target us as terrorists and confiscate our baggage. 

Now tell me, did they turn around and give someone my clothing, cellphone, and ID if they take my ID this time? 

Oh, and there is no complaint bureau.

Extra Monitoring USA - domestic travelers non-white

Brussels attack, has pushed forward the extra global monitoring time up from May 15th - June 15. Personal security for business travelers and other influential persons and future connections is at an extreme high. 

Many spiritual groups that include claimed Pleidian connections will travel into the USA for their international meetings;- May 15-May 30.

Those internationals taking extra precautions will have left the USA prior to their USA re-entry closer to meeting time, it may appear as atypical travel plan. 

Advice is to travel lightly as USA Airport security is prone to emotional outbursts and interferences, and slander in the airport in order to cause unneeded security disruptions. USA airport security is also subject to personal value sets (use Trump as an example) that do not coordinate with keeping global World peace.

They can and have confiscated anything one brings in USA airport through domestic changes;- including phone chargers and tearing down important means of personal safety & security communication. 

I was born a USA national;- I represented the USA at APEC in 2011. USA domestic airport security has severely compromised my own personal safety by creating extra delays and contaminating my baggage as well as destroying my communications. They cost me great agony with 1 carry on suitcase and no checkin baggage.

Prayers for @ Brussels

Dear God, & Master Healers;-

Please, 

for those affected by the Belgium terror attacks yesterday,

 for the Peace in the World and for those making preparations for the Security of Peace;- 

please quickly heal these wounds.

Please, take away this sacrifice,all, of suffering, Divine God. 

Please send patience, protection, and security & safety to myself & my family relatives, and to those adversely affected by the Brussels Airport Terror attacks.

Thank you.

Donald Trump foreign agent

Why is it that a white man who is alleged to have received funds from people in a foreign country isn't considered a foreign agent? 

It doesn't matter if he set up business from the United States. 

I think Donald Trump should be expelled.

EX-IM warning

 I received a death threat from the local Hawaii Iolani* crowd yesterday. More specifically, the Hawaii Iolani* crowd who are possibly pro-republican and run Hawaii's above ground sex trade- most likely part of Hawaii's old sex trafficking families.  Despite the Iolansters* being Asian minorities they are propping up a Trump for President message. 

The Hawaii Iolani crowd are isolationist and want to use that to Kill (me) & the new USA EX-IM efforts even if they don't agree with the Donald. 

*my stereotyping of Hawaii's crowd of private schooled people who are proud not to speak pidgeon (some from families remaining in the States for 3-4 generations) 

This all comes after last week's St. Patrick's day missile launch at Japan by North Korea. I was already put on "code red" 

I am Plant

Souls in Human bodies are like Leaves on a Tree and receive the Great Divine Light.

We are beings of the Great Divine Light and life-giving force.
The variations that make our unique human body are part of our physical gift from God.
My human form, is gifted with being able to sustain itself on minerals, water, some plant matter, and chloryphillins as well as  on plant life and filled with the Great Divine Light and of God's creation.

My next task, as others have indicated is for me to switch my human form to a light-based diet of light alone. We may see the future as humanity as sustainable if this is accomplished.

Receive God's Light like Leaves on a Tree

Everyday, I am surrounded by human beings with souls. Many of them choose to identify themselves with what they call "races".  These are seemingly unimportant physical traits. Nearly All of these traits have a different quality in their material presence. The human races speak of these "physical qualities" as being superior to another human being with a soul.

Over the millennia, These discussions about "race" have transcended the physical and started to dominate the spiritual perceptive plane of souls given human bodies. So then, today the spiritual world is clouded by the physical differences.  The more constraints a human being allows to inhabit their body = the more they are clinging to their humanness. Souls in human bodies worship God's creation of the human physical form.  These souls are engaging conversations as to who is more spiritual by receiving divine light that are directly linked to melanin in humans. It is all there to belittle or entertain those who enjoy oppression. 

This has little to do with being "God centered". Being God centered is allowing oneself, as a soul inhabiting a human body (a gift of solid matter from God) to reclaim their truly divine nature.

A Life Beyond Numbers

We are taught we are "of God" in nearly every spiritual discourse. God the Almighty is infinite. We all have some quality of God with us as we walk this Earth Eden. 

Money, quantifies many legal & illegal interactions between humans in life. Money is a finite system because it is unable to withstand the bounds of Time that define human bodily mortality. Rarely, does anyone address the quality of the human perception experience from the world of spirits & souls or interstellar realms. Money is the greatest human excuse to define otherwise Godly traits. 

Those who have unconditional love of others are scoffed at by prostitutes. 

Those who are peaceful and enjoy a non-violent frame of mindset are ridiculed as weak by the violent Warriors and militarists. Many of these Violent warriors were enchanted by the lust of violence, money rewards, and shows of courageous strength, only to succumb to  trying to make a living sharing their violent framed Mindset's version of living peacefully. 

Families who stay together for the sake of their children and the family can become are troubled & face legal humiliation compared to the broken families of unmarried couples who compete financially to secure welfare distributions. The children rarely grow up with unconditional love in their presence. 

 These are just a few examples, why humanity as a whole must steer away from money. 

Today Earth Eden is becoming decrepit with mortality and conditional love based on money. There must be a way to regain Eden and save the precious gift this world full of transient souls has. The beautiful environment Earth Eden once was a place full of unconditional love and light. To make Earth Eden a place where there is less hatred and grandeur of false kingship & queenship that destroys more families. To make the world peaceable once again without it falling into states of anarchy and chaos due to the human attachment of money. The Earth countries will fall. They will fall swiftly to a spiritual bath like lemmings over a sea cliff. 

To live, without money. To live with life. To live with abundance of health. To live with a new creed and renewed spiritual investment in God's manner. This is ultimate health. This is ultimate peace & freedom. 

Light Based Organization & old Nazi ideals

Many of the light-based organizations I have experienced during my time & distributing light and receiving light in Hawaii are highly offensive to me. There is an air reminiscent of Nazi ideals. This includes manipulation of my cranium and its classification. They claim to have some end goal in common. They claim that they are "cleansing the earth" of toxins. Or on the reverse, that the material world is toxic and not of God or spiritual body because it is solid matter. 

The members of thes organizations and their leaders and staff are highly critical of me. They are astonished that I can speak any language, let English. They are souls who worship the human form, not God. 

About Life on Earth...today

Why is it that the world it's not progressed? 

When the great architectural monuments were built on the earth, humans had little money and immense connection to God.

The reasoning below has not followed;- slave forces are employed with paper and metal objects/coins that have significant value to objects/goods that destroy the life force of the planet. 

Maybe humans don't know how to connect to God any longer. They cannot live without their shelters. Well, Soon they cannot live with them!!! 

The path to true freedom exists. Desperation from Money exists. 

Instead of working on spirituality and unconditional love amongst each other, humans have worked to create even more mortality in exchange of money!

It is an exchange of constant death!!!

Humans today have fallen from the unconditional love the Masons  and builders of the past created by providing shelter to many!!!

Long gone are the thoughts;-

If you have little money and the ability to build a house. You can have a house of your own someday.

If you have billions of dollars yet no ability to build a house. You will never have a house that is truly your own. 

Today, for humanity to survive they must leave the finite interactions of their numbers system. Every interaction to make finite sets of human interactions must cease! It's very existence is collapsing What remains of the life force God gave to the Earth. 

Nuclear war & energy destroys God's lesser spiritual beings. This is a sign of the need to keep What remains, the remnants of God's creation. It was a grand project, souls will be annihilated.

Spirituality & Light giving orders

• Light - what is it?
• False Teachers

Light is Light esteemed on its own & encompasses the Duality of the Ying-Yang concepts. Ying-Yang washes away the "good & evil" of human actions with perception of the Read (like colors juxtaposed). Many people are familiar with the "Dark" side.  To accept "life force" through the filter of conditional and finite human belief systems like "money" is not of God. If life force is equated to money in actuality;- most human activity would stop and halt if it were an absolute fact of existence.

Light giving, sounds super obscure. To give, the intangible "light" or more appropriately "to distribute" light. Light, is what spiritualists call by different names and have different Quality;
Human Light without God= Source,  Life Force, Chi(Ch), Reiki (JP), Photons,
Human Light with God = God's Light, Divine Light, Okiyome (JP), Heilstrom(De).

Some religions consider "distributing light" the same as blessing objects, food, living beings with an extra dose of God's source energy. it can become more obscure with occult pendants/talismans with "Alien technology", Guardian angel, other "hired" angels, guiding Pleiadians (or other ET), or a deceased spirit of a prior member/spiritualist as claims.

"The Devil is Mighty, God is Almighty." ~ Bruno Groening, master healer & mystic

Highly desired: Find a donation based teacher or "free" access to teachings and do book research.

Undesired:  Entrapments and disruption from Light based organizations/cults and spiritualists cause by social pressure of giving donations.

Light is "assumed" to be given when a person develops the attribute of unconditional love further.
However, part of the teaching that runs consistent is that there are False Teachers.
These "False Teachers" are the organizations and sects of spiritualists and religions who attempt to pilfer the pockets of their students. This seems to be more prevalent in Euro-centric countries and traditions that don't have "free" monastery based educational & boarding systems.

Charging for Light service/ learning and demanding donations is considered to be on the same plane as the martial arts fopas to 'charge' for lessons;- lending itself to corruption of an influx of money and glitz that stems from perpetuators of crime. This is regardless of what God lets humans do.
To stay on the path of light, is regardless of the social constructs of Human social systems;- difficult indeed. God, does not force us to be part of the Divine energy source. It is part of God's plan, to allow us to remain flawed in our sins and die. Asking forgiveness is possible. Transcending the limitations of this existence remains in our abilities to navigate the asteroid belt of dark matters that others put in our path.

Hawaii Govt. killing Ex-IM

My USA Export Import politica life on Oahu;-  

Trying to find security here on Oahu is very difficult for me. I need personal space on days like today. Personal space of being left alone to cry in utter anguish. I am burning both ends of the candle so to speak. That "all light" diet seems to be coming to my life soon as the world is so terse. I've tried my best to hang on for everyone else...despite their sheer ignorance.

My prior apartment/house in Mililani were frequently broken into. That probably includes Military intelligence. Some of those compromising security were the security officers themselves due to how impoverished the cost of living is and a lack of "legitimate" funds for their personal credit rating to remain intact.

-The Kapahulu end of Waikiki is out due to Japanese gangs who own hotels on island. 

- Some of the gangs seem to manipulate online browsing;- Craigslist, etc.

- Hawaii Kai has gone to the Koreans who are blatantly racist due to Samsung's 50mil home being built in the neighborhood.

- St. Louis heights goes to Mexican mafia who have dominated in the federal buildings construction contracts & security on island. 

That's just for a few. I'm exhausted from the tension I feel today. I want a safe quiet space of my own where I can use the bathroom quietly and know when I enter someone isn't going to try and kill me. 

I wish I could say to the dumdums -- what I think of them exactly:- how bad their perception is skewed. 

USA + North Korea vs Japan

Apparently it wasn't spiritually enough for the USA to have already broken my heart to pieces this past decade;- today I got the news that North Korea has launched missiles at Japan. My heart, I thought I felt no more, is in great pain.

30' foot Archangel & acre of rainbow in sky.

There were distinct atmospheric changes in what I would call an approx 1.5mile radius.

Today,  a large archangel approx 30' foot tall appeared in my spiritual perception. The sky/ atmosphere was grey, cloudy, cold, and rainy. Beyond the archangel/ dark angel was a very wide rainbow patch in against more sunny clouds;- seeming to be over 20"wide in the sky going towards Kailua, Hawaii on Oahu.

No leprechauns 

ACV - Best Car Freshner ever

Apple Cider vinegar (ACV)bottle of Bragg's;- It opened in my car and soaked in the passenger carpet & seat. OMG!
It stunk so bad for 2 days.
HOWEVER, the 3rd day after it all evaporated.
My car didn't have any damp moldy smell from tropical rain, there were no cockroaches.
I think it killed everything and smelled new and fresh.
Good thing my interior is a light color & Cloth!

Now, I keep a spray bottle of
Hydrogen Peroxide mixed with a couple teaspoons of ACV & water
and a few drops of wintergreen to freshen my cloth car interior.

Works great.

Personal check-in - a MK

Today, I'm just really angry. I suppose it's like my monk said after my meditations lead me to a complete center of pure rage, "maybe you need to feel anger". I tried to live  and peacefully control my moods every day. 

I lived in normal American environments, exposed to normal biological factors. The person who was my brother;- was exposed to the worst Irradiation. We are the World's actual test dummies for consumer stupidity and poor decisions. We are a test group of the biological actuality of nuclear weapons usage. I, have been asked to write "a book" since I was 21. Today I am in my 40's.

As a part of this civilian USA & Japan governments influenced social program called MK Ultra;- as well as genetical program after Hiroshima was bombed; – and sadly raised within arms reach of Rosacrucians cult leaders in Bucks County, PA. I'm infuriated at the people who are civilians who have profited from the government experiments that have so influenced my life in every aspect. 

For me, it has been a lifetime of psychological protocol from MK ultra protocols that I have been fighting.  My controllers know that I was able to create a conscious partition in my memory  to where i was able to store and thus able to clearly recollect otherwise "unconscious programming sessions."  They called this my defiance disorder when I was 25. I I survived Everything from protocol administered physical, psychological, and emotional torture to financial devastation. At 17, I entered a liberal arts college in Ithaca, NY as a dual major set to have 2 Bachelor's degrees by 21 and my 1st Master's degree by 22. Instead I went into my "Alice program protocol" and became an organizer who founded an active rights group & voted president of the environmental society. I delved into my own physical fitness and also visual arts including turn of century DIY computer animation at the advent of the 1st G3 computer. At which point my controllers from same town Cornell University sloppily implanted NLP enneagrams that I was able to express to the community with conscious awareness. It was a relentless battle for me at that time. 

Today, the public talks about MK Ultra as if it happens everywhere & to everyone like sliced bread. They tout killing the planet with their highly toxic lifestyles as "uncontrollable" because of their slave mentality. 

Cost of Living in Hawaii

Hypothetical clean living indoors in a place that is NOT infested with rats. Even at $1500 there still may be Rats fighting over food in the kitchen;- I've heard of places for $2100/month with rat infestation issues. 

My main issue is health related with mold. 

20 days to work in a month 5 day workweek. 

$1500 apartment / 20 days = $75

$300 utilities / 20 days = $15

______________________________

$1800 a month /20 days = $90/ day

Tax @ 12% would be like $285 a month.

This doesn't include food costs, transportation, other basic bills.

Looks like time to leave the Rainbow State!!!

Growing up Half Japanese in a white community

Like other "successful" kids I attended church and High school with, I was pulled out of my Classes during school to attend Ala-teen meetings. My parents faults were blaring to my community that was already heavily white supremacist influenced. It was a difficult balancing act for me to maintain since I was teetering on the brink on being thrown into foster care in an unacceptable and racist community. My parents abuse was overshadowed by the negtivity I endured throughout my public school years In Quakertown, Pa. it had been difficult to separate the bruises I was smattered with from girls beating me up each recess in front of teAchers and the ones I received at home for not being a worthy student. I was told that Corporal punishment wasn't illegal in Pennsyvania so I really didn't matter to the school or church ( where more abuses happened).

It was something I endured and kept my hope up since I knew I had acceptance in my other home country of Japan.

Sick of Majority attitudes.

I don't consider most of my activist/ organizing life as a "minority, mixed race, dual citizen, female"  to be a "privilege" in the USA, aside from the fact that I wasn't immediately slaughtered like those living in communist countries. The activism stems from a severe lack of healthy friendships, support, and caring throughout my education from Nursery school through the start of my Master's degree.
There simply is only so much one person can do of their own volition, despite the ridicule and abuse the surrounding community dishes out and then decry that they are the one's being punished because hearing my complaint is "highly offensive" to them.

The martial art of finding peaceful space

Even when one is in a mostly violent environment, there are very tiny physical places to exist in peace if only momentarily. Not all space is occupied by violent assault against physical existence.  

Each time we breathe it is an affirmation of living the great gift;- the melody of God's will & divine order. 

Death, Environment & Peace

The most common way of death (to die), will be the most likely cause of death. 

Feminism, tampons,& Hawaii

There has got to be a way. Oahu, isn't the Mecca of untamed Brazilian bikinis after Big Wave season and the surfers leave North Shore by March.  

So rest of the year, women- are heavyset housewives, pastey, untanned, skinny, can't stand on the beach when white water washes in after the low tide shore break Tourists and residing foreigners. 

I hope u get the picture. 

So for the rest of the local women who are exotic prey to the men visiting the islands 366/24/7;- maybe the others don't understand we can't ALWAYS keep a stock of emergency tampons!!!

Since they ELImINaTeD almost all tampon dispensers in every restroom, local women ask for tampons from each other...there goes emergency stock. Then for those of us who are active and use soft. Cups or diva cups- accidents accumulated blood to happen and 1 tampon isn't enough backup to have in Just lucky it's not in the Sharkie waters of O beach.

Plus;- they stopped selling TRaVEL size packs. So, no shopping, no events, and only the slimmist evening  bag. For those of us who like natural plan, taking pills to stop The Flo isn't a good option.

Ugh...prices are ridiculous!!!!

Hawaii guys- "Community Leader" type

The "Community Leader" 

He is respected by his community through a variety of organizations. Not all of these men are bad to date, however, watch out for the bad ones. Underneath their strong & statured posturing as a role model;- the stress will be vented somewhere where he thinks no one is looking. Every type of abuse can be dished out freely financial, physical, emotional. Usually the financial & physical abuse are firsts and he considers your emotional response to him "your problem alone" because His feelings are superior and more worthy of attention.  He may be single & seem baggage free. However, because of his position, he firmly believes that the social organizations for abused women exist specifically so he CAN abuse women and not feel bad about it because "someone" will take care of them. 

If you can't handle making a community spectacle of your disaster, you will suffer silently & alone.

Church or no church

BSitting trying to decide to go to church or not in 20min. It's not that I don't have a belief in God. It's the hogwash of condescending & outright judgemental congregations that I can't stand from the moment I walk in the door. For the Lutherns, how I was raised, the complete  negative environment of white supremacy  prevails. Then in Hawaii, I already found out that the Japanese & Koreans here feel the need to be more outright evangelists and whiter than anyone;- without much of an inkling for regular Christian values in daily life. It's a shame I have a tan. I'm too dark for them now. 

Ugh. Then another round of telling me I don't know how to meditate or breathe correctly followed by their derogatory remarks that they send sailing in my direction. Ugly;- in entirety. I am in utter disgust. 

Small Space Craft to fall to earth

Use your chi/ life energy force to keep the beings in these craft alive. When they crash to the earth they loose the cosmic force that is outside the earth's atmosphere that they use to stay afloat. Unless you channel your chi/ light force, life force to these small craft, they will not survive. Please take them to a temple where monks and others meditate all day.
Several small and very heavy spacecraft, much like a traditional flying saucer. Small as in within the circumference of a basketball, yet much heavier & denser like a lead weight with an usual center of gravity. (yet still within carrying weight with both hands). They are very heavy and with a matted metallic sheen. The surface is detailed, with some windows if any;- yet there are no other apparent openings to pry open.
These craft will glow with light/ life force if you are able to channel and
focus your energy to them.

Please take them to a Temple for Buddha or Krishna if you come upon one of these craft. They are precious beings from God & the heavens.

Starbucks Vs Coffee Bean

Starbucks new rewards program that starts up soon had me weighing in the collection of coffee shop spending cards I have piled up. It's Hawaii (the Coffee State--they could put beans on my license plate & I'd be happy) I have at least a half dozen  locations I frequent. 

This is in the order of like ability, not convenience:- 

1. Green World coffee

2. Coffee Bean

3. Taco Bell (yes I like their coffee & drive through & will splurge on a dry & cheeseless potato soft taco for $1.39 )

4. Starbucks 

5. 7-11

My demographic;- vegan on the paleo side. coffee, nuts, occasional meal my NY bagel, and coffee or tea lattes & Americano made with Almond milk #1&2 carry. Or coconut milk or occasional soy. Free wi-if for my online international spiritual group meetings and to catch up on Asian politics news & elections. 

Starbucks has little value when I weigh it out on spending $$ for rewards instead of per drink. Except convenience and domination in airports. 

My most recent letter to Starbucks

Many times I am a customer at Starbucks here on Oahu, your staff makes me look like I have a problem. Today, I decided to write because I purchased a toasted bagel, and they gave me only 1jam packet. I took a photo so you can see how a thin layer covers the surface area of only 1&1/2 of the bagel. 

Otherwise I am unhappy with the racism directed at me from some of your "Caucasian" baristas who say they can't understand  my English. I'm 41 and attended Ithaca College and Cornell University and have been a PR spokesperson for environmental groups and currently do volunteer for an international spiritual 501c3 as well as Hawaii for Hillary. I also happen to have been a USA rep for EX-IM as I have a somewhat political but definitely corporate founding family relatives in Japan. I know people judge by appearances here in Hawaii. 

I also wish you would have almond milk on your menu. My nutritionist dislikes my eating soy, grain, fruit. I am allowed nuts, coffee, tea, and veggies, avocado. I saw the rewards program is changing and so I want to tell you;- I will have to switch to Coffee Bean entirely:- because they have almond milk. And for a little more their bagels (convenience for me) have PB on them and I can take bananas off. I am not supposed to eat fruit with any other foods. 

Additionally, dairy Milk is expensive on this island. Aside from my veganism;- many people here regularly drink soy and almond milk, which is also less expensive at the market. 

I love the convenient locations of Starbucks;- but if $ for $ I have to choose between you and Coffee Beanery;- they will win. 

Ideal illusions today

TPP is old talk in the USA already. Long forgotten is Hillary's conversation about generating economic support in 3rd world ASEAN nations for WOMEN to sell in online cottage industry. The actuality of it occurring is that it generated some $120mil in revenue

For Obama's childhood Home State, despite a more "Republican" canter that WILL always happen when dealing when not scorching and burning nations that USA engages in EX-IM.

For yours truly;- the politics are a total wash of actuality disparity and well intentioned thoughts that amount to less than nothing. The stress placed on me to perform in business with such anticipation of cash flow directly from Japan is so misplaced. That is in actuality aside from some personal commitment to info flow.

If u read my blog the politics of misperceptions plagues my life at the ground level. I'm back to thinking in terms of ideal illusions. 

2016 Presidential Campaigns are for WW3

Today I received a Honolulu, HI Hillary Clinton Office call from a 69 year old woman named Caroline. The call was asking me to do some phone banking 4:30pm-8pm Hawaii Time from the Business district/ Chinatown office.

After spending the morning trying to clear my energy in meditation, I've come to realize that this 2016 Presidential Election is not about the Trade Deals &  It is not about popularity or women's issues or American Jobs.

This 2016 Election is about which candidate will be the BEST equipped American President to perform through WW3.  

Ex-Im recommendation

The Hawaii police and other military and security In The state are (common knowledge) corrupt and deal cocaine and other narcotics. These are common ways for Hawaii's wealthy to pay for their upkeep.

To be cost effective, Hawaii should be operated more like Burmuda. Since landowners and condo owners are the only "residents" who have exercised rights in the islands:- they should increase the median home value to $1,000,000.00. Then eliminate most of the general goods shipping (since many current residents are already claiming to be poor).

 Only the well prepared and places like Costco would be able to afford to bring goods to the island. This isn't to discount the US military flagrantly importing mainland households full of knickknacks a and furniture. Also less security checks are done on these military household shipments. 

 Property taxes & housing association fees might come from legitimate sources. The perpetual crime of Hawaii's previous "international and wealthy" might subside a little and stop affecting what was middle income families with properties @$500,000-700,000 range. Remember, these are also multigenerational households.

 Hawaii needs to clean up. 

Overnight Geniuses

Some boys or men become geniuses overnight, because they took the ignored reccommendations of an intelligent woman. 

Truth.

This happens to sometimes create the "overnight success" as well.

Hawaii is full of Ugly men

So today barely started and the sign I made has already attracted attention. One Korean-American souring Chinese mob looking guy yelling "you bitch" at me with authentically womanizing African-American rap blasting out of his car. Another his friend across the street from him with a blue bandanna around his mostly shaven head. Verbal harassment has begun, not sure where it's going this lunchtime. 

Seems they left. Hope not to see the Asian gangsters again.

The Adult Oahu Community at large

There is a plethora of under disciplined and psychologically under developed parents of children in Hawaii. These parents seem to target people (women) who attended colleges & universities. They target the educated and more worldly, for ridicule, abuse, and outright assault.  These HS graduated parents ridicule the educated because to them it isn't "money". They ridicule those who completed higher education because their personalities are like high school bullies. Yet the Hawaii state communities promote more children in Martial arts than anything. It seems with such low Higher education attendance and completion Most people in Hawaii want to do everything for Money only.

 It is lacking in cultured "music" and fun things to do that are intellectual ( science museums, art museums, affordable and frequent Theater & live non-tourist oriented shows) because most of the residents feel they should be payed for everything. This attitude creates a negative environment for the children. 

Adults playing in "paid" ensembles only have credibility with the local crowd. Obviously without an overall educated and cultured crowd;- the actual global quality is Highly questionable. 

This small & main island of Oahu has approximately 960,000 people. Now please tell me that their children Have enough things to do to prevent them from becoming criminally inclined to prevent boredom. i doubt it. Instead the locals have historically promoted "buy me drinkie bars" where patrons spend $20-$80 per drink to sit with a woman who resides on the island. This is favored over programs for children that would afford group lessons in music or art with someone who is at very least degreed, which would be a small fee in exchange for the expense of time and money to learn the art the instructor could share if desired. There are less than a handful, if any local and 501c3 Music & Art schools that are on the islands. Little to no appreciation exists out here. The disrespect of persons is equated with them throwing away a luxury handbag. 

It's clear and visibly obvious  that the community is small and closed, that they appreciate tattoos, military funding, and making embarrassing international spectacles or Incidents of some newcomers or vacationers. The rest of everyone I've met seem to be extremist in their religion, sexism, and what I consider to be display of emotionally Unevolved high school mentality. 

Got WW3?

Securing Hawaii as a USA State:- 

1. Have state or federal cards for Any aged FT/PT resident regardless of Citizenship who enrolls in a martial arts school or lessons.

2. Make Hawaii's residential Town Associations and  Housing or Condo associations Liable for damages caused by members of martial arts schools which they allow to use facilities. Especially any practicing "ninjutsu"

Hawaii's warriors, locals, military personnel, drug dealers, mafia, drunkards with beer guts, H.S. Graduates and holy persons are looking forward to WW3. They LOVE!!! I mean LOVE their MMA guys! (I personally dislike it though if I don't tolerate it someone else will physically assault my 5'2 petite frame.)

In towns all over Oahu at least, there are tons of Martial arts classes that are supported by their community and non-profit town associations. Then many of the coaches... But are the role models for all the kids and parents to follow. They create completely abusive communities and felt the need to hang up and destroy my life...their communities and police allowing people to sit in the hall outside my door and crack the key lock box and break in.  Etc etc etc...

 They don't call this art of war for nothing. Hawaii's i.e., Mililani Town Association definitely finds this amusing. Downtown Honolulu is an absolute nightmare for me that I feel was deserving of security bearing m16 lined rooftops and security barriers. 

The fact that I was forced to live in this state here is appalling. Though the Hawaii based martial arts instructors seem to also think it's funny to take the niece of a Japanese steel broker and make me worse than a lowlife Hoe even in a 3rd world country, throw her on the street and destroy my credit. All thanks to their martial arts associations and members- of which is the entire HAWAII community;- since there are a lot of business people who don't want to be involved with the disaster they created.

I personally HATE Most of Oahu due to these people. Even Philadelphia has better people coming out of its ghettos who are more responsible. How Hawaii state isn't liable for creating these conditions is beyond me-- Cause Obama didn't want it. 

Rant over....these people make the world worse. They should Ban martial arts or make the students have registered fighting cards from the start.

United States Export Import - my common observations

Basically, in my lifelong experience with international business;- the average U.S. Citizen thinks that the Export Import world is Brand new. They forget the inception of the USA as an independent nation. They forget the Boston tea party and Marco Polo & the historical Silk Road. And some have never heard of the Diamond path, or know of old trading between Japan and Korea long ago which resulted In a special coin minted in 1710. For some reason this history and more is dismissed from thought in the average USA citizen's mind. Trade to them is sliding a plastic card that calculates debt and tracks it in exchange for goods from abroad. 

•Most of them want to kill people who mention Ex-Im and rob us. 

•They literally think that Asia is their personal slave labor, regardless of governments or family legacies. This is much like their environmentalists advocating to save USA environment but it's ok if they trash China to buy their baby toys and goods.

•They want all the money themselves and don't understand the privledge of doing trade with other Countries. 

•USA views international trade as Their own "gift" to the world.

•They view this behavior as being blessed and Godly, like a child who consumes all the cakes and candies around and crying for more after stricken with an upset stomach.

• in today's world those motivated to make money are Special Ops US military and only want to promote the sale of guns in foreign countries as their own brand of exported terrorism. 

Breathing Meditations

  My latest mantra bottom of page image ... 

Getting into the EX-IM world some of my Japanese relatives have constructed over the centuries, has definitely increased the stress in my life. I've picked up several Breathing meditations over the years. This is despite my spending hours each day performing advanced solo classical piano music for 30+ years of my life. And oddly none of the below were my very 1st meditation. And aided me as my stress & situations changed. 

1. basic seated Mysticism meditation- sit in chair with feet on floor, legs side by side, and open hands face up or down resting on knees or thighs. Breathe in and follow the draw of air your lungs take in. Breathe out and follow the exhalation of air your body releases. Start with 3-5minutes and work up to 15-20min. Idea is to focus on breath, should clear other invasive thoughts.

2a. Sand mandala meditation - Om mane  pad me hung.  Om is the beginning of all Buddhas, mane is he who holds the emerald & Padme is he who holds the lotus flower, hung is the end/closure of the Buddha. Picture Chenrezig with this mantra to give it more substance. Some people use the Mala - bead string when chanting.  

2b. 4part Namgyal Chenrezig meditation - see above and add thought of "please give me the gift of cleanse my soul", with each repetition & With Mala. 

3.  Sangha meditation from reading- my favorite was from Pema Chodron's Writings, or Dali Lama 365 I received from my Monk.

4.  Tonglen - breathe in all the dark & heavy thoughts, breathe out the light

5.  Christian meditation - opposite of Tonglen to Breathe in the light and positive & breathe out the dark and heavy  energy.

6. Krishna meditation mantra - Hare Hare Krisna. 3x

7.  Lotus meditation - Nam Myoho renge Kyo repeat several times and think of what one desires in life.

8.  Ogamisana meditation- Nam Myoho Renge Kyo with different accented syllable. Has different meaning. Say with hands at heart level in prayer position, some move hands shaking up and down with the mantra.

Me with that look-- are you kidding me?!!!!! again.

9. Classical Christian Mystic type meditation- I kind of made it up- like basic meditation above. Increase mental activity with 3-5minutes Bach or orchestral music and sit with eyes closed. Then do basic meditation after saying Lord's Prayer (I said every night as a child). Ask to connect to God before beginning the breathing meditation. 

10. Pilates ball mediation - sit on Pilates ball and pick a color that comes to mind. Do basic breathing meditation and focus on this color you chose entering your body on the inhale, follow it through your lungs till it  fill your lungs & diaphragm (make your diaphragm large like a ball) until you slowly exhale the color. Can interchange colors when it becomes easier. 

11. Starchild meditation- breathe in ultraviolet and breathe out cobalt blue 3x. 

I've made my own Mala or power bracelets for the People from the stars meditations I do.

12. My newest self made HawAiian based mantra- Aho, Mau loa, Kau a Kau

Clinton VS TPP - TPP was always a Clinton Farce.

In Hawaii, there is a high turnover of US Naval military forces. Due to this turnover, I have met more than a dozen Navy Seals and other US military special operatives & ex special operatives military. Most of them have considerable pull in the military community. Most of the ones whom I have met absolutely HATE Hillary Clinton. They also seem to be animatedly PRO Donald Trump.

I can't say I agree with either 2016 presidential candidate, though I would try my best to err on the side of world calm & peace & non-violence. Wow, that leaves me with? No choice. none that is any good. In the past I would have voted for Hillary just for the fact that the USA hasn't had a female in Office. That alone is huge. Then add in the fact that she is a mother.
However, with her current stance on the TPP and making internal domestic changes, I can't blame her for being AGAINST the TPP that she purported in 2011 APEC here in Honolulu. After reflection of the past 20 years of my life with 9 years around the Clinton boys in Ithaca, NY. I really can't say that it seems to me that they EVER intended NOT to promote a WW3. The Clinton Boys crowd paid my ex to prevent me from paying my bills, leaving the USA to see my Obasan (Japanese grandmother) as well as other (150) relatives in Japan. They directly undermined my Japanese citizenship and put me into a Stateless issue when I leave the USA. I have in fact been held a HOSTAGE in the USA by the Clinton crowd. And, then they directly contributed to making my financial life dysfunctional in entirety.

In addition, today (after a day notice that her office opened in Honolulu, HI this morning), I showed up just to converse. I met Doug Pyle who is the Vice Chair for the Democratic National Committee Hawaii. He seemed to take a subtle abusive male stance in asking me if I could comprehend anything. That alone made me fume. Let alone his "inability" to say a Japanese family name to whom I have direct family relation. That aside from his admitted limited understanding of International Laws and EX-IM issues. So, despite his coming from a "public health background" the USA yet again FAILS to place entirely domestic people OUTSIDE of the international community where they are less disruptive. This is Hawaii. Minority and National discrimination has taken on a new meaning for 3rd and 4th generation Americans of Japanese descent. They SCOFF and ridicule people like me for being born of dual nationality as they are doing their best to undermine my validity in USA culture.

SO, despite ASEAN telling me that they DON'T NEED the likes of the Trans-Pacific Protocol TPP in 2005;----(long pause) The Clinton Crowd already Proved their intention in my life by 1999/2000.
I got away from them in 2000 and was able to piece my life back together till 2005 (despite being abducted 2x by IRA related Golf Course people in 2006 and an American Caucasian North Korean associate @2002). It took 5 years to get back to surviving on my own after college graduation in 1999. Then was destroyed by the Clymers in Pennsylvania and other Republican and White Supremacists as well as trying to prove themselves NAACP people who ganged up on me and killed my brother. That loss was HUGE in 2005. 
It's ever so difficult for me to see HOW exactly we aren't going to Have a WW3 with the USA.

America scoffs at my Japanese relatives and family members. And, the USA has trashed my life in entirety in a display of "Freedom" that reads worse than the news I read of women trapped in a Muslim Country.

Vegan eats in Oahu

Best places for cost effective veggies;- 

These aren't ideal, however cost effective

-Panda Express - large mixed veggies side @$5.20

-Starbucks - coconut or soy latte -venti $5.69 has Nuts & Kind bars if u eat them.

Rare- salad with rice & tahini @$8

- Down to Earth - salad bar $9.99/lb has organic food & hot bar with vegan chili & rice @ $7.50/lb.

-Krishna Temple- donation based Prasadam. Not all food is vegan, but enough selections. And is all vegetarian, buffet style.

-Farmers stands @ North Shore Kamehameha Hwy about .5miles before Turtle Bay. variety of seasonal tropical fruits & local avocado. Sandwich ziplock Bags of pre-cut fruits $3-$5 on ice & ready to eat. biggest selection.

 Also stand @ Dole Pineapple plantation parking lot, limited selection.

- Macadamia nut stand - Haleiwa across from park. go to 2nd Haleiwa exit at light before old wood Surfer signs. Stand on left. $9-15 bag of macadamias. Different flavors. Salad dressing too.

- Vitamin Shoppe in Pearl City carries biggest vegan supplement selection.

War of *Children - cult of Sukyomahikari

Sukyomahikari member contacted me while I was beginning a session on an Scumann Frequency Mat while being stricken with only a Toxic black mold in my bloodstream. She wouldn't leave the space and at the advice of the Services overseer's, I caved to agree to receive light for her sake.

Shortly after Sukyomahikari contacted me, my life fell apart in entirety.

I joined SukyoMahikari In February 2015 after a "divine act" of my next day's membership class fee of $250 appearing in my life overnight. My first month, I spent 6-8hrs a day at the Dojo giving light (Okiyome), and taking 50 minutes each day to receive Okiyome. I didn't make it through the year with the very intense Omitama and cruel conservative attitudes of the Japanese women in the Dojo once I joined. People around me said I looked drained like I hadn't slept. There were random odd occurances of my car breaking down and the unusual appearances of other Sukyomahikari members.
I even had taken "selfies" before and after I attended the Dojo since this is a Light based practice.
The selfies looked somewhat normal. However they did show severely large and darker areas around my eyes than normal even for being tired, my face had a "death mask" on it.

I returned the Omitama several times to be reconsecrated. The Omitama itself felt like it held "fear" of another being. It was like a lost scared and hungry kitten clinging to me with claws extended.
By August of 2015, I returned the Omitama not to rejoin. I had been disgusted by the smell of "sex" at the signin table. And then appauled that they were conducting Hula in the basement. After I left the daily presence of the Cult a 2nd time and returned my Omitama, (yes I could lie like other members about its HOLINESS), I was called to pick up the Omitama. When I tried to make arrangements, the basement of the Center had been flooded (or Cleansed). The Sukyomahikari members and staff told me I could only enter at certain times because they lost the entire basement level to Waterdamage. The waterdamage was talked about in a happy manner that they couldn't believe that such a freak accident could happen. The building flooded from the outside, as drainage grates were clogged from a pipe that burst in a planter. Then the water continued to seep overnight in the lower stairwell till it was filled, and then continued to seep through the door at the bottom of the staircase.
I thought and felt I had seen enough. I left several times due to other members not heeding my request of not pressing into my cerebral spinal system too hard. I felt that they were intentionally trying to hurt me.


 I did learn that the "will of God" was presented as any member saw fit as they all contained some of God like a "drop of water from the Ocean is still Ocean". However, the continual presentation of "God's Plan for Humanity" was irritating.  To me, there is one plan GOD has for all of us, and that is DEATH.

Today, in Metaphysical hindsight;- I feel that the Cult has a figurehead who used to practice a Chinese form of Wizardry in Dao. Shapeshifting, connecting spiritual cords of members, and tying his spirit to the Mortal human world to become a greater metaphysical entity. Since he spent his time on the Planet Earth as a Japanese Military leader, I do not want my more peaceful energies to be used by such an entity. He may be a black eyed child of the stars when he returns in form again. 

Overpopulation & Agony - Calm & meditation

Imagine the sound frequency wave of 5 to 6 billion people who are mentally suffering in spiritual agony.

The Sounds of their words lack meaning because their prior actions were not of Love & Respect for another. The words they speak lack the depth of their actions done in Love and peace. And So, they have thoughts that resound like a howl at the moon, and like a sounding board the moon reflects back as a trumpet of doom.

War of the *Children

They are like the One the humans call Wolverine. Masters of human rhythm & timing.

Able to anticipate every move with strength and energy to defeat the Largest army of Humans.

Amazing USA- I'm over it -rant end of Feb

So, you USA folk like my mean-spirited parents think your laws mean something when it's convenient or inconvenient. I personally have lost interest in continuing in the USA since most executives I have met. As well as politicians and bankers only have interest in a ww3. That is coupled with the general mass of Americans who vote in the USA being a pep rally for those who they complain about ( though I'm deafened to hearing positive people as substitutes). 

 I'm a person who customs brokers introduced themselves to me and you and your filthy minions expect to "help" me?! Hope your happy with WW3 because you are worse than anyone who calls themselves a mechanic yet can really only put gas in the vehicle and maybe clean the windshield

Surf big wave 2016

Pyramids

I had a wonderful dream last night as soon as I shut my eyes. There were over 900 pyramids were built over fast expensive desert. It was the most incredible and beautiful thing I have ever seen.

Globalism & NWO

 It's become very clear as this Hawaii Security exercise has shown me;-

1. The Feds and airport authorities are manipulating visitors

2. The Police are interested in controlling drugs and being involved with visiting extensions and members of overseas cartels (some who have federal security clearances and businesses on the islands)

3. omidiyar's crowd (possibly Yamaguchi gumi contractors and brown-no sees) I was warned about most likely manipulate the English version of Craigslist. For me, I have been "set up" 3x to be financially & legally hit badly with living space rentals. 5x to be exact with destruction of my physical belongings, computers, and other financial issues. 

This has left me without a stable and secure residence in which I can sleep peacefully.

With the ensuing war talk with Japan and China that has increased, life for me in Hawaii has gotten substantially intolerable. 

I am severely depressed from 6 years of sexual harassment and assaults. Most have happened from those who work at a federal level and with connection to the Hawaii police (last incident in January). 

The local Asian men are unacceptable in large part due to their drunkenness and common greetings. They generally try to engage a woman in sex without dating conversation. They are immature and abusive. 

I have survived largely due to those who are East Coasters. The difference is huge in that there is some sort of intellectual conversation and general appreciation of and liking of a person- I think that is mutual. 

However they are few and far between

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Dream weekend in tears

It is time to start a major assault on the United States. 

No more race

Really much more simple to annihilate all the "races" and keep the genetic remnants of them. 

Really, it's better to be genetically mutated over 6mutations. hVR1 level. 

Most of the human race is exhibiting typical species issues of invbreeding. I'm a firm believer that the planet is grossly inbred.

Day 1 - A.M.K. Growing up first remembrances

Aside from perpetual torture for being put through MK uLtra protocols;- these are the beginning of notes that were demanded off me for 3decades of MK ultra protocol torture. This page is my Day 1. This did actually occur in Quakertown, Pa and since my life has been threatened with physical harm I see no difference in posting the atrocities.

1. Told me they killed my mother (who came back tortured) she has several scars on her neck/spine from Nazi-like experiments. I was told this was not the same woman I remembered and she immediately started to physically torture me her 1st day back from the hospital. my parents first tore me out of my bed and three me in the hall to sleep on floor.

They then went into a crazed and uncontrolled frenzy to try and hurt me more and literally dragged me down two flights of stairs to throw me out the door. 

Being dragged Down the stairs 18-20 stairs at a time became routine when they discovered I didn't have "visible bruises to go to school. Later over many years it resulted in my wearing neck braces from strained muscles since the technique changed to a backward hair drag out of my seat on to the floor and then down 1 flight of stairs. 

Later on when I was in Jr. High school, this specific torture included being thrown outside into the cold snowy and icy winter, without a jacket or shoes. Isomer ones for hours as I hid from them. It would be terror that turned into my mother's nice sweet voice calling me and as I found out several times, she would hit me more once I returned to the warmth of the house. Of course this was in the suburb "country" so only my Godparents across the street and no one else was close enough to hear or see the screaming and yelling. 

Kung fu Kai

Kai an Ox, is definitely on his own. He knows every master Sifu and doesn't want anyone to know what he knows. So logically, he kills them and takes them out of the physical realm. 

Does he really have any students after they serve him? After all, it took him 500 years to get to chi collector. Or did he take his students chi too after he was done with them? 

Not talking about the kiddie classes. Kai the Ox...all students for real combat. Do they just mysteriously get killed? 

So many masters, so many secrets...too bad the universe is infinite.

Hawaii at its worst convenience

Not sure what to do. stopped in a Seven Eleven @ Ka Uka and their employee elbowed me in the back when I went to get an Inari packet out of the deli case. She said sorry, though she hit my spine really hard and it still feels hurt bad. I'm never returning here 1. Seems malicious 2.